Music and Lyrics

I hate not being able to watch movies on the big screen. For that, I thank VCDs and DVDs. But I would really like to see this movie at the theater. Where was I?

I never thought Hugh Grant can sing. And I can't associate his singing voice with his speaking voice. Is it because of the accent?

Funny how I, most of the time when needed, was regarded as a lyricist. Well, it is easier to wreath the words together when there's melody already. I have always loved writing but I never really paid any attention to this, until after watching the movie. One thing though, I won't be pursuing this. I stopped writing poems when I just learned I can. And now, that I think I can write lyrics, I'd stop now. Hah! Talk about complicated me.

So much for that segue.

The movie made me think of Manila's 80's Has Beens. Hmm.. That would be for a different post.

I really like the "support" Sophie was giving Alex on one of his shows. I find the in-between-numbers-rush-to-the-backstage moment cute.

It's really heart breaking to have the past seem to happen all over again, when you already warned the present that this past made you feel awful. Haay.. opening up to someone is like handing a dagger to that person and offering your heart.

I think the song Alex made for Sophie on the concert was terrible. Hahaha! Adam Sandler could sure write a whole lot better, even with his "Forgetful Lucy".

I like Hugh Grant's equipment or gadgets when he was recording the song for the demo for Cora. High Tech! But still showed that he is indeed a musician.

It's very easy for someone with Hugh Grant's features and being a celebrity and all to break an ordinary girl's heart.

The ending was so sweet.. Instead of basking in fame and glory on the stage, he ran to the back stage and kissed her.

I now find writing songs to be awfully romantic. Haaay..

lyrics - way back into love

The Lake House

I did not watch this movie on the big screen because it was rumored to be very similar to GMA Films' Moments of Love, which I watched with my friends. Unfortunately, it was on a very bad timing that I think I slept during half of the time.

One of the things I love to have about love stories is the fact that they desperately try to make it seem real. So, when a love story is sort of a fantasy on the first note, I don't pay much attention.

The presentation on this one is so good, though.

I really loved the walk they had. And at the end of the walk.. the message on the wall. And I can't seem to find a picture of it anywhere. I like the handwriting used there. Well, ofcourse the thought of everything.

I just can't imagine how hard it seems to move on and let go of someone you're not really sure you had.

What I'm actually thinking right now is, how much faith they had for their love. That they would meet at the right time.

When should one let go and think and say and admit that it won't work, that the relationship won't work, that you can't see how. Why would people hold on if they don't see how it would all work out and turn out to be?

Well, Alex stayed and believed.. so, did Kate, even if she tried to go on with her life.

And as usual, this was a happy ending..

Just for the record, I really find Ebon Moss-Bachrach (who played Henry Wyler, Alex's brother) cute! He's not the drop dead gorgeous type, but he was sort of cute in this movie.

Sandra Bullock states that she felt compelled to name the dog "Jack" after the character of Keanu Reeves in Speed (1994/I) - the first movie the two of them made together.

Kate: Let me let you go.

Keeping Mum

I'm not really a Rowan Atkinson fan. I most of the time find him corny. So, when the rest of my family was watching the Rowan Atkinson Collection, I didn't pay much attention. But this particular movie made me.

I was not really watching on the onset of the movie. I don't like asking questions when I'm watching, but my mom and sister was already talking about their conclusions.

As the movie went on, I kept on saying, "Rowan Atkinson is on this film, is this not a comedy?" or "Is this comedy? I don't think thi is."

Well, in a way it still is comedy, but on a sort of serious note. I was thinking on how this would end.

I think Rowan Atkinson was perfect for the role. He was sort of made handsome here. I really liked his portrayal on this movie. It's like I can't think of anyone more suited for the role. He could really be a minister.

And in this movie I almost said outloud, "They made Professor McGonagall look old!" Hahaha! Well, I'm just to familiar with McGonagall but you will forget about her. Maggie Smith has a whole different character in this movie.

This would not really be on my favorites list, but this movie caught me by surprise. So, there!

someday, someone's gonna take your place

Someday
NINA

Someday you'll gonna realize
One day you'll see through my eyes
But then i won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if i can't

I know
You dont really see my worth
You think your the last guy on earth
Well i've got news for you
I know i'm not that strong
But it won't take long
Won't take long

Chorus

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday

But now
I know you can't tell
I'm down,and i'm not down anyway
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry
Sweet goodbye

Chorus

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday

where it all started

December 2002 when auditioned to be part of the Mapua Tekno Teatro. I joined not because of anything else, but simple because of my love for the art. I didn't expect to have close relationships with the people involved. My mind set was to just work hard for the productions and be a good asset to the organization, learn a lot about performing arts and be the best that I can be. But I got something so much more...

My first production with MT2 is "A Man Called, Jesus." It's a three-dimensional musical production. It's a play within a play within a play. I'm on the 2nd dimension. I play the role of an atheist director of a Christian play. It's very far from the sweet "Tessa" role I'm used to. Plus, it involves a lot of singing. Our director told me that the reason he casted me for the role is because of how I look. He liked the irony of things and the unpredictability of the character. I look so sweet and innocent to be smoking and saying bad words. This was staged at the Music Museum, March of 2003.

Here I met a wonderful set of individuals. We became a family.. The Pamilya Kampai. Then, my life was never the same again. Bwhahahahah!

They showed me the real me. What I'm really capable of doing and who I really am. I know I can live without these people in my life but I would not be this happy, fulfilled and jolly without them. They taught me the joy of laughter, the strength of friendship and the courage to walk through life's tight rope because you know you have a good safety net below. With them I can say the words, "no regrets".

"i love you, kampai"

can't sign in in Yahoo! Messenger

A couple of weeks ago I had the difficulty of signing in to Yahoo! Messenger. Whenever I enter my username and password it would act as signing in for about a minute then it would just go back to the sign in page. It reverts to that page without any error message showing up. So, it was not a username or password issue because it shouldgive me an error message of some sort. Well, something like "Invalid Username/Password".

So, I searched the internet for solutions. Unfortunately Yahoo!'s Help doesn't do much. It doesn't even have the right question for me. And the results that pull up are not even close to my query. So, I went out of the page. Then I sought the help of the trusted Google. Of course it would be impossible that I'm the only person having this trouble. The funny thing though is when my brother tried to sign in, it went through. So, I'm really baffled now. I ofcourse made sure it's not a communication error and all is well with my ISP, since I was able to view websites okay.

Then, I came accross one similar incident with someone in Yahoo! Answers. The solution that was presented there was pretty simple.

Uninstall Yahoo! Messenger completely and download a new set up and reinstall it.

There were following comments saying that this didn't work. But what the heck, it may not work for them, but it may work for me. So, I went ahead and uninstalled my messenger and downloaded a new set up and reinstall it.

Viola! I was able to log in fine now!

I tried to look for the page where I got the suggestion from to give the person some credit and thank him/her for the help. Unfortunately I'm not able to find the correct one anymore. So, to you, whoever you are, thanks!

You just need to eliminate the possible things that may cause this before doing the uninstall-reinstall thing.

• Make sure you have a good connection. Try browsing websites and check how fast the pages load.
• Be certain that you are not logged in on another PC's YM.
• In this instance there are no error messages showing up.
• Make sure your firewall can allows YM to access the internet.

No problems so far. Feel free to put in comments and i'll update this post if something will come up.

American Idol Season 6 Top 24

I missed the airing of the show. I was able to watch the whole episode though via You Tube. (American Idol 6-The 24 semi-finalist-episode 10)


AJ Tabaldo

He was not that remarkable for me during the onset of the competition. Well, I'm not sure if he was featured during his auditions since I wasn't able to watch all the previos episodes.

One remarkable thing though, is he's a Filipino. Once again the Filipino people would be glued to American Idol and watch what would happen next to this contestant. Good thing, a lot of Filipinos are in the United States, thus, they can actually vote for AJ. Seeing his name on the list, and having Tabaldo as his list name, I was almost a hundred percent sure that he has Filipino blood flowing through his veins.

I sure would watch out for this guy. I'm currently searching for clips featuring his singing capabilities. But if he's on the top 24, he's supposed to be good. He auditioned in LA, I'll be checking the LA Audition episode and look out for this guy. On this episonde though, he showed his unique style in singing.

He's not bad looking either. He just needs to keep the people impressed with his voice. Something Jose "Sway" Penala needed to have and do last season.

Well, if things won't work for AJ, he could go here in the Philippines and be famous!


Antonella Barba

Most of her exposures are featured. It's not hard to remember her face and I find her name very sweet. She got stuck to me as the "better best friend". She really has a good voice. I can still remember when Simon told her during her auditions that in this business, when somebody is down, you kick them. Well, she just shook her head in disapproval.
She's beautiful. Another reason why she's on the final 24.

I think she's talented too. Her voice impressed me during her auditions. She just had a terrible group performance, though. She really didn't do well in the Hollywood week. I was actually expecting that she won't get in because of how much she failed to remember her lyrics. Most probably the clips on the episode lead everyone to believe that she will be eliminated from the competition. Let's see how long she'll last.


Gina Glocksen

I'm not that enthralled by her voice, but she's like a rock star to me. She looks really cool with her tattoos and her style. I like what she did to her hair.

Character is really something they're looking for. Not just the voice. She seems to have a tendency to blend with the background though but the stage won't eat her. If you're looking for X-factor, I think she got it.

She's not the model pretty type, she doesn't even look like a movie star but she's not ugly or even someone you could say bad looking. She's just not the typical type of girl guys drool over. And that's not a disadvantage. As long as she keeps her character on the stage when she performs, she's on the right track.


Chris Sligh

He's sweet and funny. Quite a character. I think that's the reason why he's on the list.

He has a good voice of course. I'm not sure though if that would stand out until the end. He was on the best group during Hollywood week and I think he was the one singing the high pitch. He really has a good singing voice. His last song for Hollywood week is really special and sweet! Good style. I think he could make it all the way.

I think I've seen his audition, but I'm not really sure. I could've mistaken him for another plump guy.

It was really smart and funny of him to act as if he called for a meeting with the judges during the top 24 deliberation episode.I'm actually looking forward to his antics and videos. They could be really something funny and to watch for.


Paul Kim

His inspiration in joining the competition was William Hung. So, why is he on the list? Well, he wanted to retrieve the name of Asians when it comes to singing. He thinks that because of William, Asians or Chinese has been conotated as the worst singers. I feel bad for William Hung when he said that, but understanding where he's coming from it's not that bad of a thought to push yourself to do good. Plus it doesn't hurt if you really know they're wrong. He really has a good voice. I almost thought he's a Filipino too. But having Kim as his last name makes him a whole lot more Chinese or something.

He can't be on the list of my cute Chinese guys, but that's alright. He looks better than William Hung, which is a good sign.

I think he has already proven his point. What's next? Could he really be the next American Idol? Some Americans are still prejudicial when it comes to race.


Melinda Doolittle

Whenever I see her, I go "Hee-hee!" That's what her smile make me say.

She was very very shy during her auditions. But she was able to stand out and shine and be "proud" of her voice during Hollywood week, just in time to be part of the top 24.

She really has a wonderful voice and should be able take center stage. It's like a Mariah Carey story. Although, she's not a Mariah Carey bod.

She might even make it to the top 12 if her timidness won't get in the way. She's my bet for the best vocals.


Phil Stacey

This was the guy who went to the auditions on the day his wife was giving birth to their second child. And when Simon asked him, what he'll prioritize, his family or idol, he said his family. Even I was weirded out by the irony.

He's good looking though. It's just that stardom seem to get in his head already when you read his profile in the American Idol website. He seems to be flirting with Paula a lot too. But he still puts her wife on the pedestal though.

I have good vibes for this one, but it's on the negative side. Talk about irony! This guy seem to have a lot of it though.


Sundance Head

I'm not sure what Paula saw in this guy. Even Simon would agree with me during the Hollywood week on why he's still on the competition and Paula seems to be the only one who saw the potential in this guy.

Is he the last on the list? What I mean is, there are actually just 11 good guys this season and they just need to have 12. There are better guys, I think. Just like Antonella, the clips would lead you to think that he won't be the one left to stay to complete the list of twelce.

Is it because his dad is Roy Head and had a Gold Record? I don't even know who Roy Head is. Sorry. Maybe they're thinking that his genes came from a Gold Record holder, he's supposed to have the talent. But I don't think it's showing. Maybe he took after his mom. No offense meant there.

We'll see if people will be voting for this guy.



Honestly, I got hooked up to this whole American Idol mania just last season. Aside from the winners the only people I know from the previous years are Bo Bice and Jasmine Trias. I was very much updated last year, that I even watch replays. This year I only get to watch replays because of my job. And if I miss it I resort to the uploads in You Tube. Even if it's a bit late.

Simon is very sweet and funny this season. He showed a lot of his sense of humor this year. But still the typical Simon, you can still clasify him under rude. If I was a contestant though, I'd pay more attention to what Simon is saying. They're correct. It's just the way he puts it. You just need to squint your eyes and take his criticisms constructively. Most of the contestants could really use his advise to their advantage. And based on last year, most of the time America learned to listen on what Simon has to say.

And as always, Ryan Seacrest is soo cute!

I'll keep on watching the show of course and wait and see. Most probably my opinions would be wrong on certain contestants and there are others who got into the list that didn't catch much of my attention. I would still of course keep an eye on them.

Philippine Call Center Agents' Guide to 2007 Holidays

2007 Philippine Regular Holidays and Non-Working Days

1. January 1 (Monday) New Year's Day(regular holiday)

2. April 5 (Thursday) Holy Thursday(regular holiday)

3. April 6 (Friday) Good Friday(regular holiday)

4. April 7 (Saturday) Special(non-working day - Procl No. 1211)

5. April 9 (Monday) Bataan Day (Arawng Kagitingan) (regular holiday)

6. May 1 (Tuesday) Labor Day (regularholiday)

7. May 14 (Monday) National Elections!

8. June 11 (Monday) In lieu of June12, Independence Day (regular holiday -Proclamation No. 1211)

9. August 21 (Tuesday) Ninoy AquinoDay (special holiday)

10. August 26 (Sunday) NationalHeroes' Day (regular holiday)

11. October 12/14 (not sure which one)Eid ul-Fitr or End of Ramadan

12. November 1 (Thursday) All Saints'Day (special holiday)

13. November 2 (Friday) Special(non-working day – Proc No. 1211)

14. November 30 (Friday) Bonifacio Day(regular holiday)

15. December 24 (Monday) Special(non-working day – Proc No. 1211)

16. December 25 (Tuesday) ChristmasDay (regular holiday)

17. December 30 (Sunday) Rizal Day(regular holiday)

18. December 31 (Monday) Last Day ofthe Year (special holiday)

2007 American Regular Holidays and Non-Working Days

1. January 1 (Monday) New Year's Day

2. January 15 (Monday) Martin Luther King

3. February 19 (Monday) President's Day (observed)

4. May 28 (Monday) Memorial Day (observed)

5. July 4 (Wednesday) Independence Day

6. September 3 (Monday) Labor Day

7. October 8 (Monday) Columbus Day (observed)

8. November 11 (Sunday) Veterands Day

9. November 22 (Thursday) Thanksgiving

10. December 25 (Tuesday) Christmas Day

Good Dates to File Vacation Leaves (considering extra holiday pay)

May 25 (Friday) -- May 28 (Monday) Memorial Day -- May 29 (Tuesday)

July 5-6 (Thursday and Friday) -- July 4 (Wednesday) Independence Day

August 31 (Friday) -- September 3 (Monday) Labor Day -- September 4 (Tuesday)

October 5 (Friday) -- October 8 (Monday) Columbus Day (observed) -- October 9 (Tuesday)

November 21 (Wednesday) -- November 22 (Thursday) Thanksgiving -- November 23 (Friday)

10 VLs, if all holidays will be observed

if not, 15 VLs

how to say i love you

here's a list of how the world says "i love you"..
"i love you" in different languages can be found on the internet.. thanks to google and if you know something you don't see on the list, let me know!

Afrikaans	Ek is lief vir jou!
Albanian	Te dua!
Amharic	Afekrishalehou!
Arabic	Ohiboke / Nohiboka
Armenian	Yes kez si'rumem!
Basque	Maite zaitut!
Bengali	Ami tomake bahlobashi!
Bosnian	Volim te!
Bulgarian	Obicham te!
Catalan	T'estimo!
Creole	Mi aime jou!
Croatian	Volim te!
Czech	Miluji tev!
Danish	Jeg elsker dig!
Dutch	Ik hou van je!
English	I love you!
Esperanto	Mi amas vin!
Estonian	Mina armastan sind!
Farsi	Tora dost daram!
Filipino	Iniibig kita!
Finnish	(Mä) rakastan sua!
French	Je t'aime!
Frisian	Ik hald fan dei!
Galician	Querote!
German	Ich liebe dich!
Greek	S'ayapo!
Gujarati	Hoon tane pyar karoochhoon! tane chaahuN chhuN!
Hawaiian	Aloha wau ia 'oe!
Hebrew	Anee ohev otakh / Anee ohevet otkha / Anee ohev otkha / Anee ohevet otakh
Hindi	Mai tumase pyar karata hun / Mai tumase pyar karati hun
Hungarian	Szeretlek!
Icelandic	Eg elska thig!
Indonesian	Saya cinta padamu!
Irish	t'a gr'a agam dhuit!
Italian	Ti amo!
Japanese	Kimi o ai shiteru!
Korean	Dangsinul saranghee yo!
Latin	Te amo!
Latvian	Es tevi milu!
Lithuanian	As tave myliu!
Malaysian	Saya cintamu!
Mandarin	Wo ai ni!
Marshallese	Yokwe Yuk!
Norwegian	Jeg elsker deg!
Polish	Kocham ciebie!
Portuguese	Eu te amo!
Romanian	Te iubesc!
Russian	Ya tyebya lyublyu!
Sanskrit	twayi snihyaami
Serbian	Volim te!
Sesotho	Kiyahurata!
Slovak	Lubim ta!
Slovenian	Ljubim te!
Spanish	Te amo!
Swahili	Nakupenda!
Swedish	Jag älskar dig!
Tagalog	Mahal kita!
Thai	Phom rug khun / Chan rug khun
Turkish	Seni seviyorum!
Ukrainian	Ya tebe kokhayu!
Urdu	Main tumse muhabbat karta hoon!
Vietnamese	Anh yeu em / Em yeu an
Welsh	Rwy'n dy garu di!
Yiddish	Kh'hob dikh lib!
Zulu	Ngiyakuthanda!

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unique sweet and cute gift ideas

Here are a couple of sweet and cute gift ideas for your special someone, whether it would be for Valentine's Day, Anniversary, or just for the heck of it. This list would no longer include the usual stuff, like flowers, perfume, chocolates and a Teddy. Some of these you may have already heard of, still they are good ideas.

Message in a Bottle

Select a good quality paper, a parchment paper perhaps. You can hand write your letter or the poem you made using a good pen on that paper. If you don't trust your handwriting you can just print one out using your PC. If you're not much of a writer, you can search for poems online or in poetry books. You can also put in your song. Just think of something sweet that can be put to words.

Now, choose a good clear bottle. You can buy one or you may have one sitting at the back of your house. Make sure to have it crystal clean and clear. A bottle of wine (or rum) you shared with that person would be a very good idea. Then, have a bottle stopper. You can buy them at wine shops, or you can use a cork. If that would sound too fancy for you, you may still use the original cap of the bottle; just paint it black or any other color that would cover the brand name.

Roll tight the letter you made. Make sure it would fit in the bottle's mouth. Secure the paper by tying a ribbon around it. Put it inside the bottle and there you go!

Name a Star

If you have seen "A Walk to Remember", this was the gift of Landon to Jamie when they went star gazing one night. It's actually possible. If you have the budget you can have star named after your loved one. You can even put adjectives together with the name, like "The Sweet Elizabeth Star" or " The Luscious Jake Star". Just Google "name a star after someone" and it will return a lot of links that would offer this service. The name would be recognized by the International Star Registry, although scientific institutions will continue to refer to the stars by their coordinates only. If you don't know which star to pick, because of the billion of stars to choose from, you can pick from available coordinates. You can have the special number combinations of your lives as the coordinates. It can be the recipient's birthday, your anniversary or the first day you met.

You will be receiving a certificate with the date of registration and the unique coordinates of the star. Some stores offer other items together with their package.

Since this could not be done locally, you would need to spend a little more than the Philippine peso could handle. But what the heck, seeing the smile on the person you love's face, priceless!

My Last Peso

This can be your last anything. This is a funny, sweet and cute gift, plus it can be cheap! If you'll remember the Fita Biscuit commercial before, with the famous line, "Last Fita q n 2!" (Hey! No actual Filipino word there!), the same concept applies. Isn't it sweet to know that a person will be giving you his/her last something, and knowing that that something has been saved, and has been very difficult for that person to consume himself/herself because it's his/her last piece, and he/she will be just giving it away… and of all people, to you!

This can be anything under the sun! If you both smoke, it can be your last stick of an expensive imported pack of cigarettes. That might be as simple as the last peso in your mobile's prepaid account. You could even put in the message that, 160 characters may not be enough, but you'd rather spend your last peso on her than wait for another chance to say… something cheesy… might be too much for me to take. If you use your imagination, it can be something you almost got for free, like the last ride for those who buy the Stored Value Card of MRT. If it's food or something that would spoil after sometime, you could do a replica of it then put on the pedestal. For candies or chocolates, you can take the wrapper and wrap it on something that won't spoil and can take the shape of the real one, clay would be good. Then, put in inside a glass casing and put an inscription at the bottom, like "My Last Chocnut."

Just explain why you're giving it, in the most creative and sweet way you can think of, so that, instead of being mad at you or insulted, he/she will just probably laugh because of the irony of things and would still find it sweet. You may also use cute packaging that would make it look priceless, which could still be true. Think of something that you both like or at least something that that person knows you really want and won't even make other people go near, and you can start from there.

The list and ideas could be endless. But the formula would still be the same. Start with how you really feel; think of the person you'll be giving it to; work on a budget or the lack of it; be creative; use your imagination; personalize the gift to show your sincerity and have fun!

When you think about it, it's really better to give than to receive, and whatever you may receive, what counts is the thought! *wink*

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http://barncogitations.blogspot.com

no vampires

We get up as the sun sets… And slumber at the break of dawn… and no, we're no vampires. We're call center agents.

Being half way around the globe from our customers, we would need to be available at the time they would need us the most. So, while our half of the world is sleeping, we're up and about tending to the people on the other half. Having forty winks they would not know what the night brings for us.

We would wake up to beautiful sunsets as the sky goes dark. Our alarm clocks would not be birds tweeting but bats squeaking or those reptiles that go "tuuu-kooo". Instead of hearing "taaa—hooo", we would hear, "balooot!"

It's a little pointless to watch the news, like the weather update since the weatherman would be showing what has already transpired. There's no announcement as to what would happen for the rest of the night, instead they would show what is likely to happen the next day, when we would already be in the safety of our homes sleeping.

Coffee would no longer be solely part of the "breakfast" menu, since this would be the one flowing through our veins on the latter parts of the evening, it would be our substitute to water as to make sure we're on our toes. Smokers would also have a pack of cigarettes secured in their bags or pockets before leaving the house, to be able to light a stick every chance they'd be able to get. Thus, the spread of the Nicotine-Caffeine Syndrome. Caution, don't try to surprise this type of people, you might end up doing CPR's than eating cake.

No matter how hot it was during the day, they'll each be bringing along a jacket with them. Having computers on the floor, which require a low temperature, we'd need to find our feet to its working condition. Every night is like a fashion show of the coat line of Ukay-Ukay. You'd see a wide range of collection, from the regular jackets, to trench coats, from shawls to ponchos and even from capes to blankets.

Previously mistaken for high-class hookers, we would strut the sidewalks of business centers during the dark hours of the day, late at night and on the wee hours of the morning. Who would've thought we have decent jobs? Well, wardrobe does contribute a lot, but even how decent you might dress up, the time you're on the streets would make grandmother's eyebrow rise.

Our lunch would be a heavy midnight snack for other nocturnes. But we are limited to the food our canteens would offer or the 24-hour convenience stores around. Lucky for those who are capable of preparing lunch, they're sure they're not eating the leftovers of the day.

After 9 hours of fighting the strong urge to curl up and sleep, it would be time to go home. In the morning, heavy traffic might be on hand, but we're going the other way and won't be late for anything. However, our friends and families would be the ones alive and kicking that we can't help but bond with them. After being tired of speaking, hearing and reading foreign language, it would be like a warm embrace to be able to speak your native tongue at last. A small price to pay though, we'd have the tendency to stay up late. Huh?! Stay up late? At daytime? How confusing!

With the sun blaring, we have our own tactics on how to fall asleep. Sometimes, being tired would not be enough; our body clocks have a faulty "snooze" button. Wearing dark glasses is the first aid, but usually these glasses would work too well, and when you wake up, you'd have a can of coins beside you.

So, most of us resort to alcohol drinking. Don't mistake us for those you see in the street corners. We'd still have our shirts on. It's much easier to fall asleep if you're already drowsy. You would no longer mind the radiant sunshine. In the case you'd want to drink in the middle of the day or early in the morning, look for the call center agents going out from their shift, they'd be glad to share the toast.

Working during the nighttime required us to adjust to almost a whole new world. We don't have sleepless nights, we have sleepless days, because we don't sleep at night, we sleep during the day, but again, no, we're no vampires.

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what you missed

a whole chapter of my life..

a part that i sort of want to erase but was able to make me happy.. so, i'm not sure if i regret it or what.

all i can say is i'm sorry. but what does sorry really mean?

Saying you're sorry is called apologizing. When you apologize, you're telling someone that you're sorry for the hurt you caused, even if you didn't do it on purpose. People who are apologizing might also say that they will try to do better. They might promise to fix or replace what was broken or take back a mean thing they said.

How Does It Make You Feel?

When you apologize to someone — and really mean it — it's because you have stopped to think about how the person may have felt because of what you did or said. When you stop to think about the other person's feelings, you begin to feel sorry for your behavior. You might even feel embarrassed or ashamed if you did something that you knew was wrong.

Even if what happened was an accident or you did something you didn't mean to do, you would probably still feel sorry if you knew the other person's feelings were hurt. After apologizing, you might feel a little better (the other person probably will, too). When you apologize in a caring way, you can feel good because you are trying to make things right again.

Does Apologizing Fix Everything?

Saying I'm sorry when you need to is the right thing to do. It does a lot of good. But by itself, it might not be enough to make everything all better again. Sometimes along with an apology, a person needs to fix the mistake or say they will try to do better. Sometimes doing a nice thing for the person after you apologize helps show that you really are sorry and want to be friendly again.

Sometimes a heartfelt "I'm sorry" fixes everything right away. Other times, it might take a while for someone to feel friendly after you apologize. You might need to give the other person some time. Even after you say you're sorry, you might still feel bad about what you said or did — but you can feel good about apologizing and about making up your mind to do better.

When someone apologizes to you, you might not feel like being friendly again right away. Once in a while, if a person doesn't change, you might not want to be friends anymore. You might feel relieved and glad that the other person apologized and admitted being wrong. But if someone keeps behaving in mean ways or does something that keeps hurting, you might not feel the same way anymore. Just because someone apologizes to you doesn't mean you have to be friendly again. That part is up to you.

from www.kidshealth.org

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11 Painful Things

11 Painful Things

1. Bringing back the feeling you've learned to forget. stitch

2. Reminiscin' the good times. stitch

3. Trying to hide what you really feel. stitch

4. Loving someone who loves another. too many to mention.. will, empi

5. Having a commitment with someone that you know wouldn't last. stitch

6. Shielding your heart to love somebody. will, stitch,

7. Loving a person too much. stitch

8. Right love at the wrong time. jimmy

9. Taking risk to fall in love again. stitch, ron, right now

10. Accepting that it was never meant to be. stitch

11. What if's... will, jimmy, empi and crushes..

.. and karen was skeptic that i indeed experienced everything on the list.

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confession

i texted.. i asked.. and as usual.. no reply. since, this would be nothing new, i was not disappointed. i would even be scared if there was a reply since, basically, i don't think i'm ready.. in every aspect.

i stopped myself from texting him.. because i don't really know what to say.. wel, there are things i want to say, but all would look very trampy.. and i don't want that. i even thought of sending out an email with his message, period. but that would be so, untimely. i think. i should wait till my birthday, maybe and make sure i have no extra baggage left.

as usual, this would once again test my patience. can i hold that long or if i'll be able to, would i still do it?

so far, i don't think i was able to do such.. wait to do something. i was able to wait, but was not able to do what i wanted to.. i was able to do things, but earlier than the period of time i've set. breaking my own words.

so, basically, i'm not over him. maybe i never will, since i almost had him. almost.

hmm.. let me make a list of the guys i almost had.. so, that excludes those who still wants me.

brian, chito, viktor, will, cedo..

and they all ended up on the same spot. girl friend. some already have, others on the rocks and the rest ended up having one, and that's not me. hmpf! heheh! but that's okay.. *with a tight tummy*

moral lesson of the story: run away from scenes that has the potential of ending up the same way with arms wildly waving and don't forget to scream.

but pretty much i was able to get over them eventually. i can't say who was the hardest to get over with. so, this would. well, all would.

the things is, until then i can't say..

but pretty much, learn from your mistakes and put your motto in life to use.

hmm.. i'm okay again!

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movie trivia: dead man's chest

• The gigantic wheel weighed at 1800 pounds standing at 18 feet tall.
• Bill Nighy performed most of his role as Davy Jones in motion capture suit, later to be created entirely with CGI
• First film to feature Disney's new logo, a computer-generated model of the Magic Kingdom, replacing the blue and white silhouette.
• The game that Will Turner plays with Davy Jones with the dice is called Liar's Dice, a gambling game where each player has to make consecutively higher bids based upon how many of each die they claim are on the table (two threes, four fives, etc), until a player is called a liar, in which case all the dice are shown and it's seen if the bid is correct.
  
• At $132 million dollars domestically in its opening weekend, this movie smashed the previously believed "unbreakable" record of $114.8 million dollars that Spider-Man held. It is the biggest weekend opener of all time.
  

I reall can't get over this movie.. Really is comparable to Empire Strikes Back...

I cried.. I believe twice.. When Will's dad was to whip him and when Jack died.. woohoo! what a spoiler! heheheh!

I loved the fight scenes.. specially with the wheel.

After the movie, people were clapping their hands and basically everyone let out a sigh of aggravation! waaah! a real cliff hanger, but you would not mind the time and feel that there's another installment. You'll be really caught unaware..

Loved the movie!

Before watching I told my friend that I missed Johnny Depp, then he said, he misses Orlando Bloom, I told him, I don't miss Orlando, he always goes to our place, that's why.. heheheheh!

aaawww.. i can't help but think of the person whom i really associate the face of orlando bloom with.. haaay.. but that's okay. a good feeling actually.

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just popped out of my mind

for no one in particular.. (defensive?!?)

Beginning Today
Agot Isidro

Beginning today I promise you
I give my heart to you
Beginning today I promise to
Never part from you
From now on I will be right by your side
And I swear other things I'll put aside
Beginning today
Beginning today
(I promise you I give my heart to you)
Beginning today there's no one else
On my mind
Beginning today there's nobody else
Right here inside my heart
From now on I will be right by your side
And I swear other things I'll put aside
From now on there'll be no one else on my mind
Beginning today (Beginning today)
Beginning today
(I promise you)
Beginning today
(I give my heart to you)
From now on I will be right by your side
And I'd swear other things I'll put aside
From now on there'll be no one else on my mind
Beginning today (Beginning today)
Beginning today
And I'd swear other things I'll put aside
From now on there'll be no one else on my mind
Beginning today
Beginning today
(I promise you I give my heart to you)
Beginning today

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waaah!

while i was searching for monologues for kiki.. i found this.. and it just killed me..

A letter
by Emily Picha
Maria and her boyfriend have not been able to see each other for a few months since they met at a youth retreat. They have been keeping in touch via letters and phone calls, and this is a particular rough spot.


I'm better. Had a conference with myself. Just wanted you to know that. I have some questions. If we were able to see eachother more would it make it any better? If we were able to talk on the phone more would it make it okay? If we were able to talk about our lives instead of our feelings in our letters would it make it better? I don't know. I just can't end this. That would make me feel really horrible. But you're going to do what you're going to do. I'm sad and sick and sorry about your letter. And I'm sorry you've been depressed about this, I haven't because I've been ecstatic about the whole concept of you.

But if we stop talking now, what do we do when we see eachother and I have feelings for you still? Can I hug you? Kiss you? Or do I have to act like a saint because we're "friends?"

I guess I'll just deal with it when the time comes. If you want to stop writing you won't touch the keyboard. And I'll fight my hardest trying not to touch mine. I'll erase you from my address book. But you won't be erased from my mind.

I don't understand how you can go from being mooshy and "I want to hold you"-icious to wanting to be platonic. I don't understand how people can just STOP having "feelings" for eachother. That doesn't happen! I can't just install a stop sign in our intersecting lives (oh gee i'm gettin very metaphoric). If you want to come up here the week after school ends the doors are open. If you don't want to be involved then I guess you won't make the trip. I want you to hold me again. I want the chance to have my FIRST kiss. WITH YOU.

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pain

a symptom of some physical hurt or disorder

emotional distress; a fundamental feeling that people try to avoid

a somatic sensation of acute discomfort

cause emotional anguish or make miserable

there. proven my theory once again that i'm not meant to be happy for a long time. i'm still not sure though what to change or what to think because there are a lot of things that are different and a lot of things did change along the process. i'm sometimes thinking about how or why and what. i don't want to think. but keeping myself from thinking would give me headaches and a tremendous heavy feeling inside my chest that i'm no longer certain if it's something physical or something emotional.

i want to talk to them. or at least write. but i don't seem to be fit yet to do so. it was fun reading my past entry that has the same concept. i even thought of doing that but maybe not today.

who's singing?

in less than two hours i'd be going home.. i think.

and i've been stopping myself to write. but then again, i just can't resist to pour out my thoughts.

actually there are a lot of things to figure and straighten out. how? i used to believe whenever i write i'm able to do that but it just helps to release the feeling but it don't really give me out the answers to the questions i have.

i know how brain stimulation gives me the rush and having the lack of it for quite sometime now and being able to quench the thirst, i'm all giddy..

waaaah!!

for all the types of emotion that may apply to that applies to me now. the loneliness, happiness and insanity all rolled inside my chest. but the freaky part is that the happiness is the one that seems to be surfacing. this is scary even. oops, add fear! hahahah!

i'm used to things not going my way. i won't be surprised if all would just end up as a big pile of heap. so, there.

i would need time on my own. time to live for me for once. but of course if someone would like to come with me, i believe hearts will always have room for people. right?!?

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proof

inbox

thanks 4 getting my mind off things. btw, i'l be able to close everything today, and hopefully, you'll be ther with me to open a new chapter. take care din po..

don't be mad, pero di ako nakapagreply kasi i fell asleep, and i appreciate your honesty. there's nothing that would make me happier than to be with you. and only you.

let's keep this between us for now ok? i hope when you read these messages you'll think of me as someone who'll be there for you, i want a new chapter and i want you to be with me.

sent

dude, i just hope you don't get confused on what you really feel and what you really want. You just broke up. You had a number of years shared. I'd be happy to start a new chapter with you, but i can't have anything with you if you're still not certain with what you want. No hard feelings. No strings attached. I've got my own baggage. I'd just want you to be happy.. Promise.

I'm not here to mess up your mind or your feelings.. I'm just here for you.. Whatever you'd want to do with it would be under your discretion.

You promised you'd reply. You didn't. I'm not the type of person who has that much confidence who'd think that another person would appreciate me as i am. I'm taking a risk and so are you. If you're not ready to jump, how much more me. I've been tired of mind games. All i ask for is truth and honesty. Nothing more. I've been hurt a lot of times and sometimes i believe i'm numb. But there's nothing i can do. Maybe i'm just someone you'd appreciate when i'm there, but when i am, there's nothing really different.

I Should Tell You Lyrics

ROGER
I should tell you I'm disaster
I forget how to begin it

MIMI
Let's just make this part go faster
I have yet - to be in it
I should tell you

ROGER
I should tell you

MIMI
I should tell you

ROGER
I should tell you

MIMI
I should tell I blew the candle out just to get back in

ROGER
I'd forgotten how to smile until your candle burned my skin

MIMI
I should tell you

ROGER
I should tell you

MIMI
I should tell you

BOTH
I should tell you,
Well here we go
Now we-

MIMI
Oh no

ROGER
I know - this something is, here goes-

MIMI
Here goes

ROGER
Guess so, it's starting to-
Who knows-

MIMI
Who knows

BOTH
Who knows where?
Who goes there?
Who knows?
Here goes?
Trusting desire - starting to learn
Walking through fire without a burn
Clinging - a shoulder a leap begins
Stinging and older, asleep on pins
So here we go now we-

ROGER
Oh no

MIMI
I know

ROGER
Oh no

BOTH
Who knows where - who goes there?
Here goes-
Here goes-
Here goes-
Here goes-
Here goes-
Here goes-

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hmpf!

i had something written already..

and i closed it accidentally without posting..

this just proves that i picked the right song for the day..

Bad Day
Daniel Powter

Where is the moment when we need it the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue sky's faded to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carrying on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carrying on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carrying on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Sometimes the system goes on the blink and the whole thing it turns out
Wrong
You might not make it back and you know that you could be well oh that
Strong
Well I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You see what you like
And how does it feel, one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

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insane

i'm not sure what i'm doing righ now..

i can't even predict what i'll do next. i can't reason out why i did those things.. i'm going insane. maybe being numb is driving me mad.

actually, if i will step back and look at the things i've been doing, i'd even ask myself why am i doing these things.. they don't even add up!

well, it's closing time..

and i know who i want to take me home..

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from now on..

okay, i'll admit i'm not the best person to trust when it comes to keeping her word.. specially my promises to myself. but here goes..

i'll stop hurting. i'll let the numbness take over me.

bad.. maybe. but again it would be helpful for my "healing process". although, i have to admit that it's not yet time to think about it. it's actually rude to think about it already, but i just can't help to..

a lot of changes will take place. from my end at least. it would be too much to expect changes from the other side.

i'd like to put in a lot, specially to understand more why the picture, but then again.. "friends" took the best of me.. haay..

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iris

this has been my song for a long time. i was actually surprised i haven't entered it here yet.. so, here goes..

iris
goo goo dolls

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
and sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

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cyclone loop

i had just went through the cyclone loop. but a lot of bumps and bruises are still on the way. i was about to jump out of this roller coaster ride but i think it would hurt more than just waiting for it to stop, although of course after the ride i'd be so dizzy it would be so hard to walk straight up. both ways i know i'd end up having broken bones.

.. it's again getting hard to breathe. the pain in the chest.. the swollen eyes.. and the numb body. the next loop might be too big for me to handle and i might get thrown out of the ride. physics. i might not notice it until after i feel the warmth of fresh blood coming out of me.

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