cute survey from nessha

1. May pag-asa ka ba pag may gusto ka
sa
isang taong 3 years ang layo sa edad
mo?
:: ako pa! loved by all ages! kaya lang sila ang walang pag-asa sakin.. medyo freaky kung 3 years younger.. older, pwede..

2.Maiinis ka ba sa isa mong kaibigan
kapag crush niya ang crush mo?
:: depende sa level ng friendship namin at ng pagkaka-crush ko dun sa crush ko... bwahahahhah! may ganon!

3. Ibibigay mo ba lahat para lng sa
mahal mo??
:: hmm... what do you think? haaay..

4.Wha t do you think of Sam
Concepcion??? ?
:: cute.. sounds like a girl in his song.. but i heard him interviewed on the radio and he was asked to sing.. he does have a voice.. cute..

5.F a ll Out Boy or Maroon 5??
:: maroon 5, any day..

6.What do you think of "girls making
the first move"?
:: it's alright.. as long as their not making the move on my man.. heheheh!

7.What do you think of pipol?
:: is this an abs-cbn survey?! i rarely watch tv.

8. Anung magiging reaction mo kapag
nalaman mo yung mahal mo may
girlfriend/Bo yfriend na?
:: ano'ng nagbago?! ano gagawin ko? ewan.. bwahahahah!

9. Panu kung tinext ka ng
girlfriend/Boy friend ng mahal mo,
nagagalit bkt mo daw tinetext ung
boyfriend nya??
:: kasi may load ako..

1 0. Pick one:::
----1.LOve suCks!
----2.LOve HuRts
----3.LoVe Is HapPy
:: love sucks

11. How is the weather today?
:: rainy.. hate rain.

12. panu kung hinihingi ng kaklase mo
yung picture ng mahal mo ibibigay mo?
:: bakit sya sakin hihingi? be resourceful gurl! heheheh!

13. Panu kung hinihingi ng schoolmate
mo
ung cellphone number ng mahal
mo? ibibigay mo??
:: depende kung bakit..

1 4. eh cnabi niya sau kukunin nya na
lang harap-harapan kasi nga ayaw mo
ibigay...
: : okay..

15. Panu kung niligawan ka ng mahal mo
eh bawal kang mag-girlfriend/boyfriend??
:: i would let him know.. to see if he's up to the challenge.. for a change! letche!

16.Wha t do you think of "ligaw"?
:: missing?! bwahahaha! never ask permission!

17. What do you think of "ligaw sa
Text?
:: kung dun lang, corny ha? dapat isa lang yun sa mga ways nya..

18. What do you think of indians?
:: nothing much

19 .What is your favorite Maroon 5 song?
:: she will be loved.. sunday morning.. this love.. they're actually my favorite foreign band

20 . What is your favorite gwen stefani
song?
:: sweet escape! bwahahahha!

21. your fav. kelly Clarkson song?
:: because of you

22. What do you think of street food?
:: missing it!

23. What do you think of Cadbury
chocolate ??
:: salmonela?! bwahahahahha! yeah, right! love it!

24. Ung crush mo ba nasa featured
friends mo?
:: wala po.. siblings and pamangkins ang featured friends ko eh.. :)

thanks nessha!

50 questions

50 questions to boggle the mind in
your past & you
do miss them.

1. First off, what's your name?

- Laarni C. Lopez

2. Okay, but what does your best
friend/s call you?

- barn, larn

3. Have you ever kissed someone with
braces?

- nope

4. Who is the fourth received call on
your call log?

- ronald

5.If you could change your eye color
what would it
be?

- green or hazel

6. What is the wallpaper on your phone?

- pon and zi

7. How many pillows on your bed?

- 4

8. Who was the last text message you
sent to?

- batche

9. What color is your shirt right now?

- pink

10. What was the best thing that
happened to you
last year?

- 2006.. can't think of the good things.. too many bad things..

12. Who's the fourth person on your
contacts list?

- lei

13. When was the last time you cried
from laughing
so hard?

- sobrang tagal.. can't remember

14. What school did you attend in
elementary?

- Zion Center of Knowledge School and Jesus Is Lord Christian School

15.do you have a crush?

- a lot

16. Who was the last person that made
you laugh?

- eloisa

17. Do you like Quiznos?

- ito ba yun?
at syempre, research ko talaga.. resto pala.. heheheh! McDonald's na lang.

18. Who do you make fun of the most at
school?

- tia mitch

19. What's the longest time you've
ever talked on
the phone?

- 12 hours and so

20. Do you think you've gotten more
handsome/
pretty since grade school?

- definitely

21. Have you seen your bestfriend cry?

- who is my best friend? i'm a loser.

23. Do you dance in the car?

- yeah!

24. What do you think of hunting and
fishing?

- adventure.. haven't tried.. but really scared to do so..

25. Do you and your bestfriend act
alike?

- loser!

26. What is a noise that you cannot
stand?

- when metal meets metal

27. Does your mom vacuum early in the
morning,
when you're sleeping?

- nope

28. Are your parents in love?

- yeah..

29: What does your 9th txt say?

- Kelan at san g2win bday nung dalawa? Sby n b?

30: Who sent it?

- batche

31. Would you rather sleep at a
friend's or have
them over?

- both

32. When was the last time you wrote a
note, and to
who?

- medyo matagal na.. pero malamang last month lang.. kay eloisa

33.are you in love?

- still checking..

34. who do you miss most?

- many people and things

35. What do you smell like right now?

- something.. may sakit kasi si naomi eh..

36. Do you have a hard time admitting
you're
wrong?

- nope.

37. Who was the last person you held
hands with?

- djames

38. What shoes did you wear today?

- planning to wear sneakers

39. What makes you lose your appetite?

- pressure

40. What color is your laundry
basket/s?

- black

41. Last person you kissed?

- where?

43. Do you own any Levi pants/jeans?

- nope

44. Do you think those stores are too
expensive?

- yes

45. How do you like your steak?

- well done.. hehehe!

46. Who's in your house right now?

- family

47. Where did you get your last bruise
from?

- ewan

48. Where did you last go out to eat?

- brothers burger

49. List three things that keeps you
going in life.

- faith.. yun lang.

50. Is there someone you can't stop
thinking about?
- yes...

facing reality

CAUTION: i have my period and it's raining outside.

why can't i face the truth?
why can't i accept the facts?
why can't i mean what i say? or at least write..
let me rephrase that last bit..
why can't i say what i write?

okay, i can say them, but not to the people who are meant to hear those words.

i'm wrong. i'm the bad person here.. i'm the one with the personality problem. it's all my fault. whatever pain and difficulty i may be experiencing, i've brought this to myself.

nobody's perfect. but you perceive yourself to be. i can't tell you things i want to say. i'm afraid. i've always been. like i've said, from the beginning, i'm really scared.

what now? wait again.. ?! for what? let time pass by and make it seem that time has made everything forget. who forgot what? time forgot everything..

i'm tired, but i can't seem to do anything about it. i can't stop. am i addicted? maybe.. but..

define: addiction

• a state of being dependent on a certain substance, which is harmful or dangerous for the physical or mental health of the person, for his social well-being and economical functioning of the subject
• dependence on a substance (such as alcohol or other drugs) or an activity, to the point that stopping is very difficult and causes severe physical and mental reactions
• Strong emotional and /or psychological dependence on a substance such as alcohol or drugs that has progressed beyond voluntary control.
• A strong need for food, drink, people, or other things, which is extremely hard to resist.

just the thought of stopping makes me cringe.

can't live with it, can't live without it..

the promise of a better set up is just around the corner.. i just can't make the turn.

i'm sick and tired of drama, but this is where it leads to..

everyone else has given up. there are things they can't understand. i, myself can't, how much more them? well, they're not supposed to be involved in the first place, right?

i understand their care and concern, but in reality, there's nothing much they can do, but stand watch.. be entertained.

haaay.. this is like a never ending story that is desperately asking to end.

words from ally mc beal

disparage

• express a negative opinion of; "She disparaged her student's efforts"
• To degrade by unequal marriage, as when a man or woman married someone who was not their peer--ie a countess marrying a simple knight would be considered to be disparaged, and her honor reduced accordingly.

after the first "ber"

september has finally ended.. and i'm done. the worst has passed. hehehehehe!

i think everyone forgot about me already. stitch, king kong and chito.. it's a good thing.. right?

and i'm not really in the mood to look for new characters to talk about.. to think about.

there are a lot of things i'm looking forward to this october.

• bacolod.. or pagudpod.. or bacolod.. heheheh!
• the trip to jerusalem game in the office
• the senator stepping down her position
• and a whole lot more.. hehehhe!
  

haaay.. life..

and it came to pass..

not that i anticipated it..

okay, a little.. but there. not much expectation as usual. thus, the surprises really made me smile..

thanks to everyone who remembered.. you know who you are!

king kong just climbed up the charts! stitch went down, as usual.. chito stays on the same spot.

hugs to 'stig and pink 5 and borta sr. and lots of love to ate faith.. she may never know it.. but haaaay.. thanks!

missed kampai a lot..

a month of silence

and i'm currently having short term memory loss..

okay.. i do remember a lot of things. but they're supposed to be forgotten. so, why write about it?

a lot of things are actually about to come an end.

king kong.. a little. i think. i sort of hope..
stitch.. not sure about this though. i know it has always been up to me, so, i guess, this would be my call. right? the question is how.
chito.. he's just there because of mom. but then, naaah...

i need to be alone. we all need some time to be alone, right?

the senator and constituents are against me.. so, there's an ending too. i think.. too bad.

master yoda will be going too..

because of the season, i'm again, trying to fix my life. i know i can't, on my own. i would need all the help i can get.

pray..

it would be fun to sort things out in writing. but then, i already know the answer, before i ask the question.

for quite some time now, my YM status has been,

"If two people love each other, but they just can't seem to get it together, when do you get to that point of enough is enough?"

.. and i have received a number of reactions. others were able to identify where it came from. but so far, my favorite answer is..

"Enough is enough when it no longer matters if you love each other."

Haaay.. It actually gave me hope.

I'm not sure when I will be able to get my act together. Maybe this year. Or the next.

I will probably end up alone and lonely in the process. But happiness is a choice, right? I would need to work out the "alone" part. It sounds impossible, but feels like reality.

haaay... i hope, the right things will eventually make you happy.

playing the game

.. again, i'm at the losing end. but i'm smiling. almost.

13

- glad to be able to wear my sneakers again!
- went to work early, but didn't bother to bring clothes.. wrong move!
- finished 4400! 'stig!

14

- didn't take a bath when i had the chance.. wrong move!
- the big red tagalog e-mail.. one down (antonym of "one up")!
- rained cats and dogs.. with lightning and thunder.. viewed from the 34th floor..
- the Burgundy Island
- kulitan with king kong
- went to stitch..
- watched "The Love Story".. even how hard I try to stop it.. tears fell.
- no sleep

15

- 4 hours of paid sleep.. no repercussions yet.. but i have this huge feeling it's another.. wrong move!
- Trinoma trip with borris, eloisa and jeremy.. ditched stitch in the process.
- went home.. for a change!

@ work - not hoping..
@ school - what?!?
@ home - who are you?!
@ love - ... huh?!?
@ money - no sense of direction
@ faith - hanging by the moment..
@ life - can we go a little faster?!
@ friends - never alone! almost.
@ self - blech!

Aloha au iā ‘oe

okay.. so... well.. now... waaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!

do i really have what i want?!

am i supposed to be happy now?

i think, i am...

is happiness really just a state of mind?!

oh, well..

i think i'm okay..

during the storm

i haven't been online for the passed three to four days because i was not home, because of the weather, a storm.. yeah, right!

i have been staying at borris, mark and mae's place.. and for the record, during my stay there, we didn't drink a single drop of alcohol. okay, i'm not sure if i will be proud of that.. but there!

that's the reason of the silence..

but not that silence. when i think about it now, it looks funny. but then, it was difficult.. almost sad. i know he would not break.. and, i hope and try, neither would i.

but it's the weekends again.. and i hated last sunday. i wished i was out, doing something less stupid.

now that i killed king kong.. i'm afraid to admit that i miss him, because i know he doesn't. maybe that's why.. i fought a koala and lost.

i killed king kong

i want king kong dead. i need him dead.

okay, cueboy will only get half of the idea. but that's the point right?

well, because of the turn of events, i ended up killing king kong. i think it's already long over due. he should have died long ago. didn't have the heart to kill him.

now that i do. there. the only thing left to do.. is bury him.

i know it would be fun to leave his dead body there and let it rott or just throw in newspaper on top of his body and take pictures, but i think i need it burried. it doesn't need to be a decent burial. i don't even need the ceremony, but i need the after party.

i need to know how.

and the thought just came in.. i need help from stitch. i don't think he can make much difference. i'm not sure now what he's supposed to do. so, maybe, i just thought of him.

back to burrying king kong.. how?!

apathy? hate? ... forgetting...

delete!

the file has changed. do you want to save the changes?

are you sure you want to send king kong to the recycle bin?

are you sure you want to delete king kong?

yes.. i need to..

need to look up to keep the tears from flowing..

pathetic excuse

posting the results of personality quizzes here is my pathetic excuse of an entry..

i've been avoiding myself. avoiding thinking.. thus, avoiding writing..

okay, reality, it would be impossible to avoid thinking, specially me.. so, i guess it's more of avoiding finalizing my thoughts. that's what happen when i write. my thoughts get a little organized, thus i would be able to think more.. and sometimes, if i'm lucky, come up with a conclusion to what's happening, inside and outside of me.

i love being in front of the computer.. browsing.. being online. but as i flip through the pages, there's always this question, "aren't you going to post a decent entry today?!" thus, browsing for cute/interesting personality quizzes to be able to post the result.

i gotta go.. b@d+12!p just entered the house.

addicted to personality quizzes

i'm not really sure what ENFP means..

Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ENFP)

Your personality type is enthusiastic, giving, cautious, and loyal. Only about 8% of all people have your personality, including 9% of all women and 6% of all men You are Extroverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

nothing forever.. again..

which sad love quote (that i made up) are you?

"my love for you ends as the rose petals falls" Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code

how pathetic..

You Are a White Rose

You represent youthfulness and purity. Your vibe: Sweet and heavenly Falling in love with you: is like falling in love for the first time

What Color Rose Are You?

because it's the easiest to show..

What is your favorite emotion to show? pics what does the world see

HAPPINESS! YOU LOVE TO SHOW HAPPINESS AND YOU TRY TO BRIGHTEN UP OTHER PEOPLES DAYS BECAUSE IT MAKES U FEEL GOOD OR YOU ARE HAPPY BECAUSE YOU FEEL THAT YOUR LIFE IS GREAT.
Take this quiz!


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half expected this result...

Your Reputation Is: Mean Girl

You rule through teasing and intimidation.. Yet, people would give the world to be your friend

Do You Have A Bad Girl Reputation?

tragic.. as always..

What anime kiss are you? (with pics, girls only sorry)

the 'goodbye' kiss. usually the most tragic but the most meaningful. shared when two lovers are meant to be apart and will never see each other again. AWWW!!!! Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code

for more of my quiz addiction, check out my quiz blog.

where are you?!?

You Are Picky When it Counts

Like most sane women, you want a great guy who will treat you well. But you're also willing to put up with a few flaws in your Mr. Right You should congratulate yourself on having a realistic approach to dating. You probably have quite a few great guys you can date!

Are You Too Picky When It Comes To Men?

painful tears came out

for the longest time that i've been wanting to cry because of all the things that has been happening and those that i'm anticipating to happen.. i was able to manage, one tear on the right eye and 2 on the left.. and that was it! the first tear was actually painful.. physically.

honestly, i wanted to cry more. and it was the perfect setting because no one was home but me. but then, i wasn't able to produce a 4th tear.

the simpsons movie

in our no-sleep-no-rest streak.. today, eloisa and i watched "the simpsons movie".

no regrets! it was really funny. the lines are so witty, just like the show itself. and the thing is, it has a story! hehehehe!

watch it!

*too tired to write more.. :'(

wearing high heeled boots

... for almost 24 hours straight is going to kill your feet.

.. good thing, i've got (and it feels good to know that one has) good friends.
.. bad thing, there are things that hurt more than sore feet.
.. good thing, there are still things that would make you smile and even laugh out loud.
.. bad thing, there are still things that would make your tears flow.

saying sorry for nothing in particular, but for everything i have caused someone is one of my early steps in saying goodbye, in letting go.. which, would mean, i'm in deeper $h!+ than i have imagined.

and it comes down to this...

Your Birthdate: September 18

For you, love is a feeling that lingers for really long time - even after a relationship is totally over.In fact, you still make have strong feelings for the first person you fell in love with. You usually are reluctant to end relationships. And sometimes you're the last to know that things are ending! Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1 You are most compatible with people born on the 9th, 18th, and 27th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

meet gabriel...

mind game.. i won!

1.What's the best love story
you've ever watched?
** the notebook

2. Do u think you're ok?
** yeah.. and bowing head slowly..

3. Song playing at the moment?
** transitioning from Christina Aguilera's "I Turn to You" to "Dear Mr. President" by Pink

4. One song to describe current
relationship?
** unfaithful or lips of an angel

5. Accessories you usually wear?
** bracelet

6. Fave color(s)?
** green, purple, blue..

7. Ever donated blood?
** nope

8. Last place you went to?
** glorietta

9. Last person u went out with?
** people.. eloisa, boriss, mark and karen

10. The most exciting sport?
** UFC!

11. Ever had a permanent tattoo?
** nope.. how i wish..

12. Movie u want 2 watch?
** hmm.. land of women

13. Any piercings?
** wala po

14.The most romantic gift ever
recieved?
** wala pa.. at wala na yata..

15. Act on stage before?
** missing it actually..

16. Struck by lightning before??
** not yet

17. Danced with your loved one before?
** yeah.. not as good as i thought it would be, actually..

18. Ever wished you could turn back
time?
** naman! kahit may limit, okay lang..

19. One song that's meaningful to you?
** torn

20. Last person you met for the first
time?
** can't remember the name..

21. What will you be doing tomorrow?
** trabaho.. trabaho.. sana sumweldo ng makapag-shopping at maka-gimik

22. Ever thought of robbing a bank?
** yeah.. almost had a plan..

23. One thing you totally regret??
** one lang?!

24. Do people like you?
** most.. or they just appear to like me.

25. What was the last game you played?
** mind game.. i won!

26. Someone who means a lot to you at
this moment?
** none.. maybe king kong, but not really..

27. The color of your mobile phone?
** black and silver

cool questions at last

1. may lumipad na bang ipis sa mukha
mo?
- can't remember.. heheheh!

2. hinalikan ka na ba bigla ng crush
m0 sa lips?
- opo... hehheh!

3. naging classmate m0 na ba yung ex
m0???
- hindi pa.. never.. di na siguro mangyayari..

4. dinedma ka na ba ng bf/gf mo?
- madalas.. di nya gets eh..

5. kinalimutan ka na ba ng bf/gf mo?
- di ko alam.. siguro..

6. panu kung hindi ka binigyan ng
allowance ng parents mo?
- di ko rin sila bigyan ng allowance pag dating ng sweldo! bwahahahahah!

7. panu kung napatingin sayo yung
crush mo habang nakatitig ka sa kanya?
- smile lang.. tapos tingin sa friend nyang mas cute! bwahahahha!

8. panu kung dalawa kayong mahal ng
mahal mo?
- magsama sila.. sawa na 'ko sa ganyang set up.. o kaya.. dalawa rin silang mahal ko! bad!

9. panu kung nagsasaya ka tapos
pinatugtog bigla yung song na nagpapa-
alala sayo sa ex mo na mahal mo pa?
- kebs! tuloy ang saya.. syempre ayaw magpahalata sa mga kasama..

10. panu kung nawala lahat ng
kayamanan nio?
- meron pa ba?! nasan?!? wala nang mawawal.. matagal ng wala!

what if..

11. nakita mong may kahalikang iba yung
bf/gf mo?
- let them see me.. kiss ko yung ka-kiss nya.. tapos kiss ko sya.. tapos alis.. winner!

12. nawala pera mo habang nagsha-
shopping?
- uwian na!

13. nakakita ka ng bloody knife sa
cabinet mo?
- woaw! takot ako sa dugo.. malamang hinimatay ako..

14. nde ka sinip0t ng bf/gf mo sa araw
ng monthsary/anniversary niyo?
- may usapan ba?! malamang nasa maling location ako.. bwhahahaha!

15. may dumaan na multo sa harap mo?
- "pu+@n9 !n@" pero pabulong lang..

16. dinededma ka lang ng nililigawan mo
pero tumatanggap xa ng regalo galing
sayo?
- hmmm... may kilala rin ako'ng ganito.. hindi pa naman ako nanliligaw eh..

17. may nagsuicide nang dahil seo?
- woaw! he/she is sick! walang kwenta kinamatay nya... hehehehh!

18. tumawag si sadako?!
- gusto ba nya ng sub?! pwede ako!

19. nagpakita sayo ang kaluluwa ni
elvis presley?!
- so, you're really dead?! isang "burning love" naman dyan.. video ko lang.. tapos upload ko!

20. nagka-crush ka bigla sa fwend mo?
- more group hug! bwahahahaahah!

21. nakisilong sayo yung crush mo kase
umuulan tp0s wla xang pay0ng per0 ikaw
mer0n?
- shucks! allergic ako sa payong kaya malabong mangyari 'to.. but just in case.. sya paghahawakin ko ng payong!

22. may nagtext sayo na papatayin ka
daw nia?
- reply ako: "san tyo mit?! go fastest!"

not in the mood

for quite s0me time now, at least two days, i've been meaning to write a letter. but just here. for him..

but there are always things that stop me.

yesterday. because what i would be writing would probably too defensive and too pissed.
when i got home. there are unwanted visitors.
now. they're already up, and they're getting in my nerves.

i always thought of writing it during working hours. but then.. there would be too many eyes that will see.. and there's a lot of things to do.. really.

there will come a time i would be able to write the letter. i have too. i need too. everyone got their letter.. i think. and he so, deserve one from me..

haaay.. as i've told Pink 5 and stig yesterday at the deck in glorietta, "i need other things to think about aside from work."

then, i contemplated on the other aspects of life..

i then, realized, much needs thinking about of.. but, like work, i don't want to think about it and it seems to be pathetic thinking about them..

that would include, finances, family, so-called love life, religion..

so, what's left to think about...

i thought of fiction.. bwahahahhaahh!
then, thought of, friends.. who?!? where?!? when?!?

there.. i think, i would have something to think about, aside from work.. i hope...

waaaaaaahhhh! stop kidding yourself! you can't help but think about work and the tasks you are about to do and the stinking fact that after much effort you will not be able to meet the standards and be regularized in that position, because you simply don't measure up, and you're jinxed!

explanation

i'll admit it. i'm really scared. i don't want to be in her wrong side. maybe she was just really having a bad day.. or something. waaaah! i'm really going over my head. all the negative thoughts are pouring in.. and i can't stop it.

i need her to write another entry in her blog that would be after what happened and i hope, please!, that it's nothing about me!

i sure hope she won't make a big deal out of it..

because, i will have no chance of explaining myself to her. and i really don't want to explain.. if i explain out of nowhere, she would know that i'm reading her blog. i'm thinking what would be my codename. waaaaah!

i really don't want to be part of it! please!

and even if she confronts me with it, i might sound too defensive. and i'm really not comfortable explaining myself to people i'm not close to.

oh well.. i can't please everyone, right?

it's not like i was doing nothing at that time.. and besides, it was already outside my shift.. haaaay..

maybe i'm more scared if she will tell that to bossing.. he really seems to be someone who doesn't take explanations. and it's really irritating to explain yourself to someone who is not capable of understanding you..

please! i'm really thinking of worse things that could happen..

i'm afraid that if there would be someone that would confront me regarding what happened, i would ask if he/she is also asking for an explanation or just letting me know that he/she knows that it happened.

fcuk! $h!t! it's really supposed to be nothing.. i'm hope i'm the only one making a big deal out of this.. please!

waaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!

really scared.. really.. what would happen then?!? my jinx..

Get Your Sexy Name

no lying quiz

1. last beverage:
>> water

2. last phone call:
>> credit card company

3. last cd played:
>> zsa-zsa zaturnnah sound track.. all comes in mp3 nowadays

4. last time you cried:
>> really cried?! june 31

5. last text message to:
>> joray

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS.

1. green
2. blue
3. purple

THIS MONTH HAVE YOU.

1. Made a new friend?
>> yeah

2. Laughed until you cried?
>> tagal ng hindi.. huhuhu

4. Met someone who changed your life?
>> haaay.. yeah

5. Found out who your true friend?
>> yup

6. Is there something you want to tell
someone?
>> marami sila at marami ring sasabihin

7. How many kids do you want to have?
>> never thought i'd reach that point in my life.. but just in case.. 2

8. Do you have any pets?
>> none

9. Do you wanna change your name?
>> nope!

10. What did you do yesterday?
>> hindi natulog at tinapos ang hp7

11. Last time You had pizza?
>> forgot! ang tagal na pala!

12. What time did you wake up today?
>> mga 1:30

13. What were you doing at 10:30 p.m?
>> trabaho.. o petiks.. a little of both

14. Name something you CANNOT wait
for?
>> death

15. Last time you saw your father?
>> can't remember.. heheheh!

16. What is one thing you wish you
could change about your life?
>> financial status, family principles

17. What are you listening to right
now?
>> the bloomfields

18. Have you ever talked to Tom?
>> just read about him

19. Who's getting on your nerves right
now?
>> si kingkong, si muji, si bossing.. sige na nga, di na masyado si kingkong

20. Most visited webpage?
>> blog ni jedi master, bwahahahah!

21. Coke or Pepsi?
>> coke

22. Have you seen anyone naked in the
past week?
>> huhuhuuh! wala po!


if you answered honestly to all these,
repost as

NO LYING QUIZ

come on!

i'm really pissed off! and i really don't want to write at this state.. but i want to write about it as well.

guess, i'll browse a few pages and get back here..

after about a little more than an hour

okay.. i've created my simpsons avatar.. heheheh!
uploaded it in friendster.. removed a photo.. answered some messages.. ahh.. yeah.. read the latest entry in jedi master's blog. and answered a survey posted in the friendster bulettin board..

so, am i ready to talk about it? let's see.. i'm not that infuriated anymore. but i still can't help but feel bad about them. haaay..

haaaay.. nah! i'm not fit to write about it. on to other things!

cracked another one.. the last

okay, so, it's not the last book i will crack.. but it's the last of the harry potter series!

waaaaaah! if i wasn't riding the jeepney.. tears would have fell as i finish the book. (haay.. again, fighting tears. a new hobby?!)

and i so badly want to release those tears! well, it almost.. but i followed a friend's advice and looked up.. heheheheh!

i'm not to write any spoilers here.. i might twist the facts.. hehehhehe! because i'm not that much of a fan. it really is a good read, that's why i got hooked. but up to the point of just reading.

i haven't got any decent sleep yet since this week started, and i really planned to sleep today. unfortunately, i wasn't able to put the book down. okay, i did fell asleep, because i really had no sleep yesterday (not counting the sleep i got while travelling). i dozed off for about an hour or less and it was already time to get up. i'm really determined to get some sleep tomorrow. thus, i need to get home early. hmmm.. no hobby?! maybe.. bwahahhahahah!

the saga was really great. and it's really sad to think that it has come to its end. one question though, and i'll look it up again, what was harry's job?! just curious. oh, well.

start to work!

confession: anonymous reader

i limit myself into only two posts per day.. but i really need to write this one.

the confession: i have been browsing the blogs of my "supervisors".

okay.. so, i don't really see the harm there. or the wrong thing i've done, for that matter.. but i just don't want to be caught. or i don't want them to know that i know their blogs and that i can read whatever they have been writing lately.

our account has a lot of "history". and are still conjuring a lot.. i'm not sure if i'm already part of it.. but i doubt if i'm not. because they're really good at it. well, not just the sups.. most of the people.. but don't take me wrong, i do love these people.

maybe, it's just that, if i'm caught viewing their blogs, i wouldn't know what to say.. or how should i react. or if they ask, "what are you reading?!?" i can't just answer, "your blog." and it would be a big insult to their intelligence to say, "nothing."

so, here, i opted to view it at home.. and now, i've learned a lot more! i haven't read much though.. just identified who they are in real life.. and maybe, if i would get the urge again, i would visit their entries and know what's hapenning..

i really meant to get just a quiz.. but, curiousity got the best of me.. so there!

now, i'm thinking, if they were in my shoes.. and i learned that they have been viewing or reading my blog.. well, goodluck in deciphering! heheheheheh! this is actually the most transparent entry i've ever done. and i don't really mind. they would just end up assuming.. and most of the part, they would assume wrongfully.

i even had a friend, who i thought, was able to read right through me, read my entries here. and he was nothing but baffled. he said that he can't seem to figure it out. well, actually.. that's how my thoughts really are.. it's something you can't really figure out. because i, myself, am confused about it. heheheh! there are a lot of context clues though.. but you need to stick around long enough to know.

so, back to my confession.. okay.. what are blogs for anyway.. they sort of serve to be a diary or a journal, but you write it knowing that they're for public viewing.. so.. what would you really feel if someone is reading it.

okay.. this all started because a friend of mine thought that one of these bloggers wrote an entry about me. and it's really far from a positive note.. so, i read the entry and then, discovered, although the description would really depict me.. it wasn't me. i'm a hundred and one percent sure..

it's really scary to be part of their world. i really want to go back. but i'm already here. there must be a reason. i have found one already.. but i can't find the reason for having that reason. so, it's like i'm back to square one. plus, i can't get my mind off my jinx!

oh well.. that would be a totally different story.. haaay.. missed writing!

my clones

34 of the MOST Spontaneous Questions

34 of the MOST Spontaneous Questions
Ever, BE HONEST.

1. What do you want for your Birthday?
a surprise party

2. Who will be your next kiss?
he doesn't want it

3. When was the last time you went to
the mall?
was that about a week ago, with my mom and brother, when shoe shopping at trinoma and watched HP5

4. Are you wearing socks right now?
nope

5. When was the last time you went out
of town?
june.. hindi counted yung nung weekend kasi taga-bulacan rin ako..

6. Have you been to the movies in the
last 5 days?
nope.. :(

7. What was the last thing you had to
drink?
water..

8. What are you wearing right now?
shorts and shirt.. pambahay

9. What was your last purchase?
i forgot!! can't think of it.. was it shoes?! kung counted ang food, breakfast

10.What was the Last food you at ate?
tropical hut's corned beef breakfast meal

11. Who would be the person you would
call if you were up in the middle of
the night and couldn't sleep?
he wouldn't answer the call..

12. Have you bought any clothing items
in the last week?
nope..

13. do you have a pet?
none

14. What was the last sporting event
you saw?
can't remember!! waaah!

15. If you could be anywhere right now,
where would you be?
in his dreams.. bwahahahahahahahahah!
hmmm.. beach!

17. One thing you hate about yourself?
complicated

18. What's your favorite soup?
sopas! bwahahahah!

19. Do you miss anyone?
a lot..

20. Last play you saw?
anatomiya ng korupsyon.. while my alternate was on

21. What are your plans for the day?
go to work.. and work.. haaay.. get that accomplished feeling.. and read HP7!

22. Last person you msg'd?
text?!? didn't reply, so why bother?! ym.. roy

23. Ever go to camp?
yeah.. never like i imagined

24. Are you an honor roll student in
school?
shamefully, yeah...

25. What do you know about the (your)
future?
i'll grow old alone.. so, i want to die young..

26. Are you wearing any perfume or
cologne?
it wore off already..

27. Where are your best friends
located?
haaaay...

28. What grade are you in?
technically, in college.. practically, working!

29. How old do you want to be when you
have kids?
old enough to send them to school..

30. Who was the last person who made
you cry?
i rarely cry now.. scary..
so, the last would be, myself

31. Do you have any tattoos or
piercings?
nothing out of the norm

32. Who makes you smile?
whomever i choose to make me smile..

33. How do you like your soda?
ice cold!

34. Do you like hot sauce?
a lot! the hotter the better! hehehhehe!

a little step back to my college days

1. ANO'NG STUDENT NUMBER MO?
* 2001101945

2. ANO ANG FIRST CHOICE MO NA COURSE?
* Computer Engineering

3. SECOND CHOICE?
* wala

4. ANO COURSE MO NA NATAPOS?
* wala pa! bwahahahah! pero ComEng pa rin..

5. NAG-SHIFT KA BA?
* hindi po

6. CHINITO/CHINITA KA BA?
* hindi noh!

7. NAKAPAG-DORM KA BA?
* since day one!

8. NAKA UNO KA BA?
* never.. pero di sila naniniwala na never..

9. NAG-KA 3 KA NA BA?
* oo naman!

10. LAGI KA BANG PUMAPASOK SA KLASE?
* hindi!

11. MAY SCHOLARSHIP KA BA?
* once, for one term, academic scholar.. half lang..

12. ILANG UNITS NA ANG NAIPASA MO?
* di ko alam.. basta 60 to go..

13. NANGARAP KA BA NA MAG-CUM LAUDE?
* hindi.. wanted to enjoy my college life..

14. FAVE PROF
* sir resty.. astig!

15. WORST TEACHER:
* sir sy! bwahhahah!

16. FAVE SUBJECT/S:
* logic circuits 2

17. WORST SUBJECT:
* feasib.. bakit ba may ganon?! OJT na lang!

18. FAVE BUILDING:
* hmmm... south.

19. PABORITONG KAINAN:
* manang chicken.. tapos naging kantunan.. tapos.. wala na! yosi na lang!

20. NUNG ESTUDYANTE KA PA MAGKANO BA
ANG BINABAYAD MO SA JEEP?
* bwahahahah! Php 6.00

21. LAGI KA BA SA LIBRARY?
* hindi noh!

22. NAGPUNTA KA BA SA CLINIC NUN?
* madalas dati.. as in tulog lang!

23. MAY CRUSH KA BA SA CAMPUS?
* marami!

24. ANU-ANO ANG MGA NAGING PE MO?
* hmmm.. dance tsaka sports something.. the rest, ticket na!

25. KAMUSTA NAMAN ANG BLOCK NYO?
* okay lang.. mga graduate na sila..

26. MEMORIZE MO BA ANG ALMA MATER SONG
NIYO?
* chorus lang.. actually "M and the I and the T" lang..

27. MEMBER KA BA NG VARSITY TEAM?
* good luck!

28. NAKA-PERFECT KA NA BA NG EXAM?
* opo.. sobrang pawis ang tumagaktak..

29. DITO KA BA NATUTONG UMINOM NG BEER?
* not really.. pero dito nahasa! kampai rules!

30. DITO KA BA UNANG NAINLOVE?
* hindi una.. pero pinaka matindi.. oo

okay -- not!

i'm not really in the mood to write. i would rather listen to songs or read HP7. but i'm here writing.

okay, i'm confused, but not really.. i'm hating chito, but not exactly.. i'm even talking to him right now. i'm missing stitch, a lot! but, i don't actually want to see him right now. i like being with kingkong.. but i don't want to be together with him.

talk about confused! and i call myself okay..

and i'm all bringing it to fate and chance.. then choice.

haaay... loving my friends. rather new. the old ones are out of reach. i think. or maybe because they're sort of involved or would just bring complications more.

oh well.. i think as long as i consider myself "okay", i'm fine.. right?!

naaaah!

right timing

i received this text message last night from mommy joey of rushers ml. and it was perfect. i forwarded it. nothing follows.. not much, i hope.. hehehehe!

Take chances, take a lot of them.. Because honestly, no matter where you end up and with whom, it always ends up just the way it should be... Your mistakes make who you are... You learn to grow with each choice you make... Everything is worth it... Say how you feel always... Be you, and be okay with it...

there you go! think!

wanted: the incredible absorbing man

okay.. i just really wanted to have that title in one of my entries.

it's not a hundred percent suited to what i want to say or feel, but it can suffice...

going home no longer feels like going home. (i just want to let that out.)

i'm not so sure where i am again. i can be lost. i'm sort of in a cross road, that seem to lead to one place. misery. and it's not like i'm not in it yet.

there are things i want to sort out. but i don't want to be thinking about it. i want to write through it. but i'm afraid to see what would come out. although, most of the time i've been doing it.

i guess, let's just focus on the title..

haaay.. the incredible absorbing man. i actually think i've found him. but he will also lead me to misery, in a way.

but life is not perfect. there are a lot of factors in it that would make you happy and a lot that would make you sad.

Parokya Ni Edgar - Absorbing Man

You can beat me up,
Call me names
Steal my bike, go insane
I don't care if you rearrange
My face, I don't mind

You can burn my toys
And the books I read
Still it won't matter to me
Cause with one big gulp
I'll swallow it up and smile, oh yeah

Chorus:
Because I'm the incredible absorbing man
And I'm gonna do the best I can
Till you finally understand

I am calm, I'm serene
Not a word is getting through to me
When you scream

I'm a sponge.I soak it up
All the crap you put me through
Won't make me give up

I will never falter, I will never quit
You'll never find another
Who'll put up with your shit

okay.. so, i really don't do these things.. but what really hit me a lot "You'll never find another who'll put up with your shit" . but the shit described in the song is sooo not my shit.. bwahahahahahahah!

haaaay... bad trip! i want to write about what's really bothering me.. but then again, i'm here at home. so, i'm borbaded with the )&**&^^$%^#@#$%^*%)*&*&%$#@#$$!!

haaaay...

working it out

friends - unexclusive dating (but no intimate physical contact)

as complicated as it may seem, it's better that we have something to hold on to..
maybe this is what we're really looking for.

i'm starting to smile again.. for real.

love advice

i'm again in search for the right words to hear.. and then, i would realize, all along i have been shouting them at the back of my mind..

i can't be the one to say good bye.. i would just come back. i need to be the one left behind.. so, i can't follow.

waiting.. it's killing me..

para akong nangangapa sa dilim, but in reality, sobrang nakapikit lang ako..

i'm really afraid to open my eyes..

so, i go blame the darkness..

but where will this leave me?

i will look like a fool..

but i am a fool.. pretending to be sane..

back to square one..

but i live in square one.

drowning in invisible tears

it hurts. but i can't cry.
"you can't fight the tears that ain't coming.."

i want this to end, but i'm afraid how..

i no longer mind being alone. it's better to be lonely alone, than lonely with someone..

i guess i'm ready for solitude now. i've accepted the fact that i would grow up alone.

love is wasted on me.

i'm back to the lonely me. but i decide not to leave the stage. the show must go on. the back stage is on fire. good thing i have my make-up and costume on.

shrek the third

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my song..

Unfaitful
Rihanna

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
Uh
Anymore (anymore)

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer (a murderer)

No no no no

Yeah yeah yeah

i love you. goodbye.

this was the content of the note Larry left Ally..
this is like something we both have right now..
i can't fight anymore. it's not that i'm tired.. but it's just the way to be. stop and walk away.
my one reason to stay doesn't suffice anymore.. in fact, i think this was the reason i was looking for to leave.

so i guess, this is it. for once and for all.. i love you. good bye.

back from hiatus

haay.. a lot of things already happened.. and it has been just about a little more than a month..

wanted to play key words.. but that would really take a very long time.. and i really think the key words won't suffice..

okay.. i can't help it..

friends summer emotion love life

bwahahahahah! how general can i get?!

it's good to be back on line!

try to walk away and i stumble

and when i thought i was waiting in vain. when i was a day close to settling everything.. there he goes.

his message was so insecure. i'm not really expecting that from him. i always thought he was so certain that i would not walk away..

so, i stumbled.

eytsphee~

sobb

this scene made me sob. i was not able to do that for a long time already. i know how emotional ally mcbeal can make me, but i did not expect that i would be actually sobbing. and i really can't imagine that i would be sobbing because of a nelle porter scene.

Elaine comes to Richard (who is standing next to Nelle) and says they are having a problem with John. She says he's in the unisex and he just keeps dismounting. They all go to the unisex where they find John going round and round on a stall and Georgia stuck on the other side of the room. John doesn't let go until Nelle tells him to. He has built up so much force that he is propelled into the stall in front of him, accidentally flushing the toilet. Nelle tells everyone to get out. She turns and opens a stall door and finds Elaine in it. "Unless you'd like me to do the other shin," Nelle says. "Itchbay," says Elaine. When they are finally alone, Nelle tells John that anger may not be any more attractive on him but it's certainly more exciting. "You made fun of my stuttering and my smile therapy," he says. "You are a mean woman." Nelle says she was an angry woman and a threatened one. John wonders why. "You and Ally connect on a very odd but fundamental level and this notion of waiting for the one person who's all things -- I think I'm afraid that if you do that, I'm not that person," she says. "I don't want children. You do. This inner world thing – I don't share that, and, Barry White? I don't believe in two people interlocking in every way, and this Ally McBeal 'it takes two to make one" nonsense, it just makes me want to vomit." John asks why they are even bothering with each other if they are so different. "I want to be with someone different from me," Nelle says. John says that differences can be fatal. "Why can't two people grow together? Meet somewhere in the middle. I can learn to appreciate some of your likes and vice versa," she says. She asks him to name something he wants her to do and she will work on it. He looks in the mirror and hears Barry White. "Oh, God," Nelle says. "That one's non-negotiable," John says. Nelle says she likes Barry White. John says he needs her to love Barry White. "I'm beginning to love you," Nelle says, "Don't you get that? And every time she comes running to you, it just makes me insecure, that you'll run to her." "I'm not running anywhere," John says, "You gave me a frog. You gave me Barry White. I'm not going anywhere. And, I'm beginning to love you, too." They smile and kiss, then share a very long hug.

http://allymcbeal.tktv.net/

i try - macy gray

I Try

Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I belive that fate has brought us here
And we should be together babe
But were not
I play it off, but Im dreaming of you
And Ill try to keep my cool, but Im feenin

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, its clear
My world crumbles when you are not here
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, its clear
My world crumbles when you are not here

I may appear to be free
But Im just a prisoner of your love
And I may seem all right and smile when you leave
But my smiles are just a front
Just a front, hey
I play it off, but Im dreaming of you
And Ill try to keep my cool, but Im feenin

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, its clear
My world crumbles when you are not here
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, its clear
My world crumbles when you are not here

Here is my confession
May I be your possession
Boy, I need your touch
Your love, kisses and such
With all my might I try
But this I cant deny
Deny

I play it off, but Im dreaming of you
(but Im dreaming of you babe)
And Ill keep my cool, but Im feenin

I try to say goodbye and I choke (yeah)
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide, its clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
(when you are not near aahh)
Goodbye and I choke (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I try to walk away and I stumble (hey, hey, hey)
Though I try to hide it, its clear (say it lord)
My world crumbles when you are not here

Goodbye and I choke (Im choking)
I try to walk away and I stumbe
Though I try to hide it, its clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
(when you are not near, yeah, yeah yeah)
Yeah, yeah..

You're the First, the Last, My Everything - Barry White

We got it together, didn't we?
Nobody but you and me.
We got it together, baby.

My first, my last, my everything,
And the answer to all my dreams.
You're my sun, my moon, my guiding star.
My kind of wonderful, that's what you are.

I know there's only, only one like you
There's no way they could have made two.
You're, you're all I'm living for
Your love I'll keep for evermore.
You're the first, my last, my everything.

In you I've found so many things,
A love so new, only you could bring.
Can't you see if you,
You'll make me feel this way,
You're like a first morning dew on a brand new day.

I see so many ways that I can love you,
'Till the day I die....
You're my reality, yet I'm lost in a dream.
You're my first, my last, my everything.

[instrumental]

I know there's only one, only one like you
There's no way they could have made two.
Girl, you're my reality.
But I'm lost in a dream,
You're the first, you're the last, my everything.

out of reach

my new favorite song.. i think. it's really applicable to most of them and it has little hope in the last line. i could really use that hope.

Knew the signs wasn't right
I was stupid, for a while
Swept away, by you
And now I feel like a fool

Chorus
So confused
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be

Verse 2
Catch myself, from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy, everyday
I know I will be ok

Chorus
But I'm
So confused
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be

Bridge
So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time
You'll be out of my mind
I'll be over you

Chorus
And know I'm
So confused
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be
Out of reach, so far,
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There's a life out there for me

news beats

puerto gallera

end of the race - lost

road trip

batangas

frustration, realization and good bye?

open ended

playing with fire

looking at the future

asthma

almost car accident - wanting to end this

removing isp

random thoughts

no order, no time line

sleepy with head ache

want to sleep but can't

got first pay out

waiting in vain

making someone wait.. in vain

thinking

sorting things out

needs time

a lot of time

a year or two

but already acting on it

dangerous

hurting someone

mind games

over it

funny

laughter

smile

behind this smile is everything you will never understand

expect the worst, but don't expect

nanoplex split

can't breathe

a-z list

head ache

"lokohan"

emotions

this actually took about 10 minutes..

pathetic

Paano Kita Iibigin - Full Trailer

Last Sunday I was able to catch the full trailer of the much awaited movie here in the Philippines. The team up of Regine Velasquez and Piolo Pascual.
As I watch the trailer, it's not as typical as I thought it would be.. and I actually appreciate its difference.
I really like it when things are not running smoothly or it's not all happy.
As much as the trailer would show, I really loved Piolo's lines. When Regine asked if he already loves her, he said, "I'm getting there." And when things get rough and Regine asks for confirmation or assurance of his love, he said, "I never got there." Winner!!
I would really love to see this movie. It has been a long time since I anticipated a Filipino movie. I can't even remember the last one.
This would be showing on theaters on May 30. I hope I would get to see this with my special someone.. hehehehe!

my gapan weekend

this actually was supposed to be a bataan/puerto gallera weekend with our team. then, it was supposed to be a baguio weekend. and as it turned out, it became a gapan weekend. and i really had a wonderful time.

it was really frustrating for him to not be able to pursue the baguio plan, but of course, he chose to be a good son. i know that would be really sad to bear alone, so, i'd rather spend time with him. the baguio trip was really not that appealing without him.

it's ate kriz's birthday. and since she's out of the country, the celebration was not that visible. i really feel bad of not being able to go and bid her good bye.

of course, it didn't start of good, tope was there though to entertain me. hehehe! he's really so cute. haaay.. i just hope when and if i get to have a child it would be as cute as he is.

then i get to get some sleep. i wasn't able to sleep on the way there. vin diesel movies were playing and it was hard not to watch.

then, the usual brawl. hehehe!

we were craving for pizza hut's new pizza. unfortunately there was no pizza hut nearby. i really wanted to watch spiderman 3 with him and it's a good thing there was a nearby cinema, it was not imax but that's alright. so, when we learned that we were no longer going house to house, we grabbed the chance to go and do these things.

we settled for greenwich since it was the only pizza restaurant there. then we ate it inside the theater while watching spiderman3!

i then realized that he's really a good buddy in watching movies. like me, he doesn't talk much if not needed and we'd react at the same things at the same time. we made fun even at the same things and get annoyed with the other people watching the film. we even forced ourselves to finish the pizza before the actual movie started. i don't really like eating while watching the movie. but of course, each other's presence was not really ignored.

we're still full when we got home. so, we didn't have dinner anymore. then, after much deliberation, we decided to have a late snack. we had lugaw etc. then, went to bed.

it was actually nice seeing his friends again. i really do get entertained and i won't stop laughing without really making fun of them or being rude. and, i know our set up was really weird for them, but i guess, they learned to accept things. i just hope they don't pity me that much. heheheh!

i woke up really early the next day because kuya hart was constantly reminding us that we would need to go to church. so, i went ahead and took a bath and all. but of course, it was already too late for us to join the mass because it was already finished and they were almost still in bed.

it was nice seing sandy again. he's working everyday that's why he wasn't able to go with them that much. i missed his laugh.

back to work. we again went house to house. it was really exhausting and the scorching heat is not really helpful.

we were holding hands more often now. not that i'm complaining. i just need to stop thinking.

we went back just in time for lunch. i was starting to get really sleepy already. unfortunately, there's no place to sleep since the big guys were inside the room watching a boxing match.

good thing.. there was some power failure.. and since it was a relatively small room for about 6 big guys, it would be very hot. so, with what was left with the air conditioned room, we went inside and lied down. and just as i expected, after a couple of minutes, the power went back up. but they were already satisfied in watching the boxing match outside, so we stayed inside with kuya hart and watched the rest of the match.. and we caught the full trailer of regine and piolo's new movie.

i was really sleepy and i really want to sleep.. but his friends went to the "mall" and was texting him that they were playing bingo.

it was kinda exciting and fun, but we're both not much into gambling so we got tired about after a set or two. we spent about, a hundred bucks for the both of us already. of course we didn't win. we both declared to be unlucky with these sort of things.

i thought of something, too bad i voiced it out during the last game already. but it made us survive the rest of the game. whoever gets a number, would snap at the other. i was on a winning streak! he was able to snap back at me twice only i think.. and thanks to kiki's training, the back of his hand was really red already.. heheheh! liked it a lot..

then, we went around the mall.. they saw a studio and we went and had our pictures taken. we didn't really need to twist any arm to be able to get copies of both shots. hehehehe!

when we got back to the kubo.. they had merienda and a few chit chat.. i love the rocking chair scene..

we tried to get some nap. but with all that fun and energy, how can anyone sleep i was practicaly laughing my head off whenever i try to get some shut eye, they would be able to conjure something up that you just can't resist but react. but since i was really tired and really sleepy i managed to get some shut eye. but for just about 5 to 10 minutes, i guess.

until, the big guys came back.. a little drunk.. but i guess, that's alright. i still was stealing a few shut eyes.. then, it was dinner time, and time to get the party started.

of course, they would need to take a bath and prepare.. so, it was another chance for me to sleep. but it was really hard. i think i wasn't able to get at least two minutes of shut eye.

there were a couple of revelations.. but i guess, i would just need to choose which would affect me or not. the boy friend.. the proposal..

he again asked me what song i want him to sing.. i can't remember the songs i once had someone else sang for me. but i think it would be rude to ask him to sing those songs too.. he was never really able to finish any song for me. this time i asked him to sing, "alipin" by shamrock. i was the one who actually finished the song for him..

we sang a lot of songs that night. and it was really nice. everything went well. until of course the next morning. it would really be hard not to annoy him.. but i guess that was normal and i understand where it was coming from.

i practicaly ate and ran. but that's alright, i guess. i don't want to be on the way when they start to go on with the campaign. how funny and awkward it seemed when i called his mom and dad, tita and tito respectively, when i'm more comfortable calling them mommy and daddy. i was just a little scared of what their reactions would be. i was not able to say good bye to the okamas. but i think they would understand.

of course, i would again not receive any messages from him after this. i know it seems like that we're only a couple when we're physically together. it's sad, it's hard, but i'm still happy.. we're both still happy. and i know it would be wrong to say that we don't have a choice. so, i'm not saying that. most of the times, it's just ...

Lips of An Angel - Hinder

* i just heard this song over the radio.. i downloaded the song.. i've been listening to it for quite some time now.. i really like it's sound or melody or however you call it.. i can't help but sing along with the lyrics.. but i didn't really understand the whole song.. until now that i read the lyrics. i'm not sure if i like it less now. it's just plain not right. sad, but i do think these things happen. and it's really sad.. i should know.*

Lips of an Angel
Hinder

Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late?

Can You Name 13 of Your Classmates in High School

Can you name 13 of ur classmates in high school that u can think of right off the top of your head.

1. beng
2. menan
3. pol
4. al
5. percival
6. cza
7. dyan
8. len
9. sarah
10. angela
11. anna
12. philip
13. mai

How did you meet 10?
we met in fifth grade.. i can't really remember the first sight.

What would you do if you had never met 1?
i would think i'm so weird and so different.

What would you do if 6 and 2 date?
sasabunutan ko si number 6.. but i don't think she would do that. she's my best friend.

Have you ever seen 4 cry?
i can't remember.. on stage, yes.

Do you think 10 is cute?
in her own way

How did you get to know 8?
classmates since elementary..

Would you ever go on a date with number 12?
friendly date of course..

What's 7's Favorite color?
purple! if i remember it right.. hehehe!

What would you do if 5 confessed he/she loved you?
waaaahh!!! i did too! bwahahahah!

Fact about 9:
she's the eldest and the only girl in the family.. tama ba?!

Who is 4 going out with?
some girl he met in college.. in their theater org i believe.

what is number 5 to you?
my first kiss

Would you ever live with 13?
share the same house.. sure! why not? we'll have lots of fun!

Is 2 single?
I'm not really sure right now.. last time i checked he's not.

Where does 7 live?
in lolomboy.. i would know how to get there, but i don't know the address.

What do you think about 3?
so much fun to be with

What's the best thing about number 8?
sincere

What do you like about number 11?
frank and sweet

Favorite Memory with 1?
waaah!! too many to mention! i can't pick one. maybe, the oldest i can think of.. would be either that long hours over the phone or watching "While You Were Sleeping"..