lilo and stitch and superman

Here are the things about the movie that is so noteworthy.. hehehe!

• There's a poster of MULAN in Nani's bedroom
• There is a hidden mickey in Jumba's platform during the trial and in one of the shorts of the people in Lilo's collection of photos
• Stitch's saliva shaped like a "D" for Disney
• The note in Lilo's door means "keep out"
• Lilo and Nani's last name is Pelekai
• The name of Lilo's doll is Scrump
• Spot Dumbo in the movie

i'm not sure why i'm this much affected.. i'm not even a fan..

but when i read and saw his picture in the msn home page.. my heart
stopped.. and as if gasping for air i asked my officemates... "patay
na si christopher reeves?!"

waah!

My Place - Nelly - Lyrics

My Place
Nelly

[Nelly]
I used to pride myself on being the other man
But now it's flipped and I don't want you with no other man
Why can't you understand anything I'm offering
I gave you the world, but you just wanted arguing
>From the time I picked you up, until the time I dropped you off again
Even if flipped out on at the mall again
"It's all his fault again" that's what you tellin all ya friends
I ain't pointing fingers ma, i just wanna call again
See how ya day going I know they stressin on ya
I know them times get hard that's why I'm checkin on ya
It's yours truly ma, I got little message for ya
Anything he can do, girl I can do better for ya
Cause

Hook: [Nelly]
When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever

Chorus: [Jaheim]
Won't you come on and go with me (oh girl)
Come on over to my place
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat
and let me ease ya mind girl
We gon do it our way (our way)

[Nelly]
I heard your friend tell a friend that told a friend of mine
That you was thinking that we should do it one more time
If this ain't the truth then hopefully it's not a lie
Cause I ain't got no issue with hitting that another time
We never had a problem with gettin it done
Disagreed upon a lot ma, but sex wouldn't one
Now check it I know you get excited when I come around and bite it
Quit frownin up and quit actin like you don't like it

I like it (I know you like), I like it (You really like it), I really, really like it,
I want it (You really want it), adore it (adore it), so come with me enjoy it

Hook: [Nelly]
When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever

Chorus: [Jaheim]
Won't you come on and go with me (oh girl)
Come on over to my place
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat
and let me ease ya mind girl
We gon do it our way (our way)

Bridge: [Nelly]
Shawty where you been
Feels like a long time, long long time since I seen ya
Yes it has girl, and I know I said some dumb things to you before
But girl you know I didn't mean it
I didn't mean one single word
I never meant one single word
If I could take back every word I would and more fa sho
If I thought that you believe it
Cause you make my life so convinient for me

Hook: [Nelly]
When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever

Chorus: [Jaheim]
Won't you come on and go with me (oh girl)
Come on over to my place
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat
and let me ease ya mind girl
We gon do it our way (our way)

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You are...Lilo! Your an angelic (or almost) little

kid, who loves animals!


What character from Lilo and Stitch are you?

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last song syndrome

Without You
Charlie Wilson

Without you
Mmm...hmm...
It feels like a lifetime,
A thousand days have passed by
Since I held you close to me
If I could see that smile from my friend
I know that I could live again
I need you here with me

Heaven knows what to say
Even though for right
Nw you're so far away
I hope and I pray
Somewhere in your heart I'll always stay

Girl, lately my sun doesn't shine without you
Never noticed what it feels like to be without you
Feels like I took my last step
And my last breath in my life ending
Had to say just what I was feeling, girl
'Cause my sun doesn't shine,
Sun doesn't shine without you

This is more for me than for you
Girl, I finally see there's no substitute
For what we have
Do you know how much I love you

Heaven knows what to say
Even though for right now you're so far away
Gonna tell you and show you
Do whatever I can do to get back to you

Girl, lately my sun doesn't shine without you
Never noticed what it feels like to be without you
Feels like I took my last step
And my last breath in my life ending
Had to say just what I was feeling, girl
'Cause my sun doesn't shine,
Sun doesn't shine without you

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That someday it would lead me back to you

Sunday Morning
Maroon 5

Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
That someday it would lead me back to you

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

Fingers trace your every outline
Paint a picture with my hands
Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm
Change the weather still together when it ends

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
Sunday morning rain is falling and I'm calling out to you
Singing someday it'll bring me back to you
Find a way to bring myself back home to you

And you may not know
That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow?

analyze this..

nothing much to do.. i don't want to sleep although i know i would be needing this for later..

i just had a look at the things i won't be able to get.. i had them maybe once but i wasn't aware i have them.. waah! i can't keep my line of thought straight.. wait.

ehem..

for first crush..


i hate you! for making me fall all over again and there.. leaving me hanging.. i sometimes wish i never saw you again. hoping i never had to feel it all over again. i was fine, i was okay. don't worry, i'm not miserable as you hoped me to be. i'm ok. i was okay even if i didn't know that you had a crush on me as well. waah! i hate you!

I hate the way you talk to me. And the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare I hate your big dumb combat boots. And the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick-- it even makes me rhyme. I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh -- even worse when you make me cry. I hate it that you're not around. And the fact that you didnt call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you - - not even close, not even a little bit, not any at all.


for the supposedly perfect guy for me..


i know it takes two to tango. i know it's not entirely your fault. i know i have a big part played in messing things up. maybe this is the way of torturing myself. or for me to learn my lesson. but no.. it's just that i can bring what was there before. no doubt what we had was sincere. i didn't cheat in whatever way. you didn't either. but i'm sorry.. i'm so sorry. you probably know how much misery i'm in right now and that with you i'll be spared from all these, but it would be unfair, it would be cheating on you and on myself. i can't even bring myself into saying "maybe someday" because no. i don't think there even will be someday.. i'm sorry. sorry for what we had and what we could've had or still have. being sorry is all i can be.

for the guy i loved.. and maybe still do..

there are many things that can make me hate you but i'm not sure why i can't bring myself to hate you that much to forget or erase my feelings and/or affection for you. there are a lot of things i don't know about you. i'm not sure if i just don't ask or if you just won't tell me. i'm here for you, that's all. i know at what point when things start to go wrong. it was so hard for me. i was so hurt but loving you didn't stop there. i'm sorry for all the wrong things i may have done that just brought you to the stand that getting back together will never happen again. i want to let go. i want to move on. maybe i have because now i can say that indeed getting back together will never happen. a glint of hope maybe i have but i'm almost sure that it will never happen. but i can't stop caring for you because you have been indeed so special. i want to thank you for the memories but please stop holding me back. you will always be special, in my heart.. always.

Until you release me I'm bound
Under ball and chain
Reminiscing our love as I watch
Four seasons' change

This loneliness
Has crushed my heart
Please let me love again

for my crush..

hi! thanks for diverting my heart from all the things i've been trying to avoid all these time.. i know there's no promise, there's even no hope, but thanks for making me smile.. making my heart stop for a while.. thanks for all the small things that i think doesn't really matter.. i still don't know what i want, i just want to enjoy the present feeling you bring me but something more? i don't know. i'm afraid to get to know you, i'm afraid to get close.. at the same time wishing this would happen, but then again maybe no. so there, thanks!

for the only one left..

where are you? my phone number with you is no longer existing. i know you greeted me for my birthday. you changed your phone number as well and i don't know what it is anymore. i miss you.. you're my only hope. haaay.. where are you?

i never thought

i know it was just a joke.. it's nothing to take seriously or personally but then again i was affected. in fact, gravely affected that i don't want to think about it when i can't stop but think about that silly story.. a fictional thing that has a very high of possibility coming true.. waah!

then they told me.. this is different since i'm now affected.. waah!

waaah!

memo

i fought the urge to go to the battle field today. i guess it would just be time for me to rest.

when will i come back? i don't know..

am i being afraid to face the war at hand? or am i just too sick and tired of all the hustle and bustle it brings?

the emotional turmoil it brings me as soon as i retreat to my camp is just so great that the wounds are nothing.

freaked out!

Le Freak
Chic

Ah, freak out
Le freak, c’est chic
Freak out
Ah, freak out
Le freak, c’est chic
Freak out

Have you heard about the new dance craze
Listen to us, I’m sure you’ll be amazed
Big fun to be had by everyone
It’s up to you, it surely can be done
Young and old are doing it, I’m told
Just one try, and you too will be sold
It’s called Le Freak, they’re doing it night and day
Allow us, we’ll show you the way

Ah, freak out
Le freak, c’est chic
Freak out

All that pressure got you down
Has your head spinning all around
Feel the rhythm, check the ride
Come on along and have a real good time
Like the days of stomping at the Savoy
Now we freak, oh what a joy
Just come on down, two fifty four
Find a spot out on the floor

Ah, freak out
Le freak, c’est chic
Freak out

Now freak

I said freak

Now freak

All that pressure got you down
Has your head spinning all around
Feel the rhythm, check the ride
Come on along and have a real good time
Like the days of stomping at the Savoy
Now we freak, oh what a joy
Just come on down, two fifty four
Find a spot out on the floor

Ah, freak out
Le freak, c’est chic
Freak out
Ah, freak out
Le freak, c’est chic
Freak out

parang binuhusan ng isang timbang tubig

woohoo!

ayoko na!!

para na akong tanga!

sobrang affected ng mga simpleng bagay na walang kwenta!!

waaaah!!

tears for my cake

i'm good at messing things up..

i'm capable of turning myself invisible.. even during the times i don't want to.

i can't stop but wonder why or how things are the way they are..

i want to cry but i can't because no one would be wiping them away..

i want to shout but i can't because no one would hear them anyway.

i wonder why i feel this way when everyone around me expects me to be happy.. my birhday season has got to stop. it has to stop!

for me to forget the wretched day i was born, for people to stop wishing me a happy one and when they ask how it went, i can't answer straight because i never really had one.

i'm not the grinch nor oscar the grouch, though i love color green, i'm just seeing things as they are.

expect the worst but don't expect

the way how i will always see life.

behind the laughter and the smiles are tears falling with no one to wipe them dry..

i guess i'll never learn, loving people and giving them your all and in the end they never really loved you in the first place.

it hurts.. it will always hurt..

reflections

waah..

just had a very emotional day and i think the next one will be too.. if not worse..

emotional at some point that i got so happy, so mad, so sad..

haaay..

life.. in a few more days i'll turn twenty and there are things in my life that i'm so happy about. i know there are times when i don't really appreciate them or that i don't give them much credit but then as i go and think about it life wouldn't have been complete.. i know it's too much to say that my life is already complete, wtf, there are a lot of things i don't have.. but then you know that sense of wholeness that you feel everytime you think about those certain bits and peices of your life that you just can't help but stop and smile.

it just hurts and pains me that you can't really turn back time. that there are things you wish undone but there's nothing you can do.. time already took it and it will never come back. there are things i want to fix.. but i know i just can't. i would have to live with it. sometimes i ask, now that i'm already steady and has already accepted the things i could not change, do i really want to go back and change all that happened. it's just that my brain can't stop from working hyper drive and think of a million what if's and if only's. at least i have a clear view of the things i want to get back on and things i'd rather leave behind.. well, except for one thing that still baffles me and still gives me the shivers and second thoughts about things.

just like a kid

it has been so long since the last time i felt this way.. it just seems i've totally forgotten about it already..

i'm like a little girl with a crush.. well, basically it seems i am!

waaah!

it has been so long.. that's all i can say. it's like i never felt this before but definitely i've been there done that and more.. but.. i don't know..

maybe this comes with the quarter life crisis..

wow.. in a few weeks my life calendar will turn and i have no idea what's in store for me..

scary..

hah!

why is it called second coming of age when now i feel that i don't know anything.. i don't know how to react, how to go about things.. it's like any moment i would be making a big fool out of myself.. more scary stuff..

there are already things i don't want to get ruined and there are things that i can't help but anticipate (mind you, they're the worst things)

afraid? a little.. or maybe a little more than just a little but not much.

it's weird to have this feeling back.. well, it's just assurance that bygones are already indeed bygones..

what can i say?

my officemate announced what the top10 is for today..

she said..

what will you say to the love of your life before he/she marries
somebody else (eventually we realized it was the other way around,
eniweiz..)

when i heard the question..

mga mareng, hindi kinaya ng lola nyo..

after seeing The Notebook and everything i've been through...

waah!!

hindi ko napigilang maluha.. well, naagapan before actually pumatak
ang mga luha..

sobrang babaw rin kasi talaga ng luha ko.. pero yun nga.. these things
really get the best of me..

so, if i were asked the question.. isa lang...

wala.. dahil hindi ko kakayanin... waaaah!!


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someone

i just finished watching "The Notebook"... and tears are not yet stopping.

and just when i thought i would stop because it's already time for work, things just got worse around me.

why is it when i cry there's just no stopping.. it has been a long time since my last cry.. is this the reason why up to know tears can't stop welling up in my eyes.

i've once said that i need someone to take care of me. then one told me that he's there, that friends like him are there.. but why is it that i can't think of a single person whom i can talk to.. whom i can cry to..

i know my friends care, but there are still limitations as to what they can and cannot do..

i miss my best friend.. it has been so long since we last got together i don't even know if things are still the same. if she will still understand me the way she did before. besides she's a million miles away from me now.

i know some of my friends can listen, some of then can understand in a certain level, but i'm not sure if they can wipe my tears and find reason to what i'm feeling that sometimes i myself can't find.

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bygones

ok, so things were not as worse at it turned out to be. much time has passed and it has been a joke now. so, bygones!

huh.. present..

how i always want to just float out of time and watch it pass by.. haay..

my birthday's coming up and this early i know i won't be having much fun..

haay..

life sucks and i'm not sure if i've reached the bottom yet..


my life seems to be a bottomless pit.. it brings me deeper and deeper into depression! waaah!!!

depression? whatever!!

can things get worse

pissed off! so pissed off! as usual i dnt want 2
expound on this or get into details. i just want 2
move forward 2 what wil b d outcome of things. what
wil happen next. i hate this feeling of anticipating
the worst nd being positive 2 b able 2 survive.
cynical. haay! why do these things always happen 2 me?
as far as im concernd i things were never bad thing
then good thing, it was always bad thing then worse
then a little lighter then bad and waah! i just cant
take this. i would always have this hard stomach, this
hard pounding in my chest, and it seems im always out
of breath. my head hurts but not pounding nd im not
sure f this is bcoz of this so much anger or jst bcoz
i havnt got any sleep yet. grrr! the heavy traffic is
killing me, i jst hope frank wont get in my nerves. i
dnt know how 2 release this i dnt know how 2 really
let this out. i dnt want 2 cry nd i dnt want 2 burst
in a fitting rage! i dnt want 2 tel d story again nd
again i know it would just irit8 me! waaah! i dnt want
2 wish things 2 b ok bcoz things would just get worse!
im cursed, damned, jinxed! haay! i dnt want 2 go on
lyk this. i just want 2 stop. stop!

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phantasmagorical

i know i have given myself so much standards in finding the one and yet still being able to fall in love and in the process breaking those standards..

since i have my fair share of escapades, here i am again giving myself a list of things i would need..

• someone who would be able to adopt my busy life. my job and eventually going back to school and still keeping the job.


• accepts that i smoke


• someone who would want to see me everyday and still accepts that there are times that he can't


• remember dates even if i don't


• not into PDA but still can be sweet


• can either write or sing


• has brains and wheels


• enjoys the company of my friends instead of being jealous (kampai and frank)


• can handle my high maintenance emotional well being


• has great timing abilities


• knows how to take care of me...

so, there.. haaay...

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surreal

i can't help watching romantic comedy flicks. i don't know where this started.. oh, i do! the first time was I was "While You Were Sleeping". I watched it with Beng at her place.. and there.. the rest is history...

so, even if it would cost me extra Php 120, I still went through watching "A Cinderella Story". Aside from this slight fascination with Hillary Duff, I just can't accept the feeling I will have if I will miss this movie. Again, a love story that would not happen to me..

I know no one knows about my latest escapade, as in no one. Maybe I have this gutt feeling that no one understands me right now.

Then there's this movie I thought I would never watch.. but then again, I just found myself in the theater waiting for this movie to start. Another love story that just brought tears in my eyes, when was the last time one didn't?!? hahahah!

so, there..

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five stars

ate ning, bubu and I watched Garfield the Movie last Sunday.. it was one of those "feel good" films that I seldom appreciate. Well, I do appreciate them, but only after I watch them, there would be no zeal in going in the movie house watching this type of film, well, not as much as I would when I'm going to watch a heavy movie or a horror film or a romantic comedy film.

i have loved watching films, whether in theaters or in tv screens.

but now, i have a thirst for watching theater plays. woohoo! this thirst was quenched last week when my brother and I watched Dulaang UP's production of Tatarin. Asteeg! I could just dream of being in such production. waaaahh! There I've said it and with it comes the curse of it never ever coming true. I guess I'll forever be among the people who claps, and not one of those who bows. Well, at least in not in a super duper play. Because I have, of course, had my share of very few productions.

I miss the stage.

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missing stuff

The emotional anguish I feel is almost a physical pain.

I haven't been properly blogging for quite some time now and I also promised to give this site an overhaul but failed to do it.. busy? maybe? but then again being busy has always been my excuse for a lot of things and as I recently formulated, you can just call yourself busy once you no longer have tie for sleep but as long as you can give yourself some shut eye, you're not busy, so what's my excuse? acedia?

If you love a song, love it enough for it to accompany you throughout the different stages of your life, then any specific memory is rubbed away by use.

My previous entries were just lyrics of songs.. songs I like.. trigging not memories but emotions. Stuff I wanted to write about but don't have the gutts to. Why? Because again of the monster inside my head. One day I'll find time in explaining those songs because they do have meaning to me.. not memories, but meaning. My friend was able to make a CD for me with the songs I listed down for her. I wrote 30+ but of course she was only able to include 19 or 18. Maybe I'll start now with my favorite lines.


My Immortal - Evanescence
There's just too much that time cannot erase

The Reason - Hoobastank
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday

Breakdown - Mariah Carey
Do you hold on in vain
As they just slip away

Rainbow - South Border
Sometimes we never could understand
Why some things begin then just end


Torn - Natalie Imbruglia
I should've seen just what was there and not some holy light


This Love - Maroon 5
I'll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings


If You're Not the One - Daniel Bedingfield
I hope I love you all my life


Lately - Stevie Wonder
But what I really feel my eyes won’t let me hide

The Gift - Jim Brickman & Susan Ashton
You saved my heart
From being broken apart


Grow Old with You - Adam Sandler
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you


More than Words - Extreme
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me

Just Like a Pill - Pink
Instead of makin' me better, you keep makin' me ill


To Where You Are - Josh Groban
Fly me up to where you are beyond a distant star

Kailangan Kita - Gary Valenciano
Kailangan kita, ngayon at kailanman

Four Seasons of Loneliness - Boyz II Men
Until you release me I’m bound under ball and chain


Unwell - Matchbox 20
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown


She's Out of My Life - 98 Degrees
And I've learned that love won't wait, won't wait
Now I've learned love needs expression

Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
And you can’t fight the tears that ain’t
Coming

Wherever You will Go - The Calling
Then I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you


Hah! need some sleep!

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