crying in the rain...

Life Support
Hale

Sarcastic smiles and fake hellos
We try to hide but always
Leave an open door behind
To escape from reality

It felt so sure but we said no
We're throwing lies at someone
We don't know, we don't know
From this reality

Why can't we risk ourlives
For something that we can't deny
We try to run something
We don't know, we don't know
Is this reality

Why are you crying

I feel sorry

I feel so sorry
For me........

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music of my..

Bolunjie
Velcro

SANAY DI MO NALANG SINABI
HINDI KO NAMAN TINATANONG
Na kailangan mo pang isipin
Ok lang naman sa akin yon.

Ako'y maghihintay na lamang sa iyo,
Basta't wag lang, lumampas ng isang linggo

Chorus:

DAHIL DI PA NAMAN KITA GANUN KAMAHAL
KAKAKILALA KO LANG SA IYO
MALAY KO BA KUNG SASAKTAN/GAGAMITIN
MO LANG AKO
DI PA NAMAN KITA GANUN KA MAHAL, GALING
LANG AKO SA HIWALAYAN/IYAKAN
Sayang naman kung di mo ko pagbibigyan
(sobra naman pag masaktan muli ako)

Sana'y di mo na lang sinabi
Na meron ka nang pagtingin
Dahil di pa ko READY na buksan muli ang puso ko

Maghintay ka lang, nandito lang naman ako.
Konting panahon pa...para makapagisip ako..

[chorus]

Bridge:
Wag na nating labanan pa ang ating nadarama
BAHALA NA KUNG SAAN TAYO MAPUNTA

[chorus!!]

I Know

Yasmien Kurdi

I don't need to own a fancy car
To drive with you around the city
I don't need to live in a palace like house
A simple home is enough for me
I don't need much
Only your attention
I had to hope
To make me feel that I am not alone

I know
Is you my life is worth living
I know
Is you my life is gonna be just fine
I know
If you each day begins with a smile

I don't really have to worry
Somethings won't workout for me
I don't really have to bother
Just as long as you here with me
I don't need much
Only your affection
To see me through
To make me feel that I am not alone

I know
Together we can make our dreams come true
I know
But through the years we won't be growing old
I know
Counting stars won't be so hard to do

There will be your always time
At the end of the tumble shine
Our love for each other never fails
Baby I just know
(I know)
I know
(I know)
I know... wooahh..
I know
(I know)
I know
(I know)
wooahh...

I don't need much
Only your affection
To see me through
To make me feel that I am not alone

guess the movie

more movies

loved Dakota Fanning! She's got the most beutiful and expressive eyes!! and of couse, robert de niro is still as brilliant as ever! i never knew until they told...

i love johnny depp!! and the boy who played peter was good! the one who played michael was so sweet.. and kate winslet did a good job!!

believe?

Birth Data for Laarni:
Birth Date........... September 18, 1984
Birth Location..... Batangas, Philippines
Sun Sign............ Virgo

Mercury Square Uranus with an orb between 1 and 3 degrees

Brilliant and original as you are, you can also be difficult and unpredictable. Close ties may complain they never know when you are going to show up or what you're planning next. You are easily bored and love people who can both stimulate and surprise you.

Sun Square Neptune with an orb between 3 and 5 degrees

Your father was either over- idealized or he was rejected as a role model. Either way, your concept of what a man should be is not based upon a mortal person, but upon an ideal. This may lead to unrealistic expectations in close personal relationships.

Mercury Trine Jupiter with an orb between 3 and 5 degrees

You have a quality people trust and you are often sought after as a confidante or an advisor. You have high moral and ethical standards and it is imperative that anyone you're close to is a person of the highest integrity. You prefer well-educated people.

series of unfortuante events

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haay...

Can We Just Stop and Talk Awhile
Gary V. and Kyla

Fancy meeting you alone in the crowd
Couldn't help but notice your smile
While everybody else around us is going about
Can we just stop and talk awhile?

I've been often told our world's growing old
And that friends are harder to find
Do tell me more about yourself
We could share a thought or two
Now who would mind?

Maybe then we could go for a ride
Drive down to the countryside
Get away from the gray
And frenzied hurly-burly of the city life

Early yet to say what lies ahead
It's the first day of the rest of our lives
Can we just stop and talk awhile
Get to know each other
Who are we to know?
Love could be waiting at the end
'Round that bend and so
Let's stop and talk awhile

Can we just stop and talk awhile
Get to know each other
Who are we to know?
Love could be waiting at the end
'Round that bend and so
Let's stop and talk awhile
Let's stop and talk awhile
Let's stop and talk awhile
Let's stop and talk awhile

haay.. expect the worst but don't expect na naman ang drama ng lola mo!

i'll be going back to school.. kinda excited but then again, cold water is being thrown to me everytime i see a batch mate.. haay.. ok lang..

see you in real life.. i've been there and it's no utopia!

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UP Fair

UP Fair

19 February 2005

I know it has been a week and i may not be that accurate but then again it had been a long time since i had the urge of writing about something. So, here.

As the years of my life taught me, February 14th will always be a day not to be really happy about. But until now i'm still not sure if this year was the same. In a way, well, in many ways, yes. It would be shameful for someone as pessimistic as I am to just have one way of making things look bad.. hah!

So, there. My brother texted me and told me that PnE would be playing for tonight's (feb14) UP Fair. I got so excited and told him to confirm. He then said it's true! So, there, I asked my mom permission and there, off to Diliman!

As usual I was late and so was my brother. As expected there were a lot of bands, some were even cool and PnE was the last. Not being a fan, my brother got sleepy and tired and bored while I was still giddy and excited. Of course, PnE played last. They played four songs, the crowd was wild, Vinci was not there, Jay was there and was so brilliant. The band played Ted Hannah while the crowd sings and no Chito to be found. Then when he came out, he has a tattoo or was that just henna (heheheh) on his right arm. It was cool! Although, I didnt really see the details. They played Harana, then Jay came out for Okatokat, then because Vinci was not around Jay played his (Vinci) part for The Yes Yes Show and was so brilliant! Then the crowd requested for one more song, they played Buloy.

So, there. My instincts told me to go to the back stage. I practically dragged my brother there because he really wants to go home already but his desire of making me happy won. So, we went to the back stage. And the stroke of luck, Chito and Kaye were just going out. I said hi, he acknowledged and said goodbye. I had to call Kaye, she smiled and acknowledged as well. I was reaching for the pentel pen in my bag and ask for an autograph but his saying goodbye, virtually kicked me out. So, we left.

Heart broken?!? In a way yes. In many ways, YES! I dont really love him, it would be cool to be his mistress though. Heheheh! But he broke my heart that night. Although I never really asked for anything and he didnt really say no. But not stopping and automatically saying good bye was like saying get lost, I'm tired that's why I layed off. It's a good thing I didnt bring my CDs or it would be more hurtful. There were a lot of things I failed to say and do because of being hurt. I was supposed to ask if any parokyano came, ask him to approve my friend request in friendster, look at his tattoo, and meet the other members of the band. But like i've said, after the rejetion, we left. I've thought if kiki was there with me maybe it would be different.

Haaay.. until now there's this crunching in my heart.

But good things happened after. The next day we get to watch The Phantom of the Opera. And it was superb!! I'm just wondering why it didn't make it to the Oscars. Maybe they're tired of musicals winning. But it was really a great movie. And again, it made me cry.

We bought VCDs too. Big Daddy and Autumn in New York. I never stopped watching Big Daddy and I didnt cry watching Autumn in New York.

Then, Noel brought a copy of My Sassy Girl... and waaaahhh!! I died crying.

I guess, I would have to conclude that yes, it was a typical valentine for barn... devastation.

the godfather

i had a godfather marathon this weekend..

enlightenning!!

heheheh!

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haaay.. yuki!

You're Yuki - the mouse.

Which Fruits Basket Character Are You?
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soo cute!

it has been quite sometime since i took a quizzilla so here..

Your so cute anyone would think your cute. Even the
grown ups:) Probaly any boy would run up to you
with flowers and cute stuffed animals like
you;) Just look at you. Your adorable:)

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jazz chant

we were assigned to create a jazz chant..
inspired by..

Don't Touch My Birdie
Parokya ni Edgar

Kapag ako'y nababato
Pinaglalaruan ko ang birdie ko
Ang cute-cute naman kasi
Kaya ko siya binili
My birdie is my best friend
Ang dami naming maliligayang sandali
Madalas ko siyang pinapakain ng birdseed
Mahal kita o birdie ko, 'wag kang lalayo
Don't touch my birdie!
Resist temptation please!
You don't have to grab my birdie
Just call it, and it will come!
Ang birdie ko ay nakakatuwa
Parang cobra na mahilig mantuka
Kapag nilabas na sa kulungan
Tuluy-tuloy na ang aming kasiyahan
'Di naman ako madamot talaga
Ayaw ko lang na hinahawakan siya ng iba!
Ang birdie ko ay medyo masungit
Konting hawak lang siguradong magagalit!
Huwag ka sanang magalit sa akin
Tuwing ang birdie ko ay aking hihimasin
Sana'y maunawaan mo
Mahal na mahal ko ang birdie ko
pati mga itlog nito!



so, here's our jazz chant..


We have a pet
He is a bird
We love to call him birdie, birdie, birdie
We love to touch our birdie, birdie, birdie
And another pet
She is a cat
We love to call her pussy, pussy, pussy
We love to feed our pussy, pussy, pussy
And then one day when we woke up
We saw our birdy dead
Pussy ate birdy
poor birdy, poor birdy

winner!

from beng...

much again has happened and though a little late and a few understandable typo errors, beng have this very refreshing theory.

Thanks, beng! aylabsyah!

ANOTHER OF BHENGS THEORY (sfx :mad laughter pls and thunder!!)
Message: we all think and accepted the fact that people
make mistakes,,, and before i used to tell my
self that in order to survive the dangerous and
mossy jungle of human relationship, one must
learn to admit that sometimes we are the
mistakes that people who became dear to us
commit.and it takes gutts to admit that in you
hangs a placard that tells the whole world that
hey world!! i am his/her mistake!!! crucify me!!

but now i defy that former theory of mine,,,
this time i came to realize that we actually do
not commit mistakes.. the term mistake and if i
may suggest thenn i consider it politically
wrong... hehehe... kidding aside... we dont make
mistakes,,, we make choices... again i say not
mistakes... the term mistake is determined
whether by set of standards rules and anwer
keys,,, but come to think of it.. in life there
are no definite standards on how to one is
supposed to be running his/her life. wat hurts
us and what makes us sad or makes us feel
uncomfortable and anything in between makes us
think that its because of that mistake,,. but
no... its called consequences, end result end
product that one must have to face. why? because
its a choice that you made maybe alone or with
another... but never a mistake... its a choice.

so why burden yourself thinking about mistakes
that would eventually eat you and consume you?
and why did we ever thought of that?? hehehhe
anyone whose braincells and neurons agree with me
or anyone was led astray by this feel free to
send me a message or post something that would
either atest or defy this. warning..this just one
of my few and occassional theories.. and lets all
be guiged,, ladies and gentlemen... that theories
reamin to be true until proven wrong... ciao!!!

from Ms. Dannie-Bie D. Beltran

lilo and stitch and superman

Here are the things about the movie that is so noteworthy.. hehehe!

• There's a poster of MULAN in Nani's bedroom
• There is a hidden mickey in Jumba's platform during the trial and in one of the shorts of the people in Lilo's collection of photos
• Stitch's saliva shaped like a "D" for Disney
• The note in Lilo's door means "keep out"
• Lilo and Nani's last name is Pelekai
• The name of Lilo's doll is Scrump
• Spot Dumbo in the movie

i'm not sure why i'm this much affected.. i'm not even a fan..

but when i read and saw his picture in the msn home page.. my heart
stopped.. and as if gasping for air i asked my officemates... "patay
na si christopher reeves?!"

waah!

My Place - Nelly - Lyrics

My Place
Nelly

[Nelly]
I used to pride myself on being the other man
But now it's flipped and I don't want you with no other man
Why can't you understand anything I'm offering
I gave you the world, but you just wanted arguing
>From the time I picked you up, until the time I dropped you off again
Even if flipped out on at the mall again
"It's all his fault again" that's what you tellin all ya friends
I ain't pointing fingers ma, i just wanna call again
See how ya day going I know they stressin on ya
I know them times get hard that's why I'm checkin on ya
It's yours truly ma, I got little message for ya
Anything he can do, girl I can do better for ya
Cause

Hook: [Nelly]
When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever

Chorus: [Jaheim]
Won't you come on and go with me (oh girl)
Come on over to my place
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat
and let me ease ya mind girl
We gon do it our way (our way)

[Nelly]
I heard your friend tell a friend that told a friend of mine
That you was thinking that we should do it one more time
If this ain't the truth then hopefully it's not a lie
Cause I ain't got no issue with hitting that another time
We never had a problem with gettin it done
Disagreed upon a lot ma, but sex wouldn't one
Now check it I know you get excited when I come around and bite it
Quit frownin up and quit actin like you don't like it

I like it (I know you like), I like it (You really like it), I really, really like it,
I want it (You really want it), adore it (adore it), so come with me enjoy it

Hook: [Nelly]
When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever

Chorus: [Jaheim]
Won't you come on and go with me (oh girl)
Come on over to my place
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat
and let me ease ya mind girl
We gon do it our way (our way)

Bridge: [Nelly]
Shawty where you been
Feels like a long time, long long time since I seen ya
Yes it has girl, and I know I said some dumb things to you before
But girl you know I didn't mean it
I didn't mean one single word
I never meant one single word
If I could take back every word I would and more fa sho
If I thought that you believe it
Cause you make my life so convinient for me

Hook: [Nelly]
When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever

Chorus: [Jaheim]
Won't you come on and go with me (oh girl)
Come on over to my place
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat
and let me ease ya mind girl
We gon do it our way (our way)

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nice one

You are...Lilo! Your an angelic (or almost) little

kid, who loves animals!


What character from Lilo and Stitch are you?

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last song syndrome

Without You
Charlie Wilson

Without you
Mmm...hmm...
It feels like a lifetime,
A thousand days have passed by
Since I held you close to me
If I could see that smile from my friend
I know that I could live again
I need you here with me

Heaven knows what to say
Even though for right
Nw you're so far away
I hope and I pray
Somewhere in your heart I'll always stay

Girl, lately my sun doesn't shine without you
Never noticed what it feels like to be without you
Feels like I took my last step
And my last breath in my life ending
Had to say just what I was feeling, girl
'Cause my sun doesn't shine,
Sun doesn't shine without you

This is more for me than for you
Girl, I finally see there's no substitute
For what we have
Do you know how much I love you

Heaven knows what to say
Even though for right now you're so far away
Gonna tell you and show you
Do whatever I can do to get back to you

Girl, lately my sun doesn't shine without you
Never noticed what it feels like to be without you
Feels like I took my last step
And my last breath in my life ending
Had to say just what I was feeling, girl
'Cause my sun doesn't shine,
Sun doesn't shine without you

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That someday it would lead me back to you

Sunday Morning
Maroon 5

Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
That someday it would lead me back to you

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

Fingers trace your every outline
Paint a picture with my hands
Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm
Change the weather still together when it ends

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave

But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
Sunday morning rain is falling and I'm calling out to you
Singing someday it'll bring me back to you
Find a way to bring myself back home to you

And you may not know
That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow?

analyze this..

nothing much to do.. i don't want to sleep although i know i would be needing this for later..

i just had a look at the things i won't be able to get.. i had them maybe once but i wasn't aware i have them.. waah! i can't keep my line of thought straight.. wait.

ehem..

for first crush..


i hate you! for making me fall all over again and there.. leaving me hanging.. i sometimes wish i never saw you again. hoping i never had to feel it all over again. i was fine, i was okay. don't worry, i'm not miserable as you hoped me to be. i'm ok. i was okay even if i didn't know that you had a crush on me as well. waah! i hate you!

I hate the way you talk to me. And the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare I hate your big dumb combat boots. And the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick-- it even makes me rhyme. I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh -- even worse when you make me cry. I hate it that you're not around. And the fact that you didnt call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you - - not even close, not even a little bit, not any at all.


for the supposedly perfect guy for me..


i know it takes two to tango. i know it's not entirely your fault. i know i have a big part played in messing things up. maybe this is the way of torturing myself. or for me to learn my lesson. but no.. it's just that i can bring what was there before. no doubt what we had was sincere. i didn't cheat in whatever way. you didn't either. but i'm sorry.. i'm so sorry. you probably know how much misery i'm in right now and that with you i'll be spared from all these, but it would be unfair, it would be cheating on you and on myself. i can't even bring myself into saying "maybe someday" because no. i don't think there even will be someday.. i'm sorry. sorry for what we had and what we could've had or still have. being sorry is all i can be.

for the guy i loved.. and maybe still do..

there are many things that can make me hate you but i'm not sure why i can't bring myself to hate you that much to forget or erase my feelings and/or affection for you. there are a lot of things i don't know about you. i'm not sure if i just don't ask or if you just won't tell me. i'm here for you, that's all. i know at what point when things start to go wrong. it was so hard for me. i was so hurt but loving you didn't stop there. i'm sorry for all the wrong things i may have done that just brought you to the stand that getting back together will never happen again. i want to let go. i want to move on. maybe i have because now i can say that indeed getting back together will never happen. a glint of hope maybe i have but i'm almost sure that it will never happen. but i can't stop caring for you because you have been indeed so special. i want to thank you for the memories but please stop holding me back. you will always be special, in my heart.. always.

Until you release me I'm bound
Under ball and chain
Reminiscing our love as I watch
Four seasons' change

This loneliness
Has crushed my heart
Please let me love again

for my crush..

hi! thanks for diverting my heart from all the things i've been trying to avoid all these time.. i know there's no promise, there's even no hope, but thanks for making me smile.. making my heart stop for a while.. thanks for all the small things that i think doesn't really matter.. i still don't know what i want, i just want to enjoy the present feeling you bring me but something more? i don't know. i'm afraid to get to know you, i'm afraid to get close.. at the same time wishing this would happen, but then again maybe no. so there, thanks!

for the only one left..

where are you? my phone number with you is no longer existing. i know you greeted me for my birthday. you changed your phone number as well and i don't know what it is anymore. i miss you.. you're my only hope. haaay.. where are you?

i never thought

i know it was just a joke.. it's nothing to take seriously or personally but then again i was affected. in fact, gravely affected that i don't want to think about it when i can't stop but think about that silly story.. a fictional thing that has a very high of possibility coming true.. waah!

then they told me.. this is different since i'm now affected.. waah!

waaah!