"Vonda Shepard Baby Don’t You Break My Heart Slow lyrics"
I like the way you wanted me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you needed me
Every time things got rocky
I was believing in you
Was I mistaken
Do you say do you say what you mean
I want our love to last forever
But I’d rather you be mean than love and lie
I’d rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I’d rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don’t you break my heart slow
I like the way you’d hold me
Every night for so long baby
And I like the way you’d say my name
In the middle of the night
While you were sleeping
I was believing in you
Was I mistaken
Do you mean do you mean what you say
When you say our love could last forever
Chorus
But I’d rather you be mean than love and lie
I’d rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I’d rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don’t you break my heart slow
Bridge
You would run around and lead me on forever
While I wait at home still thinking that we’re together
I wanted our love to last forever
I was believing in you
I’d rather you be mean than love and lie
I’d rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I’d rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don’t you break my heart slow
Chorus
30 October 2008
I was believing in you
28 October 2008
20 minutes to write
i finished reading "Stainless Longganisa". and it sort of reignited my zeal for writing and my passion for performing on stage. i would just need to have my life and finances a little organized.
i can't remember when i first had that thing for writing. but, it's very limited. i can but there's a a very slim chance for me to write good in Filipino. i can't write news articles as well. i knew that when i tried for our school organ. stick to English. stick to feature writing and/or editorials.
my mom doesn't want me to become a writer. we watched this movie wherein the main character was a young female writer who became an addict. maybe that's the reason why mom didn't make me take an writing related course.
i have no regrets taking up engineering. i would still want to go back and finish the course. well, if i have the time and money.
i'm sort of getting the hang of my job. i don't go and stay here for 12 hours. well, i really know what i was doing, i'm just a workaholic bitch that's why i stay that long here in the office. but since i sort of learned how to let go. i think i would be able to start and try my chances in theater again. i'm ready for rejections and would be accepting challenges along the way. i would just really want to perform on stage again. i want to be part of a production again. i miss the hammering feeling inside my chest before i start and go on stage.
i know these activities and the things i would want to do would not fill in the void. but it would make me think of that hallow part of me. and eventually, maybe without noticing it, i would be contented.
i have accepted my fate. a long time ago. something happened that made believe otherwise. i'm going back to that place. and i would be happy. right?
just one more minute to go..
i made a wish. and it's not really good. but it would really make me glad.
27 October 2008
sms: amnesia
i know if i did this a couple of years back, more people would have replied.. but i guess, this would be enough..
i texted the following message to almost everyone in my phone book:
Kung naaksidente ako at nagkaron ng amnesia.. At ang alam ko lang ay ang aking
buong pangalan.. Ano'ng isasagot mo kapag tinanong kita kung sino ako at sino
ka? O hahayaan mo na lang na nakalimutan ko na kung sino ako sayo at sino
ka sa buhay ko?
Most of them did not answered.. some thought it was a quote.. and some were not informed about my number and asked who i was? bwahahahahah! some answered laughter and some asked to eat.. hahahaha! well, here are the answers i got..
mamma bear: sabihin ko ikaw ay gf ni *** at ako ang nambugaw sa inyo.
i was laughing out loud with a factor of HP-ness.
dee: ikaw si barn, work force ng pb account sa sykes na ex ni *****. ako si dee isa sa mga kaibigan at pinaka-cute sa pb. pag di mo naalala, hahayaan na lang kita na may amnesia.
no comment
oric: ikaw si laarni, ako i rico and we're super close..
*hugs*
mommy joy: sasabihin ko bitch ka pero love pa rin kita kasi friend mo ako. :)
i'm a bitch and i love it! and a good thing that my friends love it too!
cyrus: if ever man na you forget me because of an accident and ask me who i am in your life? I will say... "boo! gulat ka noh!" hahahah! honestly and sincerely, mag papakilala ako a your friend, teatro baby and a little brother that won't ever forget a wonderful ate who guided me nd accompanied me in my life in mapua, in teatro and daily living.. bow.. :)
*speechless with a grin*
vj anievas: ikas i barn, kumakain ng apoy sa paragos ng ilog para mang aliw. ako naman si vj, ang tigatulak ng paragos mo! XD
which resulted to a discusion as to what "paragos" means! bwahahahaha! he said he would bring me back to my filipino teachers and i should have failed. sorry..
barn: ano yung paragos?
vj: yung hinihila ng kalabaw
barn: araro?
vj: ano ka ba? iba yun! paragos, yung nilalagayan ng mga
prutas or bigas..
barn: parang kariton pero hinihila imbes na
tinutulak? or parang caravan pero kalabaw ang humihila?
i'm not sure if i got it right.. hahahaha!
dad kumag: SINO KA? ikaw ang babaeng madumi ang buhok na may mahahabang kuko na may twist pa, may bonus na lupa lupa.. pero mabango ang k3p$. SINO AKO? ako ang nagpaplantsa sa buhok mo at gumugupit sa kuko mo.. pero hindi ako ang umaamoy ng k3p$ mo. iyon ay si *****! kilala mo ba sya?!
bwahahahahhahahahahahah!
stitch: Laarni Lopez .. nag aral ka sa MIT .. member ka ng teatro at magaling kang actor .. nagtatrabaho kas sa call center ngayon ..panganay a magkakapatid ..responsible at mabait kang anak
ano ka sakin? .. kapamilya mo ako sa kampai ..ex-gf kita na minahal ko ng sobra pero di tayo nagtagal dahil sa mga problema ko sa sarili ko .. kaibigan pa rin kita at mahal hanggang ngayon..
awww.. :')
josica (TL): ask kita if pwede magpa-aux ng agent.. hahaha!
and i actually replied, "sure! if there are no queues.. " bwahahahahahhaha! memory back! shit! i'm such workaholic bitch!
nini: hirap barn. siguro i'll let you come live with me for a week.. potah isa lang mga karakas natin kaya makikilala mo kung sino ka at ako. heheheh!
i've been meaning to go to her place someday and meet her baby!
ninang: ikaw si hagrid! naihambing sayo ang pangalan na yan dahil sa gulo ng buhok nya at pagkachorva nya.. yung tanong may parte sa puso ko at naging malaking part ng college life ko, isang taong masayahin at mahina ang puso. isang taong mahal ko. yun lang..
awwww... *hugs*
shua: ako yung kaibigan mo tapat at maganda laging nandito para sayo
was forced to answer.. heheheh!
mnf: pg nagka-amnesia ka, sasabihin ko sa yo na asawa mo dati si **** kaya lang naghiwalay kayo dahil kay ***.. at bf mo ngayon si *** hahahaha
ako ang kapatid mo na autistic dati at sanay ka na pinagsisilbihan ako.. oo nga pala, sasabihin ko rin na gustong gusto ni *** pag ikaw ang nagiging mapusok at ikaw ang nag iinitiate ng love making nyo.
TSK! hmpf!
bwahahahahhahahhahaha!
25 October 2008
i want a cristina yang
Pick a word that begins with the first letter of your
first name?
- love
.
Your ex shows up randomly at your house, what do you
say?
- ano'ng ginagawa mo dito?
.
Is there anyone that you care more about than yourself?
- i'm not sure.. not recently tested
.
How many times have you been to the ER?
- thrice yata.. twice, i'm not the patient
Do you have trust issues?
- yeah
.
Do tattoos and piercings excite you?
- it depends on who wears them and where
.
I bet you're missing someone right now?
- the list is not that long
.
Do you hate the last guy you were talking to?
- nope
.
Who was your last text message from?
- ate faith
.
Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
- not all
.
What's the best wedding you've been to?
- sir bobot and mam shirley's
What time did you wake up this morning?
- i don't wake up in the morning
.
If someone liked you right now, would you want them to
tell you?
- yup!
.
Do you get along better with guys or girls?
- okay lang pareho, pero mas ang gays.. heheheh
.
Who is the best person to cheer you up?
- it's very easy to cheer me up.. i'm thinking about
three people right now.
Did you mean it when you said "i love you" last?
- yeah, i always do.
.
When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in
the face?
- bwahahahahahah! before september ended.. medyo may
feeling pa ngayon, pero siguro just for the fun of it.
medyo nakakdiri ng isiping maglalapat ang mga balat
namin! bwahahahahah!
Is it okay if you kiss people when you're single?
- yup
.
What is wrong with you right now?
- hmmmm.. heart.
Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
- nope
.
Would you kiss someone to make your bf/gf mad?
- nope
.
Do you believe exes can really ever be "just friends"?
- nope, but there's a possibility with one
.
Do you use t9, word, or abc?
- abc
.
Is there a guy that knows everything or mostly
everything about you?
- before he used to.. i changed.
.
Do you tell your mom everything?
- nope
.
Who was the last person you yelled at?
- i'm not sure.. might be an agent, or while messing up
with charley
Who was the last person you cried in front of?
- marky
Have you told anybody you loved them today?
- none
.
Think of the last person you held hands with, do they
mean something to you?
- yeah
.
Could you cry right now?
- yeah, but i chose not to
.
What were you doing at 1 AM this morning?
- working
.
How's your ex doing?
- i don't know
.
Who can you trust?
- i don't know
1.Last person who wrote you a comment?
- noel
2. Last song you listened to?
- truly madly deeply
3. What is people's first impression to you?
- maarte
4. Do you like chocolates?
- yup
5. Most memorable place?
- can't remember.. hahaha!
6. Do you read comics?
- yup
7. What are your favorite ice cream flavors?
- double dutch, cookies and cream and pistacchio
8. Do you miss someone?
- yes.
9. grocery or shopping?
- both
10. Can you dance?
- nope
Do you believe in God?
- yup
Your name spelled backwards..
- nrab
Where were you last night?
- still here
What is the last thing you downloaded?
- i don't remember
Name one beautiful person you've met/seen?
- no one comes in mind
Do u like roller coasters?
- yup
Chattin with...?
- mike and lemon
Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
- yup! for both!
Are you shy?
- sometimes.. not so obvious though.. hahahah!
Do you think you're popular?
- nope
Fries or Popcorn?
- fries
Are you a good cook?
- nope.. but i hope i could be
BEST person in the world?
- my will be husband.. hehehehe!
Have you ever tasted durian?
- i don't remember.. hahahah!
What is your favorite pc game?
- twister?
Have you ever baked cakes?
- yup
Last thing you bought?
- food
What's your favorite song right now?
- i'm not a princess
Last song stuck in your head?
- none
Any pets?
- wala po
Color of most clothes you own
- brown?
Last starbucks?
- saturday ng madaling araw.. last week..
Last movie you've watched?
- in dvd.. bwahahahahahahah!
any plans for tomorrow?
- sunday? i'm going to oric's place with the gurls!
This weekend?
- it's the weekend
Are you happy?
- yeah..
Last sms you received?
- si ate faith, nagpapadala ng pera for drinks kasi they're waiting for me at the 6th floor
If someone were to spell your name wrong, how would they
spell it?
~ laarnie
.
Is your phone close to you?
~ near? yes
.
Look at your recent calls, who was your last call from?
~ amiel
.
What's bothering you right now?
~ yung tumitingin sa friendster account ko
.
Bet you're missing someone now?
~ Yup
.
If you were given $100, would you spend it, or save it ?
~ have it changed to peso, then, pay bills/debts with it
.
What was the highlight of your week?
~ my new hair!
.
What were you doing at midnight last night?
~ working.. or fooling around at work.. hahahah!
.
Are you listening to music right now?
~ yup
.
Do you get along with girls?
~ yup
.
Do you like surprises?
~ it should not ruin my day or plans though
.
Do you like your name?
~ yup
.
Do you crack your knuckles?
~ yup
What were you doing 20 minutes ago?
~ answering this
.
Bonfire or fireplace?
► bonfire on the sea shore and fireplace inside the house while it's snowing outside.. bwahahhaha!
.
Do you ever write notes on your hand?
► when i was a kid
.
Where did you sleep last night?
~ i'm here at work
.
What was your last text and who was it from?
~ ate faith
.
Whats on your mind right now?
~ the answer to this question
.
What makes you happy?
~ a lot of things.. heheheheh!
.
Have you ever gone Christmas caroling?
~ yup.
.
Who are you thinking of?
~ my friends i went caroling with
.
What are you looking forward to in the next month?
~ his birthday, his freedom? hahahah!
.
When is the last time you talked to your mom?
~ on her birthday
.
Have you ever told anyone you were OK when you really
weren't?
~ all the time
.
Where's the last place you went?
~ outside the norm? home
.
Do you smile often?
~ yup
.
Is there anyone that you wish was out of your life?
~ yup, but actually, she already is so, the answer is none.
.
.
Were you happy when you woke up today?
~ nope
.
Happiest moment of 2008 so far?
~ thinking of it makes me sad
.
Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try
again?
~ i'm not sure.. can't think of anything right now
.
Do you have a best friend?
~ a lot.. but i want a cristina yang
23 October 2008
this ain't a fairy tale
that face of an angel
comes out just when you need it to
and that face back in and forth all this time
because I honestly believed in you
holding on
and days track on
stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known
I am not a princes, this ain't a fairy tale
i'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
lead her up the stair well
this ain't hollywood, this is a small town
i was a dreamer before you
and i let me down
now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around
Baby I was naive,
and lost in your eyes
and never really had a chance
I had so many dreams
about you and me
happy endings
now I know
I am not a princes, this ain't a fairy tale
i'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
lead her up the stair well
this ain't hollywood, this is a small town
i was a dreamer before you
and i let me down
now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around
and you're here at my door
begging for forgiveness
begging for me just like i always wanted
but i'm so sorry
cause i'm not your princess this ain't a fairytale
i'm gonna find someone somewhere who might actually treat me well
this is a big world and that was a small town
there in my rear view disappearing now
and it's too late for you and your white horse
it's too late for you and your white horse
catch me now
try and catch me now
it's too late to catch me now
20 October 2008
kulot na si barn!
after about 6 hours in the salon.. after wanting to have curly hair for quite some time now.. here goes..
sighs and hugs: for chito
sorry..
for not being able to greet you on your birthday.. or did i? well, sorry for not remembering if i did greet you or not.. hahahahah!
for all the hurt i've caused you.. i hope i already stopped doing that.
thank you..
for letting me know how it feels to be loved, respected and cherished.. i may not feel them again.
yeah..
.. i still feel all these things when i remember you.. us.. and my head cracks thinking of possibilities and impossibilities.. so, i'd rather not think.
18 October 2008
moo bees
-= trainspotting =-
Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a starter home. Choose dental insurance, leisure wear and matching luggage. Choose your future. But why would anyone want to do a thing like that?
Never let your friends tie you to the tracks.
Trivia:
- Was ranked number 10 on the British Film Institute's all time best British films.
- Although it looks thoroughly offputting, the faeces in the Worst Toilet in Scotland scene was actually made from chocolate and smelled quite pleasant.
- The whole film was shot in just seven and a half weeks.
- For the close-up shots of Ewan McGregor injecting himself with heroin, a prosthetic arm was constructed by the make-up department, complete with pulsing veins, smack tracks and small pockets of blood that would appear when the skin was punctured by a hypodermic needle.
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0117951/quotes
i love the quotes in this movie, they're just too long to post.
Debbie: You think because you don't yell, you're not mean. This is mean.
Pete: Do you ever wonder how somebody could even like you? The biggest problem in our marriage is that she wants me around. And I can't even accept that? I don't think I can accept pure love.
Ben Stone: [explaining the conception to their newborn baby] and then your Mommy said, "Just do it already!" which was very confusing to Daddy, so I took the most literal translation.
[quietly]
Ben Stone: But between you and me, it was the smartest thing I ever did, 'cause now you're here.
i think i cried in this movie. well, which one did i not?
Based on the terrifying story by Stephen King
The Dolphin Hotel invites you to stay in any of its stunning rooms. Except one.
No one lasts more than an hour.
Enjoy your stay.
Don't stay in 1408.
The only demons in room 1408 are those within you.
The classic thriller we've all been waiting for!
Trivia
There are many references to the number "13" throughout the movie. The room is numbered "1408", add each number together equals 13. The room is on the 14th floor, and the Hotel skips the 13th floor, so the room is technically on the 13th floor. The room's key lock also has "6214" etched into it, which adds up to 13. And the first death was in the year 1912, which adds to 13.
In addition to the previous numbers adding up to 13, the hotel is mentioned to be at 2254 Lexington Street in New York City. 2254 adds up to 13.
Taglines
How do I loathe thee? Let me count the ways.
Romeo, Oh Romeo, Get Out Of My Face.
They're spitefully romantic
I pine, I perish!
The title "10 Things I Hate About You" sounds remotely like "Taming Of The Shrew" (on which this film is based).
Several names reflect the Shakespearean origin of the story. Bianca's and Kat's last name is Stratford (William Shakespeare was born in Stratford-upon-Avon). Patrick's last name is Verona (birthplace of Petruchio, the corresponding character from the play). The high school is called Padua, which is the city in which the play is set.
Julia Stiles originally auditioned for the role of Bianca Stratford.
Michael says, "Sweet love, renew thy force," which is a line from Shakespeare's Sonnet 56.
Cameron says, "I burn, I pine, I perish," a direct quote from Taming of The Shrew.
One of the taglines for this movie is "How do I loathe thee? Let me count the ways" which is an obvious play on "How do I love thee? Let me count the ways." Although this movie contains multiple references to William Shakespeare and "The Taming of the Shrew", the line "How do I love thee? Let me count the ways" was written not by Shakespeare, but by Elizabeth Barrett Browning. It is the first line of Sonnet 43 from Barrett Browning's "Sonnets from the Portuguese"
The marching band in the sequence where Heath Ledger sings to Julia Stiles had actually never marched before. They had to be taught for the purposes of the movie.
The original script was much darker to the one in the final film. In the original, Mandella (Kat's best friend) referred openly and frequently to several suicide attempts, which were for her to join with William Shakespeare.
Kat Straford is excited she got into Sarah Lawrence College. In reality, Larisa Oleynik who played Bianca Stratford really went to Sarah Lawrence College.
The song lyric "cruel to be kind" is a reference to a line from the play Hamlet; another of William Shakespeare's works.
The original song scripted for Patrick to sing to Kat to gain her forgiveness was "I Think I Love You" by 'the Partridge Family'.
Quotes
I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.
this is my ever favorite, as well as everyone, i think. you can find more here. http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0147800/quotes
Soundtrack
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0147800/soundtrack
i like the song being played during the paint ball scene. i'm not sure which one is it.
Trivias
The mobile phone that Hitch uses to talk to Sara when Albert is getting his back waxed is a Sony Ericsson P900.
Will Smith suggested Kevin James for the role of Albert, being a fan of James' hit series "The King of Queens" (1998).
Jennifer Lopez turned down the role of Sara Melas.
The original title of the script was "The Last First Kiss".
Kevin James made up all of the dance moves for the scene where Albert is dancing in Hitch's apartment.
Allegra Coleman was a fictitious actress created by Esquire magazine in their Nov '96 issue, designed to spoof other magazine's fawning obsession with new stars. The article written about her new "It Girl" status prompted calls from studios and talent scouts eager to offer her scripts. Ali Larter provided the face and body shots for the faux starlet.
Quotes
i'm surprised to have liked this movie. i actually did not want to watch this during the time it was showing here because i'm not really a will smith fan. and again, i needed to stop myself from crying because boris was teasing me.
chapter three
it has been a very long time since my last entry.. i have been working a lot.. hahahah! i'm really back to being the workaholic bitch that i am. good thing or bad thing? i'm not really sure..
i'm on leave for two days.. thus, the free time to actually create an entry. can't make a specific one so here goes..
when mnf and i went to the mall two weeks ago, while he was trying on some pants, i noticed in the mirror while i was combing my hair that one of my earrings was missing. it was a pair of pearl earrings liway gave me when she went to boracay this year. the right one was missing. and i can't stay without earrings, right now. so, after mnf's shopping spree we searched for a new pair of earing for me. and this would be my gift for myself for this cut off. we went to a lot of shops, and nothing seem to fit my taste. well, there was this one pair that i sort of liked. it's a silver drop pair. i didn't buy it right away and went to search for something different.
as usual, we went inside celine to check what shoes are on sale. i forgot that they also sell accessories and there i saw it. the pair i would like to have. it's really the same as the one in the picture but it's black. it's like ebony. but it's not cheap. we went to search for something else, but i can't take my mind of it. i was thinking of how i would look like wearing them and knowing that it's not light, i needed to think a lot. but we went to search for other earrings but to no avail. so, i mustered up enough courage to go and buy that.
i love it. it was painful during the first few days but then i got used to it. and i'm wearing it almost everyday. i don't have a picture wearing it but soon enough i sure will and i'll post it here or upload it.
alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao kapag nagtalikuran sila? kailangan mo pa libutin ang buong mundo para makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo. - bob ong
.. pero kung gusto ka rin nya makaharap, half-way across the world lang ang kailangan mong libutin. pero hindi rin saktong half, pwedeng mas malayo or mas malapit.. depende sa kung gaano nyo gustong magkaharap uli..
then, i realized that i don't have her number. i lost a lot of numbers since i lost my phone. so, i asked for her number from one of our high school best friends. in case she doesn't have beng's number i also asked for nini's. then she started sending the business cards. i was surprised to see that there was a third bussiness card sent.. and the info surprised me more. it was my prince charming. then, dada said, "i know you want it." bwahahahahahah!
so, i sent him a message. it was nice being able to have communication with him again. it has been years. well, one year and 8 months, not that i'm counting.
it has always been it's either him or me who's in a relationship during these times of communication. so, i expected that he's involved with someone right now. then, stupid me, asked for a sign. if it's for more than a year, i'll back off. so, i asked.. and it has been less than a year! bwahahahahaha!
but i'm not really in the mood of pursuing right now. although, it has given me a lot of HP nights and moments. it still can make me smile. and it's okay.
i always came clean with him. i have been honest ever since. so, i told him about my previous relationship. and i may be paranoid, but i think, i shouldn't have. i think it gave a wrong image.
i wanted to blame bliss, but it's not entirely her fault. it was my decision as well. i don't hate my prince charming for it. he is entitled to his own opinions. but like what i have realized, the back of my mind kept saying that, "i never asked for it to happen. i didn't want it. i did not even wish for it." well, it did happen and i won't be able to erase that. i just realized that in all of my past relationships, aside from the last one, i sort of wished for them to happen. i hoped and i prayed, and i guess, until forever, i'm glad they all came to pass. but not the last one. it was a new set up. so, i guess, i tried it. signs of regrets? maybe. i can live.
his birthday is coming up next week, i hope i would be able to remember to greet him.
so, one of these very few good friends of mine sort of introduced me to this guy. sort of introduced because it was not in person. i think i already saw him. mnf pointed him out when he went to our floor. i was looking at him with this stupid look on my face when he looked at my direction. so, i hope he doesn't remember that. but i don't think i would really remember how he looks like in case we bump into each other.
so, there, we haven't met in person yet. but we have been talking in IM and sometimes texting.
since i'm in the state of being easily HP, there are a lot of times that my cheek bones hurt.
i'm half looking forward to actually meeting him in person, but there's this half that wants to keep it this way. i'm not sure why. am i afraid? or am i just contented?
well, the future will unfold on its own, so let it be. and i'll be just giddy and excited about it. :P
i want to make you smile.. but i don't know how to..
all i know is why.. because even if you don't really mean to, you make me smile..
thanks! hope to make it up to you someday!
evoe - no results came out. i sure wish to find what it means!
chortle
wordnet.princeton.edu/perl/webwn
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chortle
en.wiktionary.org/wiki/chortle
espionage
www.mangrum-pi.com/glossaryOfTerms.php
postalheritage.org.uk/learning/teachers/freeresources/lastpost/glossary/
www.quantum3.co.za/CI%20Glossary.htm
as much as i want to start reading mama bear's gifts, i'm determined to finish this one.
07 October 2008
sms: replies
i'm not really a fan of forwarded messages. but, what can i do, almost everyone does that. and most of the time, specially if i'm in my thinking mode, i reply to these sms quotes.
"alam mo ba kung gano kalayo pagitan ng dalawang tao pag nagtalikuran
sila? kelangan mo pa libutin buong mundo para makaharap ulit ang taong
tinalikuran mo." - bob ong
.. but if the other person would want to face you again, you would just need travel half-way. that is if you would have the same amount of zeal to face each other again. the questions would be, how far are you willing to travel? and how far do you need to go?
mahirap sabihin ang
"i hate you"
pati din ang
"i'm sorry"
lalo naman ang
"i love you"
pero pinakamahirap sabihin ang
"iskibiratsibop iskiribapbap bloopikiribitkiribit"
kaw nga??
all of those things are easy to say.. well, aside from the last one. it's just hard to keep these words. and there are people who finds these words or statements so easy to say, that they tend to let them out of their mouth even if they don't really mean them. grrrrr!
marunong din naman ako magmahal ah.. magtiis sa mga bagay kahit
masakit. mag sorry kahit di ko naman kasalanan. magmaka-awa para di
iwanan.
pero bakit sa kabila ng lahat, ito pa rin ako..
patuloy na nasasaktan.
then i replied, which lead to a good conclusion.
barn: kasi yung mahal mo di marunong nun. or masakit man tanggapin, you don't bring those things out of him.
ang di ko alam ay kung paano mo matitigil ang sakit.
sabi nila, choice raw natin yun. kasi kung hindi, eh di tinigilan na natin.
shua: ganon talaga. di natin mababago ang tao sa pamamagitan ng gusto natin.
barn: so, ano ang dapat gawin?
shua: wala. kundi magmahal at tanggapin ang sakit. kasi ang pagmamahal, walang hihihinging kapalit. hindi porket nagbigay ka, susuklian ka. kaya nasa atin yun kung patuloy tayong magmamahal at masasaktan o ititigil natin at susuko..
barn: selfish ba kung ayaw mo nang masaktan?
shua: hindi naman. ibig sabihin, may respect ka sa sarili mo.
barn: *hugs* miss you, shua!
shua: bakit? miss you too..
barn: wala lang.. may naudlot lang kasi akong pag mo-move on.
02 October 2008
chapter two
there are a lot of reasons why i surround myself with gay men. i even fell in love with one.- they love to sing
- they can always make you smile
- they have strong perception of things that can also make you think
- most are creative and/or artistic
- their crazy antics are really crazy
- they seem to understand me and really care
- they have a strong good-looking-male radar, which gives me a chance to check out the field
i'm not really sure how this all happened, but i seem to have a lot of gay friends. and i'm really proud and cherish them. well, most i met in theater and the rest of my followed. i miss them a lot.. well, those i don't get to hang out with anymore.
-= sex and the city=-
my housemate has been watching the series every night even if he has watched it a number of times already. i get to taste it a little and found myself thinking about it at times. well, i've only seen the last few episodes of the series. it's like five to eight maybe. and he said, i can watch the movie now. they didn't recommend that i watch it since i have very little idea about what happened in the series.
i have learned a few things, laughed a little, and almost cried (almost because i stopped myself from doing so). i don't want to watch other episodes, but maybe i will if i get bored and have nothing to do.
and i found the perfect description of what i want..
I'm looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming,
can't-live-without-each-other love.
01 October 2008
sms
here's my favorite text message while waiting for the salary to reflect in our bank accounts:
" Bugtong bugtong..
ayan na
ayan na
di mo pa nakikita..
Sagot?
SAHOD!
Hehehe"
we'll i've been meaning to write those messages that i have received that reflects what and how i feel right now. but that would be too glum. i'm deleting them right now. but here's a few that i really like.
" Find someone who isn't afraid to admit that they MISS you.
Someone who knows that you're not perfect, but treats you as if you are.
Someone whose biggest fear is losing you. One who gives their heart completely.
Someone who says i love you and means it.
Last but not the least..
Find someone you wouldn't mind waking up with you in the morning, seeing your wrinkles, and your gray hair but still falls in love with you all over again.."
"Never be assured that love is enough to make someone stay or come back to you..
because when pain strikes the heart..
love fades no matter how great it was."
And there was this line in Star Cinema's Dubai, i watched it again with baboon since i stayed at their place during the whole weekend. Forgive me if i got this wrong, most probably I did.
"Alam kong dapat magpatawad. Alam kong dapat mag move on. Pero masakit pa. Kaya in time. In time."
30 September 2008
end of bliss
sometimes you think a story is over.. or maybe i just pretend that it ended. with whole honesty i have been thinking that it's not yet finished, but i'm making everyone around me believe that it is.
-= just once =-
stupidity, this is full of stupid shit:
should i give it a try? won't it be just like before? would there still be a point to make? haven't we tried already the first time?
i told myself to stop saying that i haven't tried everything.
won't i just get hurt? again?
i need consistency in what you're saying with your actions and in what you want me to feel with what you are actually doing. i need you to be sensitive with my emotions. i need you to accept me as me. i need you to make me feel that i don't need all these because that's already how you are. all because you love me, for real.
-= bitterness =-
and all that was bull shit. apparently what was said and sort of promised has turned into ashes.
the funny thing is it didn't have the decency to let me know. how the hell should i know that the words it said no longer stand?
and yes, i will get hurt. but i'm already hurting, long before, so, what difference should it make if it told me what's really happening?
the difference, it would give the will the move on.
so, why hold back? because it is selfish.
i have asked from time and again to tell me, whether it's true or not, that it's the end, but it just won't. now, that it's true, it still won't.
maybe i have learned my lesson. even though i wanted to so much, i didn't fall for the trap that i already saw.
i admit, i'm mad at it for not being honest. this should have been over a long time ago. by now, i should have been okay. and i really think that it's bull shit to hold back the truth just because you don't want that person to get hurt.
the funny thing is, it thinks that i have this "curse", that whoever harms me in any way or did something bad to me will have something bad coming. it happened to master yoga. it happened to grumpy. and it said it's happening to it. and that it deserves to die.
i don't wish people death. that's the easy way out. i sometimes wish it for myself.
i still want it to be happy, with its choices and decisions, with its life. but i wish it to have a long life. preferrably longer than mine.
i no longer want it to come back. i want it to realize its loss. i don't want it to go back because it may change after the realization and i may believe that it did change and i may be stupid enough to take it back.
nah! it's no longer coming back.. now, i wonder.. was it even here? yes. call me stupid, but i believe yes, it was here. it just left, sooner than i realized. or maybe i realized that it was gone, i just wasn't ready to accept it.
now, the story is complete. the book is closed. i'm no longer sure though if there's still paper and ink left for a new one.
28 September 2008
chapter one
-= the dreaded day =-
and it once again came to pass.. and i can't seem to remember anything significant. oh! i went home.. at long last. and of course i received a lot of text messages greeting or wishing me a happy birthday. i didn't count this year. one of my crushes greeted me, or at least extended his greeting through someone else, and he did not respond when i said, "thanks po!"
at home, i have found a lot of changes. my brothers are fatter than i last saw them. my sister was kind of the same. i hate to admit it but she seemed a little taller. we had carbonara, there was ice cream and cake. but i found out one bad thing that makes me sad until this moment. my laptop is not working! it doesn't power on. it just blinks when you recharge the battery, but not its usual blink. i don't remember it blinking when i recharge it before. my brother used the battery of his laptop with mine and said the same thing still happened so, it seemed that it's not the battery. was it because i haven't been using it for a very very long time? it's just about 10 months since i got it. haaay.. so, there's like less reason for me to go back home any time soon.
it seemed that i have celebrated before the actual date. specially the days when i still have money to spend to celebrate. like my day out with mnf. it was a blast and i really enjoyed that day. a lot. how i wish it was my birthday back then, but it's not.
-= wall-e =-
i can't tell more about my favorite parts without being in tears again. haaay..
-= delete =-
i guess, i just can't do it easily. i can't just stop. i need to stop myself. by sort of removing her from my life. yes, it's supposed to be easy since she's so far away and it's not as if she's making a way to be part of my life again, but somehow, someway, she still manages to come across my mind and bother me. mnf said this is normal. and i'm still not that much of a loser. it's okay, it's normal. eventually, all would be well. yes, maybe it would take a year, like stitch did. well, it took stitch more than a year and we were together again. it's just that king kong happened and the bitches, that's why it was sort of easy. well, now, i don't have anyone, for real, but i do have mnf and the gang and of course my job.
maybe what's really bothering me is the fact that there were words said, words that are almost promises. words that at this point are just the right things to say but as i realize now, are just shallow and nothing.
i really have to let go. i don't need to hurt anyone in the process because i'd take the punch. no more false hopes, no more what if's, no more "have i done everything?" because i know i did and i'd just get hurt if i'd go on trying.
i'm sorry for making a viscious cycle, but you didn't give me a reason to stop. and maybe you did, but then you didn't give me the chance to stop it.
maybe i wouldn't be really able to answer whenever they ask why. maybe i would just let them think what they want to think about. i guess, i would no longer care if they would blame you or me. i don't want to say, "it just didn't work out," because you never worked for it, i did.
bitterness? now, the meaning seems blurred to me. maybe. but also, maybe i'm entitled to it.
i'm known for being pessimistic and i don't need more facts to feed my pessimism. i'm back to building walls, crying underneath the laughter, and somehow wishing and hoping that someday i'll be numb from all these.
crazy wakka said, everyone desserves to be happy. and maybe i do. mnf wants me to be happy. all i need is to love and be loved.
-= gifts =-
i'm really grateful that there are still people who remembered my birthday. even if i wanted to forget it myself. thank you to those who gave me gifts. i was like a kid when i received them. i'm excited to finish the book i'm currently reading so i can start reading the bob ong books from mama bear. i was so proud to receive a tumbler from the captain. and i was really giddy and all. even if i won't be able to put coffee, or anything hot in it, it's okay. at least, i was able to put the one i was using in the locker for good. so, i'm really grateful. thanks!
-= cam =-
they're all just jokes. people to make me smile and make my heart skip a beat.
C. is for computer jester. bwahahahahahahahah! well, it was actually a long time ago. something i didn't really pursue because of bliss and some other turn offs and i was sort of afraid. but now, since bliss is gone, actually, so is he, a few "hehehe" and "adik" moments from him doesn't hurt.
A. is for experiment 280 cross with experiment 576. bwahahahahaha! mnf used to like him but he has this flaw. which still holds me back. i found one reason to believe mnf, and i'm looking for two more. i need something that he would show me, personally. not something i would analyze and think of. like the first reason he gave me. but i seem to have countless reasons to prove otherwise. i don't want another stitch. because stitch is stitch. and i would want him to accept who he really is.
M. is for oogway. :) he was the first breath of fresh air. and it may seem that nothing really followed, everyday seemed to be easier. i know there's nothing more to this. for all of them actually. but sometimes it doesn't hurt to smile.
there's really nothing much i can do here. maybe because i'm a girl. the answer maybe none of the above, but now, they help me get through the day.
-= good bye, king kong =-
he's leaving. i don't want to ask why. i don't want to ask where he's going. it's his last week. i guess i would forget. he said that i did. actually his words were, "ikaw lang naman ang nakalimot satin eh." i needed to. because of bliss. and even if that's over, i don't want to go back. i never get to write the letter i meant to write for him, even if just for here. i guess that's alright. i would just want him to be happy and be faithful and contented. maybe he is now. and i'm really happy for him. thank you for all the memories. they may be forgotten, but they were surely cherished. even for just a time.
-= on my own =-
song of my life
And now I'm all alone again,
No where to turn, no one to go to
Without a hope, without a friend, Without a face to say hello to
but now the night is near,
and I can make believe he's here.
Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping
I think of him and then I'm happy
With the company I'm keeping
The city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head.
On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone, I walk with him till morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me
In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me for ever and forever
And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us
I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone, the river's just a river
Without him the world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers
I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me his world will go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known!
I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own.
15 September 2008
deadlines
i'm not sure when i've started living with deadlines. maybe it's something i picked up in school, in doing projects and all that $h!+..
then, i started working and deadlines meant money.
but then i realized, (well, actually someone pointed it out and told me that it's a good thing) that i have been using deadlines in my personal and everyday life..
deadline in waking up.. in finishing a book.. in talking to someone.. in sending a text message.. in moving on..
now, i'm giving "us" until my birthday (in manila time).. then, it's again another deadline.
13 September 2008
my birthday wish list
here's the top 10 things i want for my birthday (in no particular order)
1. cute bag for my laptop - or just a cute jacket for it, then i can put it inside my big bag.. hehehehe! - Dimensions of my laptop: HxWxD (32mm/1.26"x 337/13.27"x 238mm/9.37")
2. digital camera - i don't know what specs i would like. i like ate faith's camera. it's a cannon, i think. i want lcd at the back. and other features. hehehehe! i also like the camera we saw during the eraserheads' reunion concert, all his shots were the best. i wasn't able to see what brand of camera he was using though.
3. confirmation - i know this would be too soon. and would be so close to impossible to. but then, i want to be confirmed as early as now, because it's my birthday, but it can go as late as november. hehehe!
4. books - well, i don't have a list right now. but i sure want books to read. good novels. bob ong books would be good. i've read a lot but i don't own any.
5. new bag - i've worn out the bag dandy gave me. i want something small that the guard would allow me to bring inside the office. but still would fit my things, well, it's just my wallet and cell phone, a rarely used comb, perfume that will be used more often by the 23rd and my cell phone charger. and trash.. bwahahahah!
6. starbucks tumbler - i received 2 starbuck tumblers during my birthday back in 2004, i think. from my officemates in artistic expressions. i kept both because i was using one at home and the other one in the office. i lost one here in sykes and managed to break the other one. i'm currently using my ex's and i want to return it back or at least put it in storage together with the other things she owns that are still with me. i don't need a very big one, a very small one would be of no use because i would need to go back and forth to the pantry to get coffee. of course, i want a cute design!
7. tickets - to movies, concerts and plays. hopefulle they're scheduled on a weekend so i would not need to file for a leave or even if it's on a weekday it should be during the broad daylight. sleep doesn't matter for me anyway. i want to see a lot of movies and concerts and plays. trying to add more art in my life. bwahahaha! i missed cinderella and a lot of movies and i want to watch more concerts, but maybe less than movies and plays.
8. dvds of complete tv series - the list would be endless, but i would love to have the complete season copies of the following series: ally mc beal, grey's anatomy, ouran high school host club (subtitled, of course), fruits basket (hopefully, dubbed in english, but englist subtitles would do), detective conan (again, subtitled), and whatever tv series that friends of mine would think i would enjoy.
9. movie dvds - your pick if it would be original or just pirated, but hopefully it's a clear great copy with special features. i love special features. hahahaha! the list for this would be much longer and i don't want to write samples. because i can't pick what i would want best. maybe julia robets', natalie portman's, johnny depp's and jude law's movies and great animations.
10. original music cds - the latest by parokya ni edgar matira matibay and solid, or their Christmas album, Jingle All the Way, the sound track of Rent, the sound track of 50 first dates, made of honor, runaway bride, and other romantic comedy flicks. Obviously, I love sound tracks and pne. And any other artist you might think would be good for me to listen to and hear.
... hmmm.. this list lacks something.. or someone.. but i know he won't be here on that day, even if just a greeting from him would do. haaay... *smitten*
09 September 2008
prologue
this is to be discussed on a longer amount of time on hand. this is to be discussed with a much saner mind. but reading my old posts, back when i was all alone, or so i thought, i need to right about this.. my current state.
how am i doing? really..
i'm alone again. lonely, yes. but that's fine right? because i'm alone.
i still can smile. i can't laugh, for real, but i can smile. that's enough.
i know that there's an offer to be no longer alone, but is that the door to leave sadness as well.. maybe not.
i want my thoughts to be sorted out. i want to be able to decide and stand by them. my head aches, and i blame the physical aspects. but my chest aches too. i remember to have felt emotional pain that is so great that it's almost physical. now, i can't tell the difference.
all i need is to be loved. i have felt it. and i also felt it drift away.
i know i am the problem. or am i really? i just haven't found that one who would love me for me, inspite of me..
maybe bliss now realizes this. or maybe not. i guess, there's no telling what. until i take the plunge.
am i ready to fall flat on my face again? or should i just let it pass by?
procrastinating
i had a really bad day at the office today..
hate rain..
and i'm still not going home.. but i'm not doing any work..
just waiting for flor.
i don't know what to do when i get home. i need to do the laundry.. then, what.. i know i won't get a good sleep anyway. i might just read, or go back here.. then, sleep?
sh!+
i'm back to being the grumpy old me. someone who can't express herself but has all the emotions to back it up. tsk!
26 August 2008
kung fu panda
most of jack black's movies give me the tendency to think that it's corny. well, this is not really his movie because this is an animation. i wanted to watch this movie but had hessitations.
kuya pat downloaded this movie and we had a lot of fun watching it! and since i am a self declared panda, i really enjoyed the movie!
Oogway:
There are no accidents.
[last lines]
Po:
You wanna get somethin' to eat?
Shifu:
[sighing] ... Yeah.
Po:
[serving a noodle bowl to a customer into which he accidentally pitched a throwing star] Careful, that soup is... sharp!
Po:
Skadoosh!
Po:
There is no charge for awesomeness... or attractiveness.
Tai Lung:
You... you're just a big... fat... panda!
Po:
I'm not a big fat panda. I'm *the* big fat panda.
Tai Lung:
The Wuxi finger hold!
Po:
Oh, you know this hold?
Tai Lung:
You're bluffing. You're bluffing! Shifu didn't teach you that.
Po:
Nope. I figured it out. Skadoosh!
Oogway:
Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the present.
[first lines]
Po:
Legend tells of a legendary warrior whose kung fu skills were the stuff of legend.
Po:
It is said that his enemies would go blind from over-exposure to pure awesomeness!
Mr. Ping:
We are noodle folk. Broth runs through our veins.
Tigress:
It is said that the Dragon Warrior can go for months without eating, surviving on the dew of a single ginko leaf and the energy of the universe.
Po:
Then I guess my body doesn't know I'm the Dragon Warrior yet. It's gonna take a lot more than dew, and, uh, universe juice.
Tigress:
[seeing Po bounce down the palace steps] If he's smart, he won't come back up those steps.
Monkey:
But he will.
Viper:
He's not gonna quit, is he?
Mantis:
He's not gonna quit bouncing, I'll tell you that.
Tigress:
One would think that Master Oogway would choose someone who actually knew kung fu.
Crane:
Yeah, or could at least touch his toes.
Monkey:
Or even see his toes.
Po:
The Furious Five! You look a lot bigger than your action figures! Except you, Mantis. You're about the same.
Po:
The Sword of Heroes! Said to be so sharp you can get cut just by looking at - Ow!
Viper:
Are you ready?
Po:
I was born read...
[Viper attacks, Po is flung and lands on his head]
Viper:
I'm sorry, Brother! I thought you said you were ready.
Po:
That was awesome! Let's go again!
Shifu:
Po, you're alive... or we're both dead.
Mantis:
Sorry, it's just hard to find the right nerve centers under all this...
Po:
Fat?
Mantis:
Fur. I was gonna say fur.
Po:
Sure you were.
Tai Lung:
But he's a panda!
[incredulous]
Tai Lung:
You're a panda!
Shifu:
One must first master the highest level of kung fu, and that is clearly impossible if that one is someone like you.
Po:
Someone like me?
Shifu:
Yes! Look at you! This fat butt-
[he whacks Po on his butt]
Po:
Aah!
Shifu:
..Flabby arms-
[he hits Po on his arm]
Po:
Those are sensitive in the flabby parts...
Shifu:
And this ridiculous belly!
Po:
Hey!
Shifu:
And your utter disregard for personal hygiene!
Po:
Now wait a minute, that was a little uncalled for-
Shifu:
Don't stand that close, I can smell your breath.
Po:
Listen, Oogway said that I was-
[Shifu grabs his finger and he gasps]
Po:
The Wuxi finger hold? No no, the Wuxi finger hold!
Shifu:
Oh-hoho, you know this hold?
Po:
Developed by Master Wuxi in the 3rd dynasty, yes!
Shifu:
Oh, then you must know what happens when I flex my pinkie?
Po:
[gasps] No no no no!
Shifu:
You know the hardest part of this? The hardest part is cleaning up afterwards.
[chuckles]
Po:
Okay.. Okay take it easy..
[Po falls to his knees]
Shifu:
Now listen closely, panda. Oogway may have picked you, but when I'm through, I promise you, you're going to wish he hadn't! Are we clear?
Po:
Oh, yeah! We're clear, we're clear, we're so clear!
Shifu:
Good.
[chuckles]
Shifu:
I can't wait to get started.
Oogway:
[walking towards Po] Ah! I see that you have found the Sacred Peach Tree of Heavenly Wisdom!
Po:
[Po turns around with a lot of peaches stuffed in his mouth] Oh! Is that what this is? I'm so sorry! I just thought it was a regular peach tree!
Zeng:
[watching Tai-Lung break out of his prison restraints] We're dead. So very, very dead.
Tai Lung:
What are you going to do, big guy? Sit on me?
Po:
Don't tempt me.
Po:
I just ate, so I'm still digesting, so my kung fu may not be as good as later on.
Shifu:
Believe me, citizens, you have not seen anything yet!
Po:
I know!
Shifu:
[intercepting Po, who is fleeing the temple after learning he has to face Tai Lung soon.] You cannot leave! A real warrior never quits!
Po:
Watch me!
[tries to run around Shifu]
Po:
Come on! How am I supposed to beat Tai Lung? I can't even beat you to the stairs!
Shifu:
You will beat him because you are the Dragon Warrior!
[pokes Po in his stomach]
Po:
You don't believe that!
[Shifu swipes at his hand with Oogway's stick]
Po:
You never believed that! From the first moment I got here, you've been trying to get rid of me!
[Shifu knocks him to the ground]
Shifu:
Yes! I was! But now I ask you to trust in your master as I have come to trust in mine.
Po:
You're not my master. And I'm not the Dragon Warrior.
Shifu:
Then why didn't you quit? You knew I was trying to get rid of you, yet you stayed!
Po:
Yeah, I stayed. I stayed because everytime you threw a brick at my head or said I smelled; it hurt, but it could never hurt more than everyday of my life just being me. I stayed because I thought if anyone can change me, can make me not me, it was you! The greatest kung fu teacher in all of China!
Shifu:
I can change you! I can turn you into the Dragon Warrior! And I will!
Po:
Come on! Tai Lung is on his way here right now! And even if it takes him a hundred years to get here, how are *you* gonna change *this* into the Dragon Warrior? Huh? How? How? How!
Shifu:
I don't know!
[sighs]
Shifu:
I don't know.
Po:
[sighs and frowns sadly] That's what I thought.
Shifu:
But who? Who is worthy to be trusted with the secret to limitless power? To become the Dragon Warrior?
Oogway:
I don't know.
Po:
No! The Legendary Urn of Whispering Warriors; said to contain the souls of the entire Tenshu Army!
Po:
[whispering to the urn] Hello?
Shifu:
[from behind Po] Have you finished sight-seeing?
Po:
[stunned, thinking the voice had come from the urn] Sorry, I should've come to see you first.
Shifu:
My patience is wearing thin.
Po:
Oh, well, I mean it's not like you were going anywhere.
Shifu:
Our only hope is the Dragon Warrior.
Tigress:
The panda?
Shifu:
Yes, the panda!
Tigress:
Master, please!
[pushes chair out]
Tigress:
Let us stop Tai Lung, this is what you've trained us for!
Shifu:
No! It is not your destiny to defeat Tai Lung, it is his!
[points at Po, then realizes he's not there]
Shifu:
Where'd he go?
Oogway:
One often meets his destiny on the road he takes to avoid it.
Shifu:
When you focus on kung fu, when you concentrate, you stink.
[Po frowns]
Shifu:
But perhaps that is my fault. I cannot train you the way I have trained the Five. I now see that the way to get through to you is with this.
[pulls out a bowl of dumplings]
Po:
Oh great, 'cause I am hungry!
Shifu:
[laughs] Good. When you have been trained, you may eat. Let's begin.
Tigress:
Shifu loved Tai Lung like he had never loved anyone before... or since. And now, he has a chance to make things right. To train the true Dragon Warrior. And he's stuck with you, a big, fat panda who treats it like a joke.
[Po makes a sudden funny face and Tigress gets angry and attempts to smack him]
Tigress:
Oh that is it!
Mantis:
Wait, my fault! I accidentally tweaked his facial nerve!
[Po falls to the ground revealing a lot of needles in his back]
Mantis:
And may have also stopped his heart.
Po:
[looking around at the historical artifacts in the palace] Wow! I've only seen paintings of that painting!
Tai Lung:
I have come home, master.
Shifu:
This is no longer your home and I am no longer your master.
Tai Lung:
Oh yes. You have a new favorite. So where is this Po?
[chuckles]
Tai Lung:
Did I scare him off?
Shifu:
This battle is between you and me.
Tai Lung:
So, that is how it's going to be.
Shifu:
That is how it must be.
Tai Lung:
[growls] I rotted in jail for 20 years because of *your* weakness!
Shifu:
Obeying your master is not weakness!
Tai Lung:
You knew I was the Dragon Warrior! You always knew! But when Oogway said otherwise, what did you do? What did you do? Nothing!
Shifu:
You were not meant to be the Dragon Warrior, that was not my fault!
Tai Lung:
Not your fault? Who filled my head with dreams? Who drove me to train until my bones cracked? Who did I feed my destiny!
Shifu:
It was never my decision to make!
Tai Lung:
[snarls and holds up Oogway's stick] It is now.
Po:
Maybe I should just quit and go back to selling noodles.
Oogway:
Quit, don't quit? Noodles, don't noodles?
Po:
[breathing heavily] I know you're trying to be all mystical and Kung Fu-ey, but could you tell me where we're going?
Po:
[after being hit in the crotch] Oh! My tenders!
Po:
[checking to make sure Shifu is okay after his fight with Tai Lung] Master! Shifu! Shifu, are you okay?
Shifu:
[coughs] Po, you're alive. Or we're both dead.
Po:
No, Master I didn't die. I defeated Tai Lung.
Shifu:
You did?
[Po nods and smiles]
Shifu:
Wow. It is as Oogway foretold, you are the Dragon Warrior. You have brought peace to this valley and... and to me. Thank you, thank you Po. Thank you, thank you.
[slowly lays his head back down, assumingly dead]
Po:
[Po looks disbelievingly at the red panda] No! No no no, don't die, Shifu please!
Shifu:
I'm not dying, you idiot!
[he catches himself]
Shifu:
Ah, Dragon Warrior, I am simply at peace.
[lays down and folds his hands together, smiling]
Shifu:
Finally.
Po:
Ooh, so um, I should.. stop talking?
Shifu:
If you can.
Shifu:
[after having dragged Po up the mountain and said Panda is trying to cool down.] Panda, we do not wash our pits in the Pool of Sacred Tears.
Po:
[quickly shakes his hand off] The Pool of-?
Shifu:
This is where Oogway unraveled the mysteries of harmony and focus. This is the birth place of kung fu.
[Po is shocked, and it shows a glimpse of Oogway before Shifu jumps up to a giant rock]
Shifu:
Do you want to learn kung fu?
Po:
Yah!
Shifu:
Then I *am* your master!
Po:
Okay!
[sniffles]
Shifu:
Don't cry.
Po:
Okay.
[wipes his nose and smiles]
Po:
[standing before a training dummy] Hey, what you got? You got nothing because I got it right here. You picking on my friends? Get ready to feel the thunder. Come out with the crazy feet. What you goin' to do about the crazy feet. I'm a blur! I'm a blur! You never seen *Bear* style!
Monkey:
[after the Furious Five bowed to Po in his dream] We should hang out.
Po:
Agreed.
Mr. Ping:
The secret ingredient is ... nothing!
Po:
Huh?
Mr. Ping:
You heard me. Nothing! There is no secret ingredient.
Po:
Wait, wait ... it's just plain old noodle soup? You don't add some kind of special sauce or something?
Mr. Ping:
Don't have to. To make something special you just have to believe it's special.
Po:
There is no secret ingredient ...
Mr. Ping:
[after Po told him he had dream about noodle] This is a sign, Po!
Po:
Uh, a sign of what?
Mr. Ping:
You are almost ready to be entrusted with the secret ingredient of my secret ingredient soup. And then you will fulfill your destiny and take over the restaurant just as I took it over from my father who took it over from his father who won it from a friend in a game of mahjong.
