false hopes?!?

ok.. so what now? it didn't seem to me that anything has changed. i can't help but live up with my motto..

i'm again trying to fight back tears..

is it my fault again?

haaay..

i'm sorry

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now what?!?

i just can't help but live my motto... haay...
this would be the last straw... i just don't want to get overjoyed all over again..

haay...

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to cry or not to..

these passed few days i've been telling people that almost all the aspects of my life are in ruins.

it's much easier to breakdown and cry than put up an emotionless face that would be the norm.

it's much easier to cry but it's as if the tears are tears too painful to endure and to release.

i have been welling them up but not really pouring it out.

it's very hard to have no one to talk to.. no one to pour out your heart to.. but what i'm doing now is much more difficult.. letting it out only through the finger tips.

i want to go on and type away but i also want to stop, because it's already getting harder and harder to breathe..


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