it has been quite sometime since i took a quizzilla so here..
Your so cute anyone would think your cute. Even the
grown ups:) Probaly any boy would run up to you
with flowers and cute stuffed animals like
you;) Just look at you. Your adorable:)
What Type Of Girl Are You???(Amazing Pics)
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we were assigned to create a jazz chant..
inspired by..
Don't Touch My Birdie
Parokya ni Edgar
Kapag ako'y nababato
Pinaglalaruan ko ang birdie ko
Ang cute-cute naman kasi
Kaya ko siya binili
My birdie is my best friend
Ang dami naming maliligayang sandali
Madalas ko siyang pinapakain ng birdseed
Mahal kita o birdie ko, 'wag kang lalayo
Don't touch my birdie!
Resist temptation please!
You don't have to grab my birdie
Just call it, and it will come!
Ang birdie ko ay nakakatuwa
Parang cobra na mahilig mantuka
Kapag nilabas na sa kulungan
Tuluy-tuloy na ang aming kasiyahan
'Di naman ako madamot talaga
Ayaw ko lang na hinahawakan siya ng iba!
Ang birdie ko ay medyo masungit
Konting hawak lang siguradong magagalit!
Huwag ka sanang magalit sa akin
Tuwing ang birdie ko ay aking hihimasin
Sana'y maunawaan mo
Mahal na mahal ko ang birdie ko
pati mga itlog nito!
so, here's our jazz chant..
We have a pet
He is a bird
We love to call him birdie, birdie, birdie
We love to touch our birdie, birdie, birdie
And another pet
She is a cat
We love to call her pussy, pussy, pussy
We love to feed our pussy, pussy, pussy
And then one day when we woke up
We saw our birdy dead
Pussy ate birdy
poor birdy, poor birdy
winner!
much again has happened and though a little late and a few understandable typo errors, beng have this very refreshing theory.
Thanks, beng! aylabsyah!
ANOTHER OF BHENGS THEORY (sfx :mad laughter pls and thunder!!)
Message: we all think and accepted the fact that people
make mistakes,,, and before i used to tell my
self that in order to survive the dangerous and
mossy jungle of human relationship, one must
learn to admit that sometimes we are the
mistakes that people who became dear to us
commit.and it takes gutts to admit that in you
hangs a placard that tells the whole world that
hey world!! i am his/her mistake!!! crucify me!!
but now i defy that former theory of mine,,,
this time i came to realize that we actually do
not commit mistakes.. the term mistake and if i
may suggest thenn i consider it politically
wrong... hehehe... kidding aside... we dont make
mistakes,,, we make choices... again i say not
mistakes... the term mistake is determined
whether by set of standards rules and anwer
keys,,, but come to think of it.. in life there
are no definite standards on how to one is
supposed to be running his/her life. wat hurts
us and what makes us sad or makes us feel
uncomfortable and anything in between makes us
think that its because of that mistake,,. but
no... its called consequences, end result end
product that one must have to face. why? because
its a choice that you made maybe alone or with
another... but never a mistake... its a choice.
so why burden yourself thinking about mistakes
that would eventually eat you and consume you?
and why did we ever thought of that?? hehehhe
anyone whose braincells and neurons agree with me
or anyone was led astray by this feel free to
send me a message or post something that would
either atest or defy this. warning..this just one
of my few and occassional theories.. and lets all
be guiged,, ladies and gentlemen... that theories
reamin to be true until proven wrong... ciao!!!
from Ms. Dannie-Bie D. Beltran
Here are the things about the movie that is so noteworthy.. hehehe!
My Place
Nelly
[Nelly]
I used to pride myself on being the other man
But now it's flipped and I don't want you with no other man
Why can't you understand anything I'm offering
I gave you the world, but you just wanted arguing
>From the time I picked you up, until the time I dropped you off again
Even if flipped out on at the mall again
"It's all his fault again" that's what you tellin all ya friends
I ain't pointing fingers ma, i just wanna call again
See how ya day going I know they stressin on ya
I know them times get hard that's why I'm checkin on ya
It's yours truly ma, I got little message for ya
Anything he can do, girl I can do better for ya
Cause
Hook: [Nelly]
When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever
Chorus: [Jaheim]
Won't you come on and go with me (oh girl)
Come on over to my place
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat
and let me ease ya mind girl
We gon do it our way (our way)
[Nelly]
I heard your friend tell a friend that told a friend of mine
That you was thinking that we should do it one more time
If this ain't the truth then hopefully it's not a lie
Cause I ain't got no issue with hitting that another time
We never had a problem with gettin it done
Disagreed upon a lot ma, but sex wouldn't one
Now check it I know you get excited when I come around and bite it
Quit frownin up and quit actin like you don't like it
I like it (I know you like), I like it (You really like it), I really, really like it,
I want it (You really want it), adore it (adore it), so come with me enjoy it
Hook: [Nelly]
When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever
Chorus: [Jaheim]
Won't you come on and go with me (oh girl)
Come on over to my place
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat
and let me ease ya mind girl
We gon do it our way (our way)
Bridge: [Nelly]
Shawty where you been
Feels like a long time, long long time since I seen ya
Yes it has girl, and I know I said some dumb things to you before
But girl you know I didn't mean it
I didn't mean one single word
I never meant one single word
If I could take back every word I would and more fa sho
If I thought that you believe it
Cause you make my life so convinient for me
Hook: [Nelly]
When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever
Chorus: [Jaheim]
Won't you come on and go with me (oh girl)
Come on over to my place
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat
and let me ease ya mind girl
We gon do it our way (our way)
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Without You
Charlie Wilson
Without you
Mmm...hmm...
It feels like a lifetime,
A thousand days have passed by
Since I held you close to me
If I could see that smile from my friend
I know that I could live again
I need you here with me
Heaven knows what to say
Even though for right
Nw you're so far away
I hope and I pray
Somewhere in your heart I'll always stay
Girl, lately my sun doesn't shine without you
Never noticed what it feels like to be without you
Feels like I took my last step
And my last breath in my life ending
Had to say just what I was feeling, girl
'Cause my sun doesn't shine,
Sun doesn't shine without you
This is more for me than for you
Girl, I finally see there's no substitute
For what we have
Do you know how much I love you
Heaven knows what to say
Even though for right now you're so far away
Gonna tell you and show you
Do whatever I can do to get back to you
Sunday Morning
Maroon 5
Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
That someday it would lead me back to you
That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave
Fingers trace your every outline
Paint a picture with my hands
Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm
Change the weather still together when it ends
That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And I never want to leave
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
Sunday morning rain is falling and I'm calling out to you
Singing someday it'll bring me back to you
Find a way to bring myself back home to you
And you may not know
That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow?
nothing much to do.. i don't want to sleep although i know i would be needing this for later..
i just had a look at the things i won't be able to get.. i had them maybe once but i wasn't aware i have them.. waah! i can't keep my line of thought straight.. wait.
ehem..
for first crush..
i hate you! for making me fall all over again and there.. leaving me hanging.. i sometimes wish i never saw you again. hoping i never had to feel it all over again. i was fine, i was okay. don't worry, i'm not miserable as you hoped me to be. i'm ok. i was okay even if i didn't know that you had a crush on me as well. waah! i hate you!
I hate the way you talk to me. And the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare I hate your big dumb combat boots. And the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick-- it even makes me rhyme. I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh -- even worse when you make me cry. I hate it that you're not around. And the fact that you didnt call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you - - not even close, not even a little bit, not any at all.
for the supposedly perfect guy for me..
i know it takes two to tango. i know it's not entirely your fault. i know i have a big part played in messing things up. maybe this is the way of torturing myself. or for me to learn my lesson. but no.. it's just that i can bring what was there before. no doubt what we had was sincere. i didn't cheat in whatever way. you didn't either. but i'm sorry.. i'm so sorry. you probably know how much misery i'm in right now and that with you i'll be spared from all these, but it would be unfair, it would be cheating on you and on myself. i can't even bring myself into saying "maybe someday" because no. i don't think there even will be someday.. i'm sorry. sorry for what we had and what we could've had or still have. being sorry is all i can be.
for the guy i loved.. and maybe still do..
there are many things that can make me hate you but i'm not sure why i can't bring myself to hate you that much to forget or erase my feelings and/or affection for you. there are a lot of things i don't know about you. i'm not sure if i just don't ask or if you just won't tell me. i'm here for you, that's all. i know at what point when things start to go wrong. it was so hard for me. i was so hurt but loving you didn't stop there. i'm sorry for all the wrong things i may have done that just brought you to the stand that getting back together will never happen again. i want to let go. i want to move on. maybe i have because now i can say that indeed getting back together will never happen. a glint of hope maybe i have but i'm almost sure that it will never happen. but i can't stop caring for you because you have been indeed so special. i want to thank you for the memories but please stop holding me back. you will always be special, in my heart.. always.
Until you release me I'm bound
Under ball and chain
Reminiscing our love as I watch
Four seasons' change
This loneliness
Has crushed my heart
Please let me love again
for my crush..
hi! thanks for diverting my heart from all the things i've been trying to avoid all these time.. i know there's no promise, there's even no hope, but thanks for making me smile.. making my heart stop for a while.. thanks for all the small things that i think doesn't really matter.. i still don't know what i want, i just want to enjoy the present feeling you bring me but something more? i don't know. i'm afraid to get to know you, i'm afraid to get close.. at the same time wishing this would happen, but then again maybe no. so there, thanks!
for the only one left..
where are you? my phone number with you is no longer existing. i know you greeted me for my birthday. you changed your phone number as well and i don't know what it is anymore. i miss you.. you're my only hope. haaay.. where are you?
i know it was just a joke.. it's nothing to take seriously or personally but then again i was affected. in fact, gravely affected that i don't want to think about it when i can't stop but think about that silly story.. a fictional thing that has a very high of possibility coming true.. waah!
then they told me.. this is different since i'm now affected.. waah!
waaah!
i fought the urge to go to the battle field today. i guess it would just be time for me to rest.
when will i come back? i don't know..
am i being afraid to face the war at hand? or am i just too sick and tired of all the hustle and bustle it brings?
the emotional turmoil it brings me as soon as i retreat to my camp is just so great that the wounds are nothing.
freaked out!
Le Freak
Chic
Ah, freak out
Le freak, c’est chic
Freak out
Ah, freak out
Le freak, c’est chic
Freak out
Have you heard about the new dance craze
Listen to us, I’m sure you’ll be amazed
Big fun to be had by everyone
It’s up to you, it surely can be done
Young and old are doing it, I’m told
Just one try, and you too will be sold
It’s called Le Freak, they’re doing it night and day
Allow us, we’ll show you the way
Ah, freak out
Le freak, c’est chic
Freak out
All that pressure got you down
Has your head spinning all around
Feel the rhythm, check the ride
Come on along and have a real good time
Like the days of stomping at the Savoy
Now we freak, oh what a joy
Just come on down, two fifty four
Find a spot out on the floor
Ah, freak out
Le freak, c’est chic
Freak out
Now freak
I said freak
Now freak
All that pressure got you down
Has your head spinning all around
Feel the rhythm, check the ride
Come on along and have a real good time
Like the days of stomping at the Savoy
Now we freak, oh what a joy
Just come on down, two fifty four
Find a spot out on the floor
Ah, freak out
Le freak, c’est chic
Freak out
Ah, freak out
Le freak, c’est chic
Freak out
woohoo!
ayoko na!!
para na akong tanga!
sobrang affected ng mga simpleng bagay na walang kwenta!!
waaaah!!
i'm good at messing things up..
i'm capable of turning myself invisible.. even during the times i don't want to.
i can't stop but wonder why or how things are the way they are..
i want to cry but i can't because no one would be wiping them away..
i want to shout but i can't because no one would hear them anyway.
i wonder why i feel this way when everyone around me expects me to be happy.. my birhday season has got to stop. it has to stop!
for me to forget the wretched day i was born, for people to stop wishing me a happy one and when they ask how it went, i can't answer straight because i never really had one.
i'm not the grinch nor oscar the grouch, though i love color green, i'm just seeing things as they are.
expect the worst but don't expect
the way how i will always see life.
behind the laughter and the smiles are tears falling with no one to wipe them dry..
i guess i'll never learn, loving people and giving them your all and in the end they never really loved you in the first place.
it hurts.. it will always hurt..
waah..
just had a very emotional day and i think the next one will be too.. if not worse..
emotional at some point that i got so happy, so mad, so sad..
haaay..
life.. in a few more days i'll turn twenty and there are things in my life that i'm so happy about. i know there are times when i don't really appreciate them or that i don't give them much credit but then as i go and think about it life wouldn't have been complete.. i know it's too much to say that my life is already complete, wtf, there are a lot of things i don't have.. but then you know that sense of wholeness that you feel everytime you think about those certain bits and peices of your life that you just can't help but stop and smile.
it just hurts and pains me that you can't really turn back time. that there are things you wish undone but there's nothing you can do.. time already took it and it will never come back. there are things i want to fix.. but i know i just can't. i would have to live with it. sometimes i ask, now that i'm already steady and has already accepted the things i could not change, do i really want to go back and change all that happened. it's just that my brain can't stop from working hyper drive and think of a million what if's and if only's. at least i have a clear view of the things i want to get back on and things i'd rather leave behind.. well, except for one thing that still baffles me and still gives me the shivers and second thoughts about things.
it has been so long since the last time i felt this way.. it just seems i've totally forgotten about it already..
i'm like a little girl with a crush.. well, basically it seems i am!
waaah!
it has been so long.. that's all i can say. it's like i never felt this before but definitely i've been there done that and more.. but.. i don't know..
maybe this comes with the quarter life crisis..
wow.. in a few weeks my life calendar will turn and i have no idea what's in store for me..
scary..
hah!
why is it called second coming of age when now i feel that i don't know anything.. i don't know how to react, how to go about things.. it's like any moment i would be making a big fool out of myself.. more scary stuff..
there are already things i don't want to get ruined and there are things that i can't help but anticipate (mind you, they're the worst things)
afraid? a little.. or maybe a little more than just a little but not much.
it's weird to have this feeling back.. well, it's just assurance that bygones are already indeed bygones..
my officemate announced what the top10 is for today..
she said..
what will you say to the love of your life before he/she marries
somebody else (eventually we realized it was the other way around,
eniweiz..)
when i heard the question..
mga mareng, hindi kinaya ng lola nyo..
after seeing The Notebook and everything i've been through...
waah!!
hindi ko napigilang maluha.. well, naagapan before actually pumatak
ang mga luha..
sobrang babaw rin kasi talaga ng luha ko.. pero yun nga.. these things
really get the best of me..
so, if i were asked the question.. isa lang...
wala.. dahil hindi ko kakayanin... waaaah!!
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ok, so things were not as worse at it turned out to be. much time has passed and it has been a joke now. so, bygones!
huh.. present..
how i always want to just float out of time and watch it pass by.. haay..
my birthday's coming up and this early i know i won't be having much fun..
haay..
life sucks and i'm not sure if i've reached the bottom yet..
my life seems to be a bottomless pit.. it brings me deeper and deeper into depression! waaah!!!
depression? whatever!!
but now, i have a thirst for watching theater plays. woohoo! this thirst was quenched last week when my brother and I watched Dulaang UP's production of Tatarin. Asteeg! I could just dream of being in such production. waaaahh! There I've said it and with it comes the curse of it never ever coming true. I guess I'll forever be among the people who claps, and not one of those who bows. Well, at least in not in a super duper play. Because I have, of course, had my share of very few productions.
If you love a song, love it enough for it to accompany you throughout the different stages of your life, then any specific memory is rubbed away by use.
My previous entries were just lyrics of songs.. songs I like.. trigging not memories but emotions. Stuff I wanted to write about but don't have the gutts to. Why? Because again of the monster inside my head. One day I'll find time in explaining those songs because they do have meaning to me.. not memories, but meaning. My friend was able to make a CD for me with the songs I listed down for her. I wrote 30+ but of course she was only able to include 19 or 18. Maybe I'll start now with my favorite lines.
My Immortal - Evanescence
There's just too much that time cannot erase
The Reason - Hoobastank
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
Breakdown - Mariah Carey
Do you hold on in vain
As they just slip away
Rainbow - South Border
Sometimes we never could understand
Why some things begin then just end
Torn - Natalie Imbruglia
I should've seen just what was there and not some holy light
This Love - Maroon 5
I'll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings
If You're Not the One - Daniel Bedingfield
I hope I love you all my life
Lately - Stevie Wonder
But what I really feel my eyes won’t let me hide
i don't know why this is happenning? or is it that it just so happen that whenever i'm angry or mad i would be able to come accross this blog site or will think of writing an entry here.
i'm not sure i know anyone who knows this blog site exists.. well, for those who know me personally that's why i can record all my hates.. although, i'm not also sure if keeping a record of your hateful feelings are good.
i just want to sleep.. well, this has nothing to do with how i feel emotionally but then again.. it sort of adds to it.. a little.
i hate him. well, i don't. i hate him because i don't hate him. i know this sounds pathetic.. but i'm the drama princess. i have every right to pour out my emotions.
so there, i hate him and it's all because for a fact i know that he knows that i like him and yet there he goes making me follow him around.. emotionally speaking. of course i have no means of physically doing such, but still it sort of feels the same.
i don't know what i would want or like but the thing is he should at least be considerate enough and all. one already knows if one is capable of loving someone, so if the answer is no, one should atleast have the decency to let that someone know, right? it's not about hurting someone else's feelings.. one would be able to hurt that person anyway, sooner or later one will. it's also not about keeping friends, because we all know there will never be pure friendship if one feels more than the other. you can't say you don't want the person to go away because that person is your friend, specially if the other one thinks more of you than just friends, that would be using the person to your advantage. in a way or another there are things that you can't let go of in that person. and if that's not love for that person then that must be something else.. most of the time it's ego boosting or just plain taking advantage of that person's weakness, you.
i hate it. i totally hate it. i don't know why i got myself in this position or if ever i have been in this before, have i?
i don't have much strength left to think about it.
but as far as my mind can process i can't think of such an incident. because i think all of them became close to me because they have other things in mind and that's not just friendship. yes, all five guys.
i know he once admitted that he likes me but less than 24 hours after he took it back because we haven't met yet or the akwardness is unbearable. i'm in a situation i've never been before. there are things i want to do. there are things i want to say but all of these things could make or break it. can i risk the chance of losing him? well, i don't want to ask if i want to lose this feeling, because yes, i do, but i don't want losing him in the process as well.
This sucks.. this sucks big time!
waaah!!
Lilo: Oh good! My dog found the chainsaw!
Lilo: Our family's little now, and we don't have many toys... But if you want, you could be a part of it. You could be our baby, and we'd raise you to be good.
Lilo: Don't worry. She likes your butt and fancy hair. I know. I read her diary.
Lilo: You know, you wreck everything you touch. Why don't you try and make something for a change?
i know it's wrong to lead someone on. would you think it's unfair? don't worry, i won't blame others when they start to hate me because of this.
so, why do i continue to do this? well, it was just a one time thing and i think it would be the last. well, i sure hope so. i half like and half hate the feeling..
bad trip.. i know he won't understand or maybe he also do.
am i expanding my options or am i just taking advantage of the situation?
waaah!
i'm not confused. i still know what i want. but to explain my actions i don't know.
this is starting to be a hate blog.
well, if things won't turn out right in the near future i think most of the entries here will be about hate.
my head is already aching.. a lot! and not because of whatever reason, it's just that my eyebrows are so crunched up together and i'm so not in the mood of releasing them and making them at ease.
waaah!!!
grrr!!
i would prefer butterfies anyday...
maybe i'm just hungry. or i could be just being dellusional again. but what the heck i know for a fact that when it comes to tummy hurts with me, it always has to do with something psychological. sick huh?!? but not exactly...
well, it keeps me aware that i'm still alive and still can feel pain..
now i'm wondering.. and it's starting to making me think.. thus, putting some effort in my brain muscles. sooner or letter it will be my brain who will go blank..
i would have to face the monster under my bed.
okay, so i just started and here i am blabbing about getting pissed off..
i guess, that's already in my nature and no, there's nothing i can do about it. it's just that i have a knack for letting shit happen in my life. i know some would think i'm being too hard on myself or i'm not giving enough credit to fate, but it's true. it's like every step of the way i'm bound to fuck up in one way or another.
i love my job. i do. and i know i can be good at this. it's just that i'm stil new and i don't really know how to perfectly go about it. i would need constant guidance and insight. i'm running out of ideas and i really feel awkward in doing some things.. grrr.. i just want to blurt it out.
i know this would look like another blog filled with hate and sarcasm and something that would remind you how cruel the world. but it's the truth. i'm not sure when i've learned this sad truth about my life being jinxed, maybe second grade? hah!
i'm getting sick to my stomach. i'm starting to get light headed.. it seems i need oxygen but breathing in won't do it. i'm not sure if i'm holding my breath or subconsciously i'm depriving myself from breathing.. i thinkg i'm going to pass out. or at least i want to. but i don't want to escape like that. i want to get through this, with flying colors or not. i just want to get through this..
divine intervention? mere luck? what? there must be something i need to ease this tight feeling in my chest.. or do i just have to loosen my bra strap? hah! bitter sweet laughter..
am i going insane? well, when have i stopped. i just hate this feeling and i want to breathe.
help!
addressed to no one in particular.. again, reminding me that these are the moments in life when one needs someone or anyone and here i am all alone, barely standing.
i just want that Gmail account.. maybe that would make me smile.
i have been blogging for quite some time now and i was wondering what's the point of having more than one.. but then again, exploring web features is kinda my thing so i don't think it would bother me that much to update my blogs.
well, it's not that there's so much happening in my life but then again i'm too good in making things complicated. and besides, i don't intend to send this page to everyone because of my stalker in denial "freind". hehehehe
well, so much for a first entry, i'll go and explore this site first and find out how cool this really is.. ΓΌ
best friend.. i just can't define one. maybe because i have this idealistic picture of a best friend that everybody else would just come short. but i do believe at different points in my life i had one.. different ones. but then i would go and ask, best friends are supposed to be there always right? well, how would i know.. my definition doesn't have it but then again.. aarrgh!
as of the present i do have people who know me. i'm no longer the "who are you?" kind of friend. although testimonials from these people sometimes contradict, i wonder why, but they pretty much get the picture..
so, i was caught aback when one of these very few kindred spirits told me that, "it's so unlike you..."
then i stopped. took about two steps back.. and then shoot! yes.. it's sooo unlike me. i don't know what happened but there i can see it and totally point it out...
good thing or bad thing? i don't know.. we'll see.
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what is it like to undergo quarter life crisis? it's just that i seem to put myself in an imaginary crisis everyday that i'm really not sure whether i'm having the quarter-life one.. heheheh!
hah! this one is neat!
unknown, i tip some gin for you...
It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.
You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.
You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.
You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
