i'm not sure what really happened.
i can't even answer simple questions anymore. questions that are supposed to be very easy to answer because i was there. i can remember the words, everything that we talked about and the funny conclusion we came to reach. but somehow there still seems to be questions left unanswered. things that i'm not sure what. my eyebrows are still crunched up together and i still have that little pout that tells my mom i'm deep in thought.
i was about to make a mistake awhile ago, just because i had time to think. okay, at least now i can admit that it will be a mistake if i've gone through with the idea.
again, waiting.. for answers.. for things to happen.
i can't describe or figure out what i'm feeling right now or what i'm supposed to feel after everything that has happened.
i'm not confused.. it seem to be the wrong word to use.
are there regrets? i'm also not certain. but also i still can't think of things that i should have done. and so far, i'm really quick when it comes to things like these..
ah.. yes.. there was this question i think i should have asked. but then again that would be too rude and hurting.. and the whole situation already hurts a lot. so, maybe it's just right that i didn't think of it that time.
come to think of it, he gave me the answers to some questions i'm still asking right now.. it doesn't really give me a smile plastered across my face, but it gives a tug in my heart.. in a good way..
yeah, i guess i should really work out on this just being happy thing. eventually, things will turn out the way it's supposed to, right?!
i know saying eventually would again put me in the waiting state.. but what the heck.. i should get used to it by now..
ha! what do you know.. "Torn" is playing the radio.. nice..
