as days go by

coming to understand something clearly and distinctly;

making real or giving the appearance of reality

things you can't avoid...
i'm still amazed how much i can hold back. i have never been this way before. i always give in. but now, i'm actually putting up with the fight. i don't expect to win but i never expected that i could stay in the game.

one day maybe, when i fall to my knees and ask to stop this nonesense game of minds, maybe i will look at my scars and be proud..