staying

so, i was not meant to face my reflection.

i'm okay now.. living my motto.. expecting the worst but not expecting.. i'm still waiting but it doesn't feel as bad.

i have to go to ortigas tomorrow.. i have a job offer! at last! woohoo! haay.. thank you Lord!

well, i just sang this song in my head.. with no apparent reason.. this is from "RENT".

Take Me Or Leave Me - RENT

Maureen:
Every single day,
I walk down the street
I hear people say: "Baby's so sweet!"
Ever since puberty
Everybody stares at me,
Boys, girls I can't help it, baby.
So be kind, and don't lose your mind
Just remember, that I'm your baby

Take me for what I am!
Who I was meant to be!
And if you give a damn,
Take me baby,Or leave me!

Take me baby or leave me!

Maureen:
A tiger in a cage
Can never see the sun.
This diva needs her stage, baby,
Let's have fun!
You are the one I choose,
Folks would kill to fill your shoes!
You love the limelight too now, baby!
So be mine, and don't waste my time
Cryin', "Oh honey bear are you still my, my, my baby?"

Take me for what I am!
Who I was meant to be!
And, if you give a damn,
Take me baby, or leave me!

No way, can I be what I'm not!
But hey, don't you want your girl hot?
Don't fight, don't loose your head,
'Cause every night who's in your bed?
Who? Who's in your bed?
Spoken: Kiss Pookie?!

Joanne:
It won't work!
I look before I leap.
I love margins and discipline.
I make lists in my sleep, baby.
What's my sin?
Never quit.
I follow through.
I hate mess but I love you.
What to do with my impromptu baby?
So be wise, 'cause this girl satisfies,
You got a prize, but don't compromise
You're one lucky baby!!!

Joanne: Take me for what I am!
Maureen: Control freak!
Joanne: Who I was meant to be!
Maureen: A snob yet over attentive!
Joanne: And, if you give a damn!
Maureen: A loveable droll, geek!
Joanne: Take me baby or leave me!
Maureen: And anal retentive!

Both: That's it!
Joanne: The straw that breaks my back!
Both: I quit!
Joanne: Unless you take it back!
Both: Women,
Maureen:What is it about them?
Both: Can't live, with them or without them!

Chorus:
Both: Take me for what I am
Joanne: Who I was meant to be
Maureen: Who I was meant to be
and, if you give a damn
Joanne: and if you give a damn you better
Take me baby, or leave me
Maureen: Take me baby, take me or leave me
Both: Take me baby or leave me
Spoken: Guess I'm leaving, I'm gone!

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