thinking about it

it has been quite sometime since i had a "lif thought" entry here.. maybe because i've been trying to run away from my own thoughts lately.

why? i'm not really sure. maybe because there are actions needed to be done in lieu with those thoughts and i can't muster up the courage to do them yet. just when i told myself i can..

little by little i would again entertain the thought and would just look at where fate would lead me.

one thing is clear though, as much as it's very hard to not to, i no longer want to shed tears.

my head is constantly hurting just because of fighting back tears.

weird how, i have so many friends and i don't have anyone that i can think of that would understand..