what's wrong?

this is not the first time..
and i don't think it would be the last.

why do i have to always hurt..
but why aren't tears falling out.

i'm afraid i've let it pass me by..
but then again, when you went away, i didn't cry.

is there really something to look forward to..
will these unfallen tears ever dry?

sometimes i wonder if you will come..
or worse, were you even born in this life time?

is it selfish to long for something that was destined to be mine?
or is it my fate to be this way.. am i guilty of what crime?