pathetic excuse for a post

1. Is it ok when a boy calls you
dude?
→ yup

2. What was the last thing you put in
your mouth?
→ water

3. What does your last incoming text
message say?
→ Your Account balance as of ...

4. What was the last song you listened
to?
→ your call - secondhand serenade

5. What's irritating you right now?
→ heat

6. What did you do last night?
→ hmmm..

7. What are you excited for?
→ hmmm..

8. Pick a scar on your body, how'd you
get it?
→ dog bite

9. What did you do today?
→ use my laptop

10. What do you want to do when you get
out of high school/college?
→ hmmm..

11. Do you have any siblings?
→ yup.. we are 4 in the family

12. Are you signed onto AIM?
→ nope

13. What's your screenname?
→ no account there

14. Who's your most religious friend?
→ dyan?

15. Would you rather be drunk or high?
→ high

16. If you could change your name to
anything what would it be?
→ don't want to change it

17. What's the best compliment someone
could give you?
→ i hate compliments

18. Do you curse?
→ a lot!

19. Last time you took a plane, where
was it to?
→ from bacolod to manila

20. How many times a day do you log
into myspace?
→ don't have an account there

21. Last profile you went to?
→ mine

22. What's the first thing you would do
with five million bucks?
→ hmmm..

23. What was your last outgoing text
message...
→ empty message

24. What was the last thing you bought?
→ water?

25. Next thing you'll spend money on?
→ bills

26. Is there anybody you just wish
would fall off the planet?
→ ahhh.. naah..

27. If you had a son what would you
name him?
→ can't think of one right now

28. Look through the 2 nearest windows
what do you see?
→ blurred

29-32 MISSING IN ACTION.


33. What's your dream job?
→ narrator

34. Who's the last person that you felt
stalked by?
→ bwahahahahahahhaha!

35. If you could have any car what
would it be?
→ i don't know..

36. What's your favorite breakfast
food?
→ bacon

37. How do you like your eggs?
→ sunny side up with crunchy edges

38. If you could get any piercing where
would it be?
→ eyebrow

39. What do you hear?
→ music

40. What are you stressed out about?
→ work and time management

emotional? write!

I guess this is the reason why I have an entry everymonth at least.. because when I get emotional I get this feeling that I need to write. Here.

I miss a lot of things. I miss my siblings. I miss my crib. I miss my laptop. I miss surfing the net without restrictions. I miss watching cable tv. I miss eating the food at home. I miss the long trips going to and from work.

But I'm happier now than during the time I had all those things that I miss now. And if I choose to have the things that I miss, I would sacrifice the happiness that I have. Sometimes, the choice to make is harder than you think.

Love is so wasted on me.

my 3 little things

THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
.laarni
.barn
.lopez

THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR
LIFE:
.sept 18 birthday ko
.may 17 birthday nya
.feb 05 birthday namin

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 2
HOURS:
.chat with a dear friend
.drink coffee
.send a text message

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE pinoy BANDS:
.parokya ni edgar
.PnE
.kahit ano na

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
. make it your choice
. take everything in a lighter mode
. look at the bright side

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
.bliss by alicia peacock
.lips of an angel by hinder
.iris by goo goo dolls

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN A
PERSON:
.magandang ngipin
.mganda mata
.astig pumili ng sapatos

THREE PERSONS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
.si menan
.si cza-cza
.si djames

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
. back pack for my laptop
. one week leave
. condo unit

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
. malling
. internet surfing
. reading.. tagal ko ng hindi nagagawa

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO:
. Paris, France
. Rome
. UK

THREE GIRL'S/BOY'S NAMES:
. Chrysel
. Ramon
. Stitch

THREE PLACES.. YOU USUALLY GO TO:
. BCT
. Ayala Malls
. Honradez Dulo

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE fOod PARLOR:
. Tender Bob's
. World Chicken
. Mc Donald's

THREE FAVORITE DRINKS:
. red horse
. mango shake
. coffee

THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
. mobile phone
. wallet
. company ID

THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
. purple
. black
. green

EVENTS YOU'RE LOOKING FORWARD
TO:
. the next US non-working holiday
. birthday nya
. birthday namin

THREE Tambayans
. work station ko
. 6th floor
. dulong apartment sa orange na gate..

untitled

i really don't know how to put this..
i'm in love..

it should end there, right?
because i'm loved back..

and besides, the point is..
we're happy.

i have never been out of words this much whenever i'm in this state of..
.. bliss.

my top 2's

Two Names You Go By:
1. Laarni
2. barn

Two Songs You Love Listening To At The
Moment:
1. How Long - Hinder
2. what have you..

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. shirt
2. shorts

Two Things You Want in a
Relationship:
1. honesty
2. laughter

Two of Your Favorite Things to do:
1. eat
2. sleep

Two Things You Want Very Badly At The
moment:
1. shobe
2. shobe ulit

Two pets you had/have:
1. shobe
2. -

Two things you did last night:
1. hahahahahahhahhhahaha!
2. had a bottle of san mig light

Two things you ate today:
1. luncheon meat
2. macaroni soup

Two people you Last Talked To:
1. mommy
2. sir bay

Two Things You'll be doing tomorrow:
1. work
2. work

Two Favorite Holidays:
1. lenten season
2. all US non-working Holidays

Two favorite beverages:
1. coffee
2. mango shake

Two favorite channels:
1. animax
2. HBO

Two favorite foods:
1. ice cream
2. cakes

Two things you want to do before you
die:
1. surf
2. spend a whole day with someone i love in bed

where were you?

I had a Visayan weekend. January 25 - 28, 2008

The plane tickets we got were bound to Bacolod. From Bacolod (we stayed for a night), we went to Iloilo to witness and celebrate the Dinagyang Festival!

We stayed with ate nini's uncle. We watched the dances. Bought stuff. Ate! Slept! Lived the provincial life.

Then, went back to reality.. which, surprisingly became a little brighter.

The Best Record Album

Please let me know what is the best record album for you. Just reply with the name of the artist/band and the title of their album. You can suggest as much as you want. Thanks!

what's wrong?

this is not the first time..
and i don't think it would be the last.

why do i have to always hurt..
but why aren't tears falling out.

i'm afraid i've let it pass me by..
but then again, when you went away, i didn't cry.

is there really something to look forward to..
will these unfallen tears ever dry?

sometimes i wonder if you will come..
or worse, were you even born in this life time?

is it selfish to long for something that was destined to be mine?
or is it my fate to be this way.. am i guilty of what crime?

looking for someone

so, how are you going to look for someone that you don't know?

you know how he should look like, but you don't know how he does..
you don't know his name, but you know how you want to call him..

you ask good friends to look for him too, but can't put up a missing person case..

you feel the loneliness of his absence even if you've never been together..

haaay..

2007: hmmm..

trip down memory lane..

January

gemalyn
Kampai's 4th Anniversary
from The Achievers to The Chewables

February

hospitalization
The Chewables and The Royalties in Laguna
tried to blog professionally
wrote for The Chewables
eChat agent
myLot addict

March

MT2 Drama Fest
still trying to make this blog look professional - hahaha!
earning through myLot
new phone! my Nokia 6111.. thanks ebay!

April

hating Pleakley
campaigned for BoyT
JM's Unofficial Birthday

May

more Gapan
Ally McBeal marathon
Puerto Gallera with PB batch mates
got first pay out from myLot
news beats
went to Batangas with The Achievers
Robbie is back in Manila!
won a mind game

June

Kampai back to Bagac, Bataan!
Sykes Summer Picnic in Subic
king kong
had PnE pics
new WFC
start of the end

July

making new great friends
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows!
chito?
postponing the ending, but it's there

August

sleepless in makati
trinoma, the block, glorietta
a little gapan
Heroes and 4400
killed king kong.. or so, i tried
bahay-bahayan

September

turning 23 - with kampai, sykes and pamilyang kay saya
very fruitful blog entries

October

new organizational chart
my secret crushes
finished Ally McBeal
PAGUDPUD!
Sykes Picnic Part 2

November

the end
goodbye, amang
drinking session
new home for my cogitations!
will turner returns.. but not really..
Lemony Snicket
daddy went home
Romeo Labs Juliet
Joy is back in the Philippines!

December

Enchanted
Snuffle
Snievel
Christmas away from home
confirmed!

could not say anything, but.. thank God for 2007! Thanks for making me survive myself.. Looking forward to more adventures in 2008!

2007 Questions

2007 is almost over!! repost this with
"2007 questions"

1. Did you fall in love?
-- more of "yes" than "no"

2. Did you get any new best friends?
-- yeah!

3. Did you start dis-liking some one?
-- uhuh..

4. Did you get your heart broken?
-- as always...

5. If you could change some thing about
this past year, what would it be?
-- hmm.. snuffle..

6. Are you happy of how things turned out?
-- it depends on what aspect in life..

7. Did you get any tattoos? Where and
what of?
-- nope..

8. Did you get any thing pierced? Where?
-- naaah..

9. What's your new favorite color(s)?
-- nothing much changed there..

10. Did you do any thing life changing?
-- hmmm.. i broke up with stitch..

11. Favorite piece of clothing?
-- shirt from Polo

12. Did you go to any parties?
-- hmm.. can't remember.. maybe no..

13. Did you have any surgeries?
-- nope...

14. Do you like our president?
-- in a way..

15. Do you support our troops?
-- who?

16. Were you in the relay for life?
-- what?

17. Did you get engaged/married?
-- far from it actually..

18.
--

19. What's your favorite thing you got
for christmas last year?
-- last year? did i get anything?

20. What's the thing you want the most
this year for Christmas?
-- haaay..

21. Has any body you loved passed away?
-- my grand father.. father side.. we're not that close.. but in a way i loved him.

22. How's school going so far?
-- still no sign of going back

23. Did you get any pets this year?
-- king kong

24. Did you have any "new" members added
to your family?
-- nope..

25. What's your favorite song?
-- Big Girls Don't Cry

26. Who's your favorite band?
-- PNE pa rin.. forever na siguro..

27. Favorite person in your family?
-- naku! si kuya amiel..

28. Have you had a job?
-- managed to stay with this one.

29. Have you been arrested?
-- mabilis tumakbo..

30. Have you been in trouble?
-- as always..

31. Have you thought about suicide/murder?
-- just a thought

32. Are you emo?
-- not really..

33. Favorite trend of the year?
-- not that trendy..

34. What decade do you wish you could
live in?
-- hmmm... not sure..

36. Do you have a crush on someone?
-- yeah..

37. Favorite quote/saying?
-- "I'm gaining on happiness and I am going to get there one day." - Ally McBeal

38. New Year's resolution?
-- none.. so far..

from 2007 to 2008

i am such a grinch.. i did not go home this Christmas day. i never thought i would be able to do such, even if i've been thinking of doing this for quite a long time now. so, there.. i've done it.. Christmas 2007.

so, where was i? i was in makati. i was with borris and mommy joy and kuya pat.. borris was sick and i can't really leave him all alone during Christmas day and feeling that way. so, there.

i had the most number of posts this year since 2004. it would be very easy to look back at the year that passed.

but whatever happened during this year, the most important question would be.. where am i right now?

i'm a single nicotine-caffeine addict that works as a workforce coordinator for a stingy account, with great friends and no love-life.

will it be the same after 2008.. for some factors, i hope it would be the same.. but for other aspects, i hope it would change for the better..

haaaay.. excited and disgusted at the same time..

ex boy friends day

is it ex boy friends' day today or am i just.. should i say lucky? or should i say jinxed?

obviously there are mixed emotions here. so, how do i expect to find or get someone new?

or, maybe that's it.. it's not yet time to have someone new.

the funny thing is.. i'm about to have someone new.. and it's like the whole universe ganged up on me to prevent it from happening. i should have known it from the start. the signs were obviously there. and i kept on insisting that if there's a will there's a way. i've been asking myself have i done everything i can already. at some extent, yes.. but the more obvious fact is, no.. because if i have.. i'm not supposed to be writing this here.. and now. but i am.

it's written in the stars. it's just not meant to be.. and i hope.. for now. but if not.. and i'm destined to be alone.. then, so be it.. i guess, i would be better off.

okay, so, chito was online.. and i'm now talking to stitch..




i bumped into harry, and king kong.. king kong's gone. fievel sent me a message.. but there's nothing really there..

poor snuffle.. i'm really sorry.. bad timing.

talking about something I don't want to talk about

Longest relationship:
- a sum of 25 months

Have you ever thought that you were
going to marry the person you were
dating?
- yeah..

Have you ever loved someone so much
that it hurt?
- uhuh..

Have you ever made a boyfriend or
girlfriend cry?:
- sadly, yes..

Are you happier single or in a
relationship?
- i'm not yet sure.. but it's better to be lonely alone, than lonely with someone

Have you ever been cheated on?
- yeah

Have you ever had your heart broken?:
- yup..

Have you ever broken someone's heart?
- not sure..

Talk to any of your exes?
- hmm.. i'm afraid of one.. i asked the other to stop talking to me, but be friends.. and the other is not talking to me.. just like when we were still together..

If you could go back in time and change
things to where you could still be with
one of your ex's, would you?
- maybe not..

Think any of your ex's feel the same
way?
- no

Do you believe that you are a good
boyfriend or girlfriend?
- i did.. i need to believe that i am.

Have you dated people who were not
good to you?:
- yeah

Have you dated someone older than you?
- hmm.. just a year or two..

Younger?
- yeah

Do you regret anything that you have
done with a boyfriend or girlfriend?
- hmm.. i pretty much like where i am right now.. and this would not be this because of the things that i've done.

Do you want to get married?:
- no longer sure what my answer is..

Do you have something to say to any of
your exes?
-yes.

Ever stolen someone's boyfriend or
girlfriend?
- not intentionally

Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or
girlfriend?
- bwahahahahahaha!

Does heartbreak really feel as bad as
it sounds?
- yes.. and more.

Do you wonder how you're most recent
ex is now?
- sometimes..

you should know that i should know

That's How You Know
Amy Adams

Giselle:
How does she know you love her?
How does she know she's yours?

Man:
How does she know that you love her?

Giselle:
How do you show her you love her?

Both:
How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?
How does she know that you love her?
How do you show her you love her?
How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?

Giselle:
It's not enough to take the one you love for granted
You must remind her, or she'll be inclined to say...
"How do I know he loves me?"
(How does she know that you love her?
How do you show her you love her?)
"How do I know he's mine?"
(How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?)

Well does he leave a little note to tell you you are on his mind?
Send you yellow flowers when the sky is grey? Heyy!
He'll find a new way to show you, a little bit everyday
That's how you know, that's how you know!
He's your love...

Man:
You've got to show her you need her
Don't treat her like a mind reader
Each day do something to need her
To believe you love her

Giselle:
Everybody wants to live happily ever after
Everybody wants to know their true love is true...
How do you know he loves you?
(How does she know that you love her?
How do you show her you need her?)
How do you know he's yours?
(How does she know that you really, really, truely-)

Well does he take you out dancin' just so he can hold you close?
Dedicate a song with words in
Just for you? Ohhh!

All:
He'll find his own way to tell you
With the little things he'll do
That's how you know
That's how you know!

Giselle:
He's your love
He's your love...

That's how you know
(la la la la la la la la)
He loves you
(la la la la la la la la)
That's how you know
(la la la la la la la la)
It's true
(la la la la la)

Because he'll wear your favorite color
Just so he can match your eyes
Rent a private picnic
By the fires glow-oohh!

All:
His heart will be yours forever
Something everyday will show
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know!

Giselle:
He's your love...

Man:
That's how she knows that you love her
That's how you show her you love her

Giselle:
That's how you know...
That's how you know...
He's your love...

EMOTION TEST DON'T CHEAT

emotion test...DON'T CHEAT
write your answers underneath the
question.
The answers are at the bottom, BUT
don't cheat.
Then repost this for others to answer.


1 .which color is better red,
black,blue or yellow?
~ blue

2. your first initial?
~ l

3. what month were you born in??
~ september

4. which color do you like more, black
or white?
~ black

5. name one of your friends?
~ eloisa

6. your favorite number?
~ 5

7. do you like flying or driving more?
~ flying

8. do you like a lake or the ocean
more?
~ ocean

9. think of a wish, but don't
write it
~

1. if you chose:

red- you are alert and your life is
full of love.

black - you are conservative and
aggressive.


blue- you are spontaneous and love
kisses and affection from the ones you
love and give good advice to those who
are down. === true!

yellow - you are a very happy person..


2. if you're initial is:

a-k - you have a lot of love and
friendships in your life.

l-q - you try to enjoy your life to the
maximum & your love life is soon to
blossom. === not hoping..

r- z - you like to help others and your
future love life looks very good.


3. if you were born in:

jan-mar - the year will go very well
for you and you will discover that you
fall in love with someone totally
unexpecte d.


apri l- june - you will have a strong
love relationship that will last
forever.


july -sept - you will have a great year
and will experience a major
life-changing experience for the good. === the year is about to end.. i'm still clueless.


oct -dec - your love life will be
great,and eventually you will find
your soul
mate.

4. if you chose:

black: your life will take on a
different direction, it will seem hard
at the times but will be the best thing
for you, and you will be glad for the
change. ---- little bit tired of it === same here!

white: you will have a friend who
completely confides in you and would do
anything for you, but you may not
realize it.

5. this person is your best friend.

6. this is how many true friends you
have in your lifetime. == hahahah!

7. if you chose:

flying - you like adventure.

dr iving- you are a laid back person.

8. if you chose:

lake - you are loyal to your friends
and your lover and yourself are very
reserved and not emotional.

ocean - you are spontaneous and like
to please people sometimes.

9. this wish will come true only if you
repost this with the title:

EMOTION TEST DON'T CHEAT

ilocos escapade day 3: beach day!

october 19, 2007

borris and i woke up very early to see the fishermen near the area and try to buy some fish. but then, there was not much fish to buy. maybe because of the season. so, there... we just took pictures and then, when we get back to the room, i had some sleep again! bwahahaha!

and then, beach day! we took a lot of pictures and enjoyed the waves as much as we can.

and during the night time.. we smoked tabacco and drank the "tequilla" we bought from yesterday.. then the other guests, those who were having a seminar, gave us some "boracay mix"..

and what a good sleep we had!

*no more blog entries for the other days in pagudpud.. just see the pictures.

quotes from ally mc beal

Season 2
Episode: Sideshow

Billy: "I think you have, and always will have, self esteem issues and if you don't get the necessary affirmation from your husband, you might go someplace else to look for it."

Ally: "I'm gaining on happiness and I am going to get there one day."

segue

it seems that uploading our ilocos pictures will take a month..

and a lot has been happening lately..

my grandfather died last friday, november 2.. still went to work that night.

i was scheduled to be absent on monday, thus, i went to work on a sunday.. thus, you know what..

aagh! why did i have to give him the address to this site. but most probably, he already lost it or forgot it.. right? so, why am i holding back in writing things about us..

okay, just the basics and less thoughts..

• lunch
• had a drink or two

then, i went to julius' pad to spend the night. ninang was there.. and so was dum.. and their boy friends.

my dad of course went home. last monday, november 5, we picked him up from the airport. and received the new home of my cogitations! i'm still giddy! heheheheh!

i really need to write my letter for king kong. i think it would make me more sane if i get to finish it.

then, just today.. will asked to be my friend in friendster. after a gruesome ending i never thought that would happen. and since i'm not good in holding grudges, i clicked on "yes". then, saw his profile.. i think this is a new girl. most probably is. i'm not sure now, if it's a good thing or a bad thing.. and i can't say i'm happy for him. so, why is there a crunching pain in my chest? and i seemed to stop breathing? getting nauseous..

sh!+

his big brother hasn't been online since my last message. oh, and if i'm correct, his birthday falls on the same day as will's. waaaaah!

haaaaay.. can't breathe well..

grrrr.... why did i give in to this segue.. i should have just patiently waited for the ilocos series to finish.. hmpf!

ilocos escapade day 2: conquering ilocos norte!

october 18, 2007

having no clear idea where we're going.. we woke up early to go to laoag.

we had breakfast at a store in the pagudpud market.. we were so, noisy, but the owner was really nice. she gave us hot water for our coffee and instant noodles. a typical break fast in manila savored in pagudpud.

after the 2 hour bus ride to laoag, we went to the first museum we saw.. hehehe!

after taking gazillion of pictures in the said museum, our tummy's were already rumbling. we went to the city hall to ask for things to see and where to satisfy our hunger. we were directed to la preciosa, and there we met cris, our tour guide for the day.

we rented a jeep and together with cris we went to different spots in ilocos norte.

as gigi requested, we went to fort ilocandia. had pictures taken, of course. we bought a pack of tabacco as souveneir and had an appetite for ice cream.

we then went to a golf course on our way to the malacanang of the north. then we explored the old malacanang.

then,we went to the very beautiful paoay church. although, the church inside is very "new" the facade and everything you see outside is still very majestic.

we were like in amazing race as we rush to batac to be able to see marcos' moseleo. and gigi is such a big fan of the marcoses. thinking that it closes at 5:00 pm we are very much sure that we'd still be able to see it. but then, it was closed. and saw the sign, it closes at 4:00 pm. we didn't leave right away since gigi was so eager to see it today. with eloisa's charm and all. they opened the moseleo for us! and there.. the wax copy of ferdinand marcos.

before we head back to pagudpud, eloisa would not stop until we get a picture of anything "batac". since that's her last name and all. so, there. at the welcome ark of batac, she posed and took a lot of pictures.

we were so tired. and at last we reached laoag. we said good bye to chris and to our very silent driver.

we opted to have take out jollibee for dinner and we brought "groceries" which includes, tequilla! heheheh! it's for the next day..

on the pagudpud terminal, the next in line to leave was the same bus we rode yesterday when we first arrived in laoag! the conductor was able to remember us and gave us the same deal of taking us straight to our resort.

in the bus, we met this kid that came from school in laoag and goes home in another town that is about an hour of bus ride. it was really late. and we asked how old he was, he said his in first year high school and he looks like 9 or 10. his name is france.

we also met "nanay", the old lady who was jolly at first and ended up scaring us!

after eating, borris, eloisa and i decided to spend some time by the sea shore. shared stories and laughed. the tide was so strong. the stars were so many and so bright! there were even falling stars. i think i saw three. and i don't have any idea what to wish for.

such an eventful day.. but still can't wait for the next!