idée fixe

idée fixe
idée fixe
idée fixe

i'll be fooling myself if i won't admit this fixation. i'll be fooling myself. i'm sorry, but i'm still human and some things are really hard to comprehend and more difficult to unravel. once again, i'm doomed. i guess i'm okay but not entirely. i mean i stil wil survive this yet another damnation but after all the things that i've gone through i don't think it would even need one good cry.

i still can't get myself to write things in detail because of this imagination that someone is actually reading every entry. i hate mind games. i hate things that i don't know while others do, well, just things concerning me of course. i really hate mind games and the agony it brings me every step of the way.

and it's actually happenning right now. it wasn't the same a while ago.. but there.. it's happening.

i hate you! i hate you! i hate you!

screw assumptions and here-says!

again it placed me in a position i don't like. i hate having the
pressure of asking yourself if you'd have to react or not. it's a
debate on whether you're just making things clear or making
things worse.

waah!