not in the mood

for quite s0me time now, at least two days, i've been meaning to write a letter. but just here. for him..

but there are always things that stop me.

yesterday. because what i would be writing would probably too defensive and too pissed.
when i got home. there are unwanted visitors.
now. they're already up, and they're getting in my nerves.

i always thought of writing it during working hours. but then.. there would be too many eyes that will see.. and there's a lot of things to do.. really.

there will come a time i would be able to write the letter. i have too. i need too. everyone got their letter.. i think. and he so, deserve one from me..

haaay.. as i've told Pink 5 and stig yesterday at the deck in glorietta, "i need other things to think about aside from work."

then, i contemplated on the other aspects of life..

i then, realized, much needs thinking about of.. but, like work, i don't want to think about it and it seems to be pathetic thinking about them..

that would include, finances, family, so-called love life, religion..

so, what's left to think about...

i thought of fiction.. bwahahahhaahh!
then, thought of, friends.. who?!? where?!? when?!?

there.. i think, i would have something to think about, aside from work.. i hope...

waaaaaaahhhh! stop kidding yourself! you can't help but think about work and the tasks you are about to do and the stinking fact that after much effort you will not be able to meet the standards and be regularized in that position, because you simply don't measure up, and you're jinxed!